Riley's Story: Betrayal by Kaitlyn Rose Hathaway (great books for teens .TXT) 📕

After brushing my teeth I grabbed the book I started to read around a month ago. But I just couldn't concentrate on the words at all. My mind was full them and I was just so confused.
At that time I really wished for a friend. A friend I could tell anything and who would understand me. It wasn't like I was a total looser and had no friends. Just that I had no real friend who I could talk to in moments like that. Maybe because I would rather suffer on my own then telling someone who might not understand me. When it came to my deepest feelings it always had been hard to gain my trust. But at that very moment I just felt so lonely and confused that I needed someone...
I sat down on my bed and closed my eyes again. Then I thought: "It won't make any difference if I stay like this. If it's a fact, I can't change it anymore."
With this I jumped on my feet and put a smile on. I went down into the kitchen where my mother was already making breakfast.
"Morning Mom, can I help with anything?"
"Morning sweetheart. Well, you can turn on the heater. It's quite cold for October."
She shook her head in unbelievable. So I went into the living-room and turned the heater on.
My father was already sitting in front of the television and searched something interesting to watch, thus I sat down beside him and greeted him: "Morning dad."
His head turned my way and he gave me a smile. "Morning Riley."
We were sitting on the couch and said nothing. I was sure that you changed the channel about a hundred times but my father didn't seem to find something that suited his taste. I was about to snatched the remote as my mother called us for breakfast.
I jumped on my feet and dashed into the kitchen. Since I got up to early I was really hungry and mom's eggs sunny side up and bacon were just the best.

After the breakfast I helped my mother washing the dishes and then went back into my room which was a big mistake of mine. Right after entering my room the thoughts I forgot for a while came back.
I sighed and turned my computer on. Maybe a little chat or a game with my friends would make me get other thoughts.


At that moment I didn't know the situation could get worse and how more confuse my feelings could get.

First my messenger was turned on and I looked at the people who were online. Hawk was one of them. I suddenly remembered that I still had to send him the homework we did together, so I wrote him.

Me: Hey, I totally forgot that I had to send you the homework. Sorry :P
Hawk: No problem ;) It's not a big deal, we still have some time before we have to hand it in :)
Me: Yeah, but still sorry. I totally forgot. :/
Hawk: That's so like you :D
Me: Hey!! That's not true. You are the one who's always forgetting things ;) :P
Hawk: Hahaha, I think you're right :D
Me: You're getting old Hawk xD
Hawk: Well, I AM older than you ;)
Me: That's true :) but don't you dare to die early xD I would miss you :O
Hawk: Don't pretend as if you really would :P
Me: I would ;) If you were dead who (except for Jase) would call me at 6pm and tell me to celebrate with him even though it would take more than two hours to get to you xD
Hawk: I would :D
Me: You see ;)
Hawk: Well, it's still early. I am going to call you at 6pm and ask you, 'k? xD
Me: Hahaha, of course. I will come. It not like I had anything to do and of course I love to take the evening train alone :P
Hawk: Okay, then I'll see you tonight :D
Me: Sure ;) Hell no! xD
Hawk: Aww, what a pity :P
Me: :P but hey hawk, thanks ;)
Hawk: I am not sure for what, but you're welcome ^^
Me: For playing and joking around with me ;) talking nonsense was what I needed :D thanks :)
Hawk: ^^ you're welcome
Me: ^-^
Hawk: Well, I have to got to work. Talk to you later ;)
M: 'Kay, bye :)
Hawk: Bye :P

I looked the green signal besides his name turn white and shut down our chat window.

I felt relieved and much better after chatting with Hawk. That was what I needed to get my thoughts away.

Days after days passed and the autum holiday started. I finally found the time to send Hawk his homework which I helped him with and also the unsecure feeling of mine vanished after not seeing Kai and Lesh together. To be honest I haven't even talked to them, I spent most the time in front of my desk and learned for the exam season which should start right after the holidays. So I was quite busy with reviewing my stuffs and had no time to waste on unnecessary thoughts. And so the holidays ended without anything special happening.

Thank god the first day back in school wouldn't be anything special, since the teachers still weren't in the mood to do much. The second day we would go on a trip, so I still haven't seen Macy and Lesh, since both of them weren't in the same class as me.
On the one hand I kinda missed them especially Macy but to be honest on the other hand I was happy that I wasn't able to meet them. Since I had no idea how I would react if there were evidences for my suspects or if she told me the truth.
I told myself that I would except it as long as they told me by themselves. Well, I would except it if Lesh told me. If Kai explained it to me, Lesh's and mine friendship would be over, but I would forgive her. At least that was what I told myself, but I kinda knew that I couldn't forgive her either way.
But even though that hatred was eating me up, I couldn't tell Kai how I felt. I have known him my whole life and to be honest I should have been prepared for that kind of situation to happen. Well, I was, but I never thought it would be someone that close to me. I always that we were not meant to be together forever. We were going be family for the rest of our life, but someday he would have his own little family and they would come first. By that time I would be just his cousin, nothing more, nothing less.

The week passed and the day came where I had to see them again. The day was a Monday. The longest school day on my timetable. I had lessons from 8am to 6pm.
When I woke up I wanted to fall asleep again. Just the thought of the day made me feel tired. But then I heard my mother calling me: "Riley! Come on and wake up. You have to get ready or else you will be late for school."
I ignored it and hid under the blanket. After a while I heard steps approaching my door. The sound that the steps made told me that it was my father. He opened the door and sat down at the end of my bed.
"What's the matter, sweetie?"
I stayed under the blanket but answered: "I am just tired."
"I know that's not it. You've been strange quite a time. I thought it was something trivial which passes quickly. But it doesn't seem like this..." He paused and searched for the right words but then he just said: "We are always here for you. If you need to talk or anything else, just come to us."
With these words he stood up and left the room. When I was sure that he wouldn't come back I came out from under the blanket. I couldn't stop the tears to flow. I never wanted my parents to worry, but that behavior was what made they worry. I just realized what a miserable daughter I was. The whole time I thought about not telling Kai how I felt, so he wouldn't be hurt or something else, but I never thought about my parents who would be worried if I isolated myself and acted less cheerful. I was most miserable daughter!
I jumped on my feet and ran into the bathroom where I looked into the mirror. The me in there looked horrible. I couldn't recognized me anymore. How could I let myself become like that? I was emotionally broken. But I told myself that that would end!

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