White Fang by Jack London (read the beginning after the end novel txt) 📕

things.  He would now destroy a big live thing.  He was too busy and happy to know that he was happy.  He was thrilling and exulting in ways new to him and greater to him than any he had known before.

He held on to the wing and growled between his tight-clenched teeth.  The ptarmigan dragged him out of the bush.  When she turned and tried to drag him back into the bush’s shelter, he pulled her away from it and on into the open.  And all the time she was making outcry and striking with her free wing, while feathers were flying like a snow-fall.  The pitch to which he was aroused was tremendous.  All the fighting blood of his breed was up in him and surging through him.  This was living, though he did not know it.  He was realising his own meaning in the world; he was doing that for which he was made—killing meat and battling to kill it.  He was justifying his existence, than which life can do no greater; for life achieves its summit when it does to the uttermost that which it was equipped to do.

After a time, the ptarmigan ceased her struggling.  He still held her by the wing, and they lay on the ground and looked at each other.  He tried to growl threateningly, ferociously.  She pecked on his nose, which by now, what of previous adventures was sore.  He winced but held on.  She pecked him again and again.  From wincing he went to whimpering.  He tried to back away from her, oblivious to the fact that by his hold on her he dragged her after him.  A rain of pecks fell on his ill-used nose.  The flood of fight ebbed down in him, and, releasing his prey, he turned tail and scampered on across the open in inglorious retreat.

He lay down to rest on the other side of the open, near the edge of the bushes, his tongue lolling out, his chest heaving and panting, his nose still hurting him and causing him to continue his whimper.  But as he lay there, suddenly there came to him a feeling as of something terrible impending.  The unknown with all its terrors rushed upon him, and he shrank back instinctively into the shelter of the bush.  As he did so, a draught of air fanned him, and a large, winged body swept ominously and silently past.  A hawk, driving down out of the blue, had barely missed him.

While he lay in the bush, recovering from his fright and peering fearfully out, the mother-ptarmigan on the other side of the open space fluttered out of the ravaged nest.  It was because of her loss that she paid no attention to the winged bolt of the sky.  But the cub saw, and it was a warning and a lesson to him—the swift downward swoop of the hawk, the short skim of its body just above the ground, the strike of its talons in the body of the ptarmigan, the ptarmigan’s squawk of agony and fright, and the hawk’s rush upward into the blue, carrying the ptarmigan away with it.

It was a long time before the cub left its shelter.  He had learned much.  Live things were meat.  They were good to eat.  Also, live things when they were large enough, could give hurt.  It was better to eat small live things like ptarmigan chicks, and to let alone large live things like ptarmigan hens.  Nevertheless he felt a little prick of ambition, a sneaking desire to have another battle with that ptarmigan hen—only the hawk had carried her away.  May be there were other ptarmigan hens.  He would go and see.

He came down a shelving bank to the stream.  He had never seen water before.  The footing looked good.  There were no inequalities of surface.  He stepped boldly out on it; and went down, crying with fear, into the embrace of the unknown.  It was cold, and he gasped, breathing quickly.  The water rushed into his lungs instead of the air that had always accompanied his act of breathing.  The suffocation he experienced was like the pang of death.  To him it signified death.  He had no conscious knowledge of death, but like every animal of the Wild, he possessed the instinct of death.  To him it stood as the greatest of hurts.  It was the very essence of the unknown; it was the sum of the terrors of the unknown, the one culminating and unthinkable catastrophe that could happen to him, about which he knew nothing and about which he feared everything.

He came to the surface, and the sweet air rushed into his open mouth.  He did not go down again.  Quite as though it had been a long-established custom of his he struck out with all his legs and began to swim.  The near bank was a yard away; but he had come up with his back to it, and the first thing his eyes rested upon was the opposite bank, toward which he immediately began to swim.  The stream was a small one, but in the pool it widened out to a score of feet.

Midway in the passage, the current picked up the cub and swept him downstream.  He was caught in the miniature rapid at the bottom of the pool.  Here was little chance for swimming.  The quiet water had become suddenly angry.  Sometimes he was under, sometimes on top.  At all times he was in violent motion, now being turned over or around, and again, being smashed against a rock.  And with every rock he struck, he yelped.  His progress was a series of yelps, from which might have been adduced the number of rocks he encountered.

Below the rapid was a second pool, and here, captured by the eddy, he was gently borne to the bank, and as gently deposited on a bed of gravel.  He crawled frantically clear of the water and lay down.  He had learned some more about the world.  Water was not alive.  Yet it moved.  Also, it looked as solid as the earth, but was without any solidity at all.  His conclusion was that things were not always what they appeared to be.  The cub’s fear of the unknown was an inherited distrust, and it had now been strengthened by experience.  Thenceforth, in the nature of things, he would possess an abiding distrust of appearances.  He would have to learn the reality of a thing before he could put his faith into it.

One other adventure was destined for him that day.  He had recollected that there was such a thing in the world as his mother.  And then there came to him a feeling that he wanted her more than all the rest of the things in the world.  Not only was his body tired with the adventures it had undergone, but his little brain was equally tired.  In all the days he had lived it had not worked so hard as on this one day.  Furthermore, he was sleepy.  So he started out to look for the cave and his mother, feeling at the same time an overwhelming rush of loneliness and helplessness.

He was sprawling along between some bushes, when he heard a sharp intimidating cry.  There was a flash of yellow before his eyes.  He saw a weasel leaping swiftly away from him.  It was a small live thing, and he had no fear.  Then, before him, at his feet, he saw an extremely small live thing, only several inches long, a young weasel, that, like himself, had disobediently gone out adventuring.  It tried to retreat before him.  He turned it over with his paw.  It made a queer, grating noise.  The next moment the flash of yellow reappeared before his eyes.  He heard again the intimidating cry, and at the same instant received a sharp blow on the side of the neck and felt the sharp teeth of the mother-weasel cut into his flesh.

While he yelped and ki-yi’d and scrambled backward, he saw the mother-weasel leap upon her young one and disappear with it into the neighbouring thicket.  The cut of her teeth in his neck still hurt, but his feelings were hurt more grievously, and he sat down and weakly whimpered.  This mother-weasel was so small and so savage.  He was yet to learn that for size and weight the weasel was the most ferocious, vindictive, and terrible of all the killers of the Wild.  But a portion of this knowledge was quickly to be his.

He was still whimpering when the mother-weasel reappeared.  She did not rush him, now that her young one was safe.  She approached more cautiously, and the cub had full opportunity to observe her lean, snakelike body, and her head, erect, eager, and snake-like itself.  Her sharp, menacing cry sent the hair bristling along his back, and he snarled warningly at her.  She came closer and closer.  There was a leap, swifter than his unpractised sight, and the lean, yellow body disappeared for a moment out of the field of his vision.  The next moment she was at his throat, her teeth buried in his hair and flesh.

At first he snarled and tried to fight; but he was very young, and this was only his first day in the world, and his snarl became a whimper, his fight a struggle to escape.  The weasel never relaxed her hold.  She hung on, striving to press down with her teeth to the great vein where his life-blood bubbled.  The weasel was a drinker of blood, and it was ever her preference to drink from the throat of life itself.

The grey cub would have died, and there would have been no story to write about him, had not the she-wolf come bounding through the bushes.  The weasel let go the cub and flashed at the she-wolf’s throat, missing, but getting a hold on the jaw instead.  The she-wolf flirted her head like the snap of a whip, breaking the weasel’s hold and flinging it high in the air.  And, still in the air, the she-wolf’s jaws closed on the lean, yellow body, and the weasel knew death between the crunching teeth.

The cub experienced another access of affection on the part of his mother.  Her joy at finding him seemed even greater than his joy at being found.  She nozzled him and caressed him and licked the cuts made in him by the weasel’s teeth.  Then, between them, mother and cub, they ate the blood-drinker, and after that went back to the cave and slept.

CHAPTER V—THE LAW OF MEAT

The cub’s development was rapid.  He rested for two days, and then ventured forth from the cave again.  It was on this adventure that he found the young weasel whose mother he had helped eat, and he saw to it that the young weasel went the way of its mother.  But on this trip he did not get lost.  When he grew tired, he found his way back to the cave and slept.  And every day thereafter found him out and ranging a wider area.

He began to get accurate measurement of his strength and his weakness, and to know when to be bold and when to be cautious.  He found it expedient to be cautious all the time, except for the rare moments, when, assured of his own intrepidity, he abandoned himself to petty rages and lusts.

He was always a little demon of fury when he chanced upon a stray ptarmigan.  Never did he fail to respond savagely to the chatter of the squirrel he had first met on the blasted pine.  While the sight of a moose-bird almost invariably put him into the wildest of rages; for he never forgot the peck on the nose he had received from the first of that ilk he encountered.

But there were times when even a moose-bird failed to affect him, and those were times when he felt himself to be in danger from