It's not what it seems by Sasha Reese (best ereader for pc .txt) 📕

I came hope so happy. Honestly, I don’t remember when the last time I was happy. I walked to my mom’s room as quietly as quietly as I could, because she was a light sleeper. I peeked in, hoping that her “friend” was gone, but sadly he wasn’t and I did not want to see what I did. I quietly ran to my bathroom, took a shower, brushed my teeth, put my pj’s on and went to bed. The next morning I woke up to a yell.

“Veronica Emma Nobles, get your butt down here!” Mom yelled

Uggggghhhhhhh!!! What did I do now!?

“Mkay mom. I’ll be right there.” I yelled back

I ran downstairs to see Jake standing in the kitchen talking to my mom.

“Good morning Jake. What are you doing here?” I ask

“I came to visit you. It’s Saturday.” He said

“I knew that. Just if you ever come over on a Saturday, please don’t come early!” I say annoyed

“Sleepy head.” Jake said laughing

“Shut up”

“You’re also grumpy.”

“It’s not funny.” I exclaimed

“Sorry to interrupt your little conversation here, but Emma can we have a word, outside, please?” Mom asked

“Fine.” I say still grumpy

We walk to the back porch.

“Yes mom?” I ask

“Who is this guy, why is he here at the house?” Mom asks clearly mad

“His name is Jake. He is my friend and he’s here to study for school because we have a huge test Monday, okay?” I say

There was nooo way that she was going to know that we were dating.

“Just let me know next time okay Emma?”

“Fine. But I didn’t have a chance because of the “friend” that was over last night.” I say

“Don’t talk to your mother that way Emma.”

“Fine mom.” I say as I walk away

“What was that all about?” Jake asked

“Let’s just go to my room.” I say

“Mkay.”

“Emma, I’m going out to the movies!” Mom yelled

“Mkay mom. Have fun!” I yell back

“I guess were all alone.” Jake says in a seductive voice

 “I guess we are” I barely whisper leaning in.

I kiss Jake, slowly at first, then faster and faster, I push him down and keep kissing him. I hear Jake moan softly. I break the kiss and laugh quietly.

“What’s so funny?” Jake asks confused

“You” I reply still laughing

“Don’t laugh at me!” Jake says in a demanding voice

“Yes sir.”“Lay down.” Jake orders

Geeze a little bossy pants I have here.

I laid down and Jake started to take my shirt off.

“NO!” I screamed

“What, what’s wrong?” Jake asks

“You can’t do that.” I exclaim

“Why not?” Jake asks

“I no, so stop it now!” I say forcefully

“Ok, ok, gosh.”

“I’m sorry I lost it.”

“No, I understand, but why?”

“I can’t say”

“I’m your best friend, your boyfriend… What is so important that you can’t tell me?!” Jake says a little aggravated

“I um, well, you see…” I hesitate

“Spit it out.”

“Damn fine.” I say as I pull both of my sleeves up.

Jake just stares.

“Jake…” I say concerned

“I am leaving. I will talk to you tomorrow.”

He says standing up and leaving.

“Ok. I love you!” I yell

He didn’t respond. I heard the door slam. I was so scared that he had hated me like everyone else! I was going to tell him why I cut, but he just left. I mean it isn’t my fault that my stepfather physically and sexually abused me, it’s not my fault I am anorexic and bulimic, it isn’t my fault that I was adopted, that I was separated from my sister! Oh no wait, it was and it still is! 

 I was on my way to class when I saw Jake standing there.

“What are you doing here? Your first class is history.” I said

“I’m here to see you. I’m sorry for walking out on you Emma. I know that you need someone in your life that won’t walk out on you. I do think that we need to address this problem to your mom.”

“I am not going to tell my mom, you are not going to tell my mom. Do you understand?”

“Yes I do. Just tell me that next time that you do it, you will tell me?” Jake asks in concern

“Yeah. Whatever. I’m going to be late. Bye.” I say walking away leaving Jake just standing there stunned.

I walk into the class room and head straight for the back. I didn’t want to go to school today. Maybe I can just skip school after this class, or why don’t I just leave now. I stood up to leave when the teacher came in.

“Good morning Mrs. Emma, how are you?” Mr. Road (pronounced Rod) asked

“I am quite well, how are you?” I ask

“Jolly good ma’am.”

“If you don’t mind I will be right back, I have to use the restroom.”

“Alright. Hurry back class is about to start."

”Man that was a close one. I finally made it outside and just started walking in a direction.

I didn’t know where I was going. Soon I was close to the woods. I ran into the woods happy as could be. I loved the woods, it was like I was meant to thrive in the woods, even though I hate living in the country. I was walking around when I saw this big magnificent tree, I was guessing it was an old pecan tree. Then I saw a swing bench on it. I am so thrilled. I pulled out my favorite book and walked towards that swing. Apparently I didn’t see the other side of the swing and just to my luck guess who was sitting there, Jake. I stood there unable to know what was going on.

“What are you doing here?!” I say frustrated

“Nothing, just sitting. What are you doing here?”

“I’m skipping school, what do you think idiot!”

“Can we talk?”

“Yeah sure. Whatever you want.”

“Like I said I am very sorry I walked out on you last-”

“Shut up Jake. I talk not you.” Well that was hurtful haha. I am laughing secretly inside.

“You don’t have to apologize. You don’t even have to keep it a secret. I shouldn’t have let you do anything to me last night. I shouldn’t even have let you in. This has been my secret since god knows when. I am not talking to you about this or anyone else. In fact I am not talking to you or anyone for a while. I am going to skip school and isolate myself to think about what I have done. I advise you stay away from me.” I am practically yelling now.This time it is me walking away.

I do wish there was a door there so I could slam it just like he slammed my door. 

Publication Date: 02-09-2015

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This is dedicated to all those who are suffering from pain, and want a books that they can relate to...