The Don's Love & downfall... by Little Writter Marjolein (sad books to read .txt) 📕

After some time when I'm done talking he stays silent for a minute and looks at me. 

"Why on earth would they do that to you babygirl??" 

I still don't know Massi and i don't know if i will ever find out either i just try hard to keep my freedom!!" 

"Ok....ok i get it....i...im sorry for being so possesive over you but....but i can't help it! I'm like that about things or people i love, Julia!" And i swallow hard upon hearing his words!

"Okay well at least try ok?" I ask in a soft tone and he nods. 

"I came here to apologise, one of the reasons i introduced you as a friend was because of my parents, i hope you understand now?" And he nods as a yes. 

"And i came here also to tell you how i feel about you, my trough feelings for you but seeing all this...this guy's with guns, you like this....I'm not sure anymore if i should go trough with this....i...i am scared Massi...I'm sorry!" I sob on his shoulder.

"I'm sorry that you have to meet me like this! I was angry and had to blow of some steam and i did it also to get info about my attack! And I didn't know you were coming otherwise I would have changed and cleant up before.....please don't be afraid of me!! I know i ask a lot but please trust me and give a change to tell you about myself!" 

"The men you saw outside are working for me, for my protection and of my family....my...my job is not a standard...job Julia....do you know what my title means?"

"Title? what title?" I ask curiously.

"You've heard My men calling me sometimes Don Massimo right, well....Don is my title, Don is kind of the same as a King but not as a King of a country but...God..... i don't know how to tell you!" He says clearly frustrated! So i get my phone and typ in, what does the title Don mean? In Google.

When i read the answer my eyes almost pop out of sockets!....

"Your....you are.....K...king of.....maf....mafia!!!" I whisper and i swallow hard to get rid of the heavy lumb in my throat while i move a bit away from him sitting on the edge of the bed now staring in to nothing deep in thought. 

"Babygirl?....please I'm sorry but i can't hide it from you nor do i want to but i swear on my life that i will never hurt you in anyway of let you get hurt by others in anyway, i love you too much for that, Julia!!" He says sitting in front of me now dressed in sweatpants.

All i can see is him angry dressed in blood!! Over and over again in my head!!

"I'm sorry Massi.....i can't....i just keep seeing you in all that blood, you were Soo angry and cold to me!! What if i do something wrong and you will kill me ??, Sorry i can't be with you i....have feelings for you but i have to forget you! i don't want to be in a relationship with a guy that kills and does illegal things for a living, i just can't!"

"Babygirl let me tell you! I only kill out of self defence or if it's really unavoidable, i don't hurt woman and children and dont do human trafficking or other bad stuff with woman because i have respect for woman and kids i love kids! If that's what you are scared about than rest assured that's not what i do!" 

"Oh....okay well still there is other stuff and you still kill if needed!" I say with a soacked face of tears.

"That for now....i can't change....Babygirl maby in future i can step down but now not, my parents have already be pussing me to get a wife who automatically becomes my Donna after marriage to help with basic things next to me as head off you know....i just can't know but i had hoped....that you would be my Donna after some time, you are perfect for me! I fell in love with you the moment i saw you Babygirl and i never stopped loving you! It only grew every single day!" He pleads with me with my hands in his looking me deep in my eyes.

"I will ask two favors of you!"

"Name it, anithing for you my love!"

"One write to me in a letter what a Don and Donna do as king and queen, specially the queen, and two after you given me the letter please give me some time and space to think to make a decision!, Can and will you do that for me Massi?....if you truly love me than please do this for me!" 

He sighs deeply and looks at me and nods.

"Ok I'll write it all down what would be expacted of you as a Donna and yes I'll give the time for your decision but please don't make it to long like months or something....i can't wait that long Babygirl!" He says in return. 

I sigh deeply and close my eyes for a moment to think.

"Maby a month..." I say to him.

"A month...okay i can do month" he says. 

"I said maby! Don't forget, so it can take me shorter or longer to think" i say quickly to prevent disappointment for him. 

"Okay...okay babygirl." 

I get up and walk out if his bedroom with him following all the way to the front door.

I step outside in the cool night and i see Tommy appear in front a few meters away from me waiting at the car. 

"He will bring you back home safely, please make use of your driver because i always want you to be safe! Nomatter what happens or what you will chose in the end my love!" He says emotionally. 

I put my arms around him one last time before i go and take a good long look at those beautifull deep hazel eyes who are glistening of tears. 

I will miss those orbs looking at me with desire and love!! I want to kiss him on his lips one more time but at the last moment i change my mind and kiss him on his cheek and turn around to go but than he grabs me by my waist and smashes his lips on mine, not soft or gentle but hard and needy, passionatly like his life depends on that kiss and than he releases me and i walk to the car and get in.

Before we drive out of the gate i turn arround and look at him one more time knowing this maby the last time i will see him.....

He stands there looking at the car driving of with a sad expresion on his face not knowing if i will ever come back to him or not....