my life by natalie loren (fun to read TXT) 📕

We then made our way to mom and once there we had some delicious smelts. Yumz! I had been wanting some for ever and I’m so glad my mom made us some. We then went back to town to see Paddington 2 which I didn’t even watch the first one. I didn’t really wanted to see that movie but mom wanted too so we went but in the end I’m glad we did go cause it was super cute. I didn’t think I would enjoy it like I did. Of course we went back to the Entertainment Center after the movie and I feel so bad cause mom lost so much money. She had won some last time she went but she ended up playing it all and losing it all. I ended up making $20 again so I came back home with $40 more than when I left. That’s good!

Mom had bought a game but we didn’t even play it. We got back to her place and everyone just wanted to be lazy. We still managed to only go to bed at almost 2 am and I slept until almost 1 pm. My mom and friend had some fun together as they made meat pies in the morning.

Our way back was terrible as it was storming and of course I was the one driving. Hub drove up to town and when we stopped for gas we switched place. Smart little devil he is! Took me an extra half hour as the roads were horrible but I still managed to drive some what fast. My friend kept telling me that I did very good and that she was proud of me as the roads were just horrible and I couldn’t see shit. I didn’t even know where I was really driving. Lol! I was mainly okay, it was just when we would meet cars that I would stress a bit as you never know what the other person will do. But I managed to get us all safely back home.

Now let’s try to sleep without a pill. I’m tired so hopefully it will be alright. I’m not even gonna bother with reading cause I feel too tired.

I just want to cry right now. I haven’t started my car since Tue when I switched the cars around but it hasn’t been that cold so I figured it would be alright. I just tried starting it cause we need to bring it to the body shop tomorrow and, IT DIDN’T START. It doesn’t even click so I don’t think it’s the battery and I just really want to cry right now. I’m waiting on hub to get out the washroom so we can go have a look but I don’t think we’ll be able to figure out what’s wrong. I’m hoping that maybe the connection to the battery is loose or something but I just have a bad feeling. My head is just thinking of having to buy a new car cause this one just seem to want to die. I hope we can figure it out, I really do cause I don’t want to have to buy another car. I just want to fix mine and have it be alright.

I wanted to go relax in a nice bath but of course something had to happen. I still need that bath no matter what as it helps my body after a day of work at the store but really, I just want my car. Why?! I just don’t understand why I have such bad luck. I want to curl up in a corner and cry for the rest of the week.

I just really don’t know anymore.. I just want to give up on a lot of things cause nothing ever works out for me. I want to believe that me and hub will get out there and fix it.

Publication Date: 01-24-2018

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Dedication:
(1 of the many I ignore. I’ve had to go to Whole Foods shopping early in the morning, to avoid being stalked and trolled by her, her connections, and whomever she intertwined. She has told checkers and her mother in law, to not talk to me, because my confidence cowers her and others. They’re women, so…Well, you know how it goes. Don’t you?) Not too long ago, I had one of those dreams…