Deceased With a Chance @ Love by Dianna J. Torres (life books to read txt) 📕

I need you…….I….I love you.” I heard sirens going off. They sounded close but the odds of them saving her was none to none. I looked up to the heavens and I yelled “Why did you have to take her? I love her. Nothing is left for me know.”
I looked down at her, my tears fell onto her cheeks, then one fell on her lips. I looked down at her as if she was a child, I lowered my head so my lips were inches from Alex’s lips. My hand braced her head and I kissed her like never before. The sirens were closer, when I slowly started to lower her head down I felt Alex cough and she opened her eyes. “Did you really mean it?”
I smiled and said “What?”
She replied “That you love me?”
Tears rolled out of my eyes and said “Hell yes, more than anything in this world.” Alex grabbed my chin and lowered me down to her lips she whispered “I love you more.” she kissed me when the ambulance showed up, and ran to Alex to strap her down. Her hand was the last thing I felt. Amanda slowly walked up behind me and said “It’s time now, it’s time for you to go.” I nodded because I knew it was over for me now. There was nothing I could do anymore. Amanda’s arm wrapped around me and said “It’s for the best. It was hard on all of us. Especially since, he could have taken her from you.” I saw ourselves looking into the hospital room. Alex looked so peaceful on the bed. The IV in her skin, blood was flowing into her body, it looked painful. Amanda dropped me off in the hospital room she said I would get 5 minutes with her so I could say my goodbyes to her.
I took every second, I walked over to her, and sat on the edge of the bed so I touched her leg. She immediately woke up and said “Hey Dianna, I thought you were mad at me?”
I could feel tears start to build up, in my body I felt my body quiver but I didn’t want to cry, I bit my lip and said “Me be mad at you? I don’t think I could live a day with being mad at you.”
Alex smiled and said “So this isn’t bad huh?”
“Well I was mad but when I saw you there I lost everything. I felt like my heart was cut out of my soul and that, I had died again.”
Alex moved her body she then sat up with the control. “That sounds intense.”
“It was.” I said “It is. Alex why did you leave? I was afraid something like this was going to happen.” Alex rolled her eyes at me.
“I was sick of living. What was I supposed to do just live my life with a ghost while I would age and die old?” I took a breath and reached for her hand.
“Alex I’m….I wasn’t planning on staying with you forever. These few days have just been to get to the next step after death. I told you that I love you. I have never told anyone that ever, in my whole life.”
“But,” I put my finger to her mouth and said. “You were my first love, and heartbreak. I just wanted to tell you that because, now I have to go.”
“No Dianna you can’t go I’ll change please don’t leave me here by myself.”
“I laid down next to her and said “Alex please don’ ask that of me,” I felt tears build up again and this time I was no longer in control, they slowly slipped down my face. “because” my voice quivered but I continued “I can’t change this. Promise me something.” I looked up at her, my arm wrapped around her stomach, her arm had my head on there and her other arm touched my hip.
“Anything,” was her response.
I couldn’t bare to say it but I knew I had to, saying the words was going to kill me but it had to be done. “Move on. Don’t stop living your life just because, I can’t be your other half.”
“Dianna I ca” Her hand stopped touching my hip and just laid there.
“Promise me please.” Alex nodded. My lips were inches from her chin I pushed my self up and I kissed her chin, she moved my head up and I kissed her lips. I was never going to forget the feeling of her lips on me. Soft, moist, perfect size, every time she kissed me she made my body shake, and get Goosebumps. Every time I saw her in the hallway my emotions from the first day I told her I loved her came rushing back.
Her bed slowly started to recline down, I kissed her more, her hand now touched my thigh, my leg went around her hip. Her hands touched my stomach and my hips. My hands twisted on her hair, mostly on her mohawk. Her hands, moved up to my waist then my sides then to my ribs, suddenly Amanda tapped on the window. I stopped, I sat on her legs and said “Can you do something for me?”
Alex nodded “Can you please be different after this. You would have died, but I…just be better Alex. Live your life and do what you want to do. Be smart, and don’t forget,” I got down off her knees and stepped to the side of her bed. By know Alex was sitting up again. “I will always be in your heart, and I’ll be there when you need me, I’ll listen when you need me to.”
Alex pulled my hand and said “I love you more. Don’t forget me.”
My body felt like it would fall down and go to the fetal position, that thought left my mind and I pressed hard on her hand, “Never.” I started to walk away when Alex pulled my hand and pulled me to her body, she kissed me hard, not an uncomfortable hard a more painful I’m never going to love again kiss. I felt tears roll down, her cheeks got wet, but she ignored it and kept kissing me. I heard another tap. I stood up and walked when I heard Alex getting up I ran to her and pulled her t the bed. She was standing up and her chest pressed to my chest, her chin inches from mine. I looked at her and said “I love you forever, and ever.” I turned around but I felt I had to do this.
My lips collided with hers, our tongues collided that was all we could do. I can’t live but she can. My arms went to her shoulders, her hands touched my back, she pushed me towards the window. My neck moved so much that I felt weak but this would never happen again. I embraced what I had in this moment. I heard Amanda whisper, “Now it’s your turn to live.”
That’s when I heard a door slam open. We broke away from each other and Alex saw Viky her ex-girlfriend standing in the door way with flowers in her hand. Viky made an ugly face when she came towards Alex like she was going to slap her. Alex went to her and held her hands up and said “Viky stop it’s over I told you that before.”
“Your leaving me for her you fucking,” her hand raised up I ran to Alex and was in the way so Viky wouldn’t hurt Alex.
Instead I caught her hand and punched Viky in the nose. She fell to the ground and I said “Don’t hurt her, if you want to start something start it with me don’t be mad at her.
Viky stood up pointed at Alex and said “I can’t believe I even went out with you.”
She started to walk away when she retorted “See you at school whore!”
“Have you looked in the mirror lately?” Viky walked away Alex just stood there astound, one I had punched Viky in the noise and two Viky could see me.
“Alright what just happened?”
I smiled and said “I am clueless.”
“For real. Am I imagining this or is this for real?” Alex looked dizzy so I moved her towards the bed.
“Alex how about you relax I’ll be here when you wake up, cause as far as I’m concerned I’m confused too.”
Alex held onto my hand and said “Sleep here with me.”
I wanted to blush but didn’t “I’ll be here. I will never leave you.” I pulled her hand to my lips I kissed her hand and she held on as if I had told her that I was going down to eat something.
“What if you don’t come back.”
I felt sadness shadow me and I responded “Alex I swear I will not move from this spot until you tell me I can.” Alex let go of my hand and I moved over to her side. My head rested on her shoulder my hand wrapped around her stomach and I felt her fingers brush my hip. Alex grabbed my face and pulled it up to hers, our lips met and it was like I was on fire.
It was as if I had kissed her for the first time again. My body’s response climbing on her. The love for her would never die. I knew it was a good thing, but what if I were to die again? Alex would be in the same spot again I just hope we die together or I die before her. The reason I can’t see her be hurt again.
There was silence and she broke it by saying “Dianna do you think we’ll live happily ever after?”
I felt shocked I wanted to say yes but down in my heart I felt something else, “The truth?”
Alex nodded.
“I don’t believe in happily ever after,” Alex touched my face with her hand, with the IV’s in her hand. “I believe in a beautiful ending even after death. Because this life that I have….it’s not long enough to be with you. It only gives me a few years to love.” Alex kissed my nose and my hand rubbed her stomach. “Do you believe in happily ever after’s?”
Alex bit her lip, then looked out the window “I believe in you, and God. I may not have been meant to be a saint or something but I know what I was meant to do. My job was to live this life the best I can. With you.” My head rested on Alex’s chest.
“I can hear your heart beat.” I laughed, “It’s speeding and slowing at the same time.” I thought I was the only one that got that feeling when I was with her.
“I’m only human. That’s what you do to my heart.” I smiled.
I grabbed her hand and put it to my chest. “You feel that?” We were quiet for awhile.
“Yeah I do.” It feels so awesome.
I kissed her soft, pink, perfectly round lips, “How could I be given someone so right and not have anything bad happen to me? Besides dying.”
“God’s a giving being. Just sometimes bad things have to happen in order to balance life out.” She sounded so wise so knowing that it surprised me.
“Alex’s your so smart why don’t you be the real you? Around your friends you know?” I slid down off her chest and body. To her right.
“I don’t know,” you know just sometimes I don’t even realize I’m doin it, ya know?”
I laughed and said “yeah.” Our fingers entwined. My lips kept finding their way to Alex’s lips, or cheeks, or they just wanted to touch Alex it’s like it was my first nature. To be with