PAIN!!!!! by DANEA (win 10 ebook reader .TXT) 📕

at the front with my boyfriend Tyler. Then her friend Carla and DJ came up to me.
Carla: What is he doing here you have no right to have him come in this place
Me: What are you talking about?
Carla: Look he is the one who cost my friends death and you don't even care but your lucky were in this church because
Tyler: Lil girl you better shutup and get out of my womans face
She walked away. I did feel guilty. Then people started to walk in.
Lady: Look I'm so sorry about your girl
Me: Oh thankyou

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Finally the funeral was over and I was walking to my car. Then Carla came up.
Carla: Look I told you I wasn't done
Tyler: Look you get away from this car right now or I'll care the police
Carla: Call I have a lot to tell
Me; is that a threat
Carla; Call it what you want
Me: What do you want?
carla: I want you to read this diary and I want to see if you hate yourself even more
She handed me the diary and she walked away. As we got in the car I started to read and tears came down my eyes as I kept seeing the words raped, hate and so on. I didn't want to believe my girl because I wanted to be loved and what i didn't relize is that the love I needed was right there in front of me. I closed the book.
Tyler: Why are you crying ?
Me: Tyler I need you to get out of me car right now !
Tyler: No !
Me: If you don't I will call the police
Tyler: Look baby we are going to go home and we are going to talk about this
Me: There is nothing to talk about now leave !
Tyler: No!
I started to drive the car crazy and he finally got out. I drove off real quick.
Carla

I walked to DJ's house beacause he needed someone to talk to me and him weeped in each other arms as we read more of her diary.


Dear Mom,
Today Jodey took me to the beach and we had so much fun. Then it all ended when we got in the car. He asked me did I want to be a woman and I asked what did he mean. He said let me show you. He put his hands all over my body as I looked confused. I told him I didn't want to be a woman anymore but he didn't listen and he kept traveling through my body. I tried to get out the car but he kept whispering in my ear relax. Then he stoped. It had hurted so bad and I was wondering why.

Me and Dj closed the book. Keasha's mother had returned it to us she told us she read the whole thing, and to be honest I believed her. She had told us that she kicked tyler's nasty ass out her life and now she's happier than ever. But I just wished she kicked his ass out years ago because a life could have been saved. My friends life. Dj leaned against me.
Me: I'm so sad
DJ: Me too but we got to stay strong thats what keasha would've wanted
Me: But look shes not here she just had to leave us
DJ: But I feel like the worst friend ever
Me: Why?
DJ: Look all this time her mom men been screwing her and we haven't even noticed she had been comming to school looking depressed and what did we do, we buged her about not answering our calls.
Me: Yeah ur right
DJ: I just feel so stupid for not even carrying
Me: But DJ its to late we have to deal with it
He got up
DJ: But I don't want to deal with it, I loved her
Me: I did to you know
He walked out the house.

MOM

I was sitting on the couch when a knock came at my door. I opened it and it was Tyler.
Me: Look I told you to leave
Tyler: I know what you told me
Me: Well you need to go
Tyler: Look baby I know your depressed about your baby girl dying because she is a true physco but look I loved her to you know.
Me: Yes you loved her the wrong way and now shes dead because of it
Tyler: Now sweetie you think its just me, look I know I did wrong but look you have brung some many men around that girl she doesn't know what to do so she decides to kill herself.
Me: Shutup and get out before I call the police
Tyler: Look I was just leaving oh and tell Keasha I said hi and I love her.
I started to cry as he walked out the door.
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It had been a month now since my baby girl killed herself. I hate to say it but she did and its all because of me. My whole life I just wanted someone to love me but what I should have been doing was loving my daughter and myself. I never thought she felt that way and I feel like the worse mother ever. Her friends don't even like me and they shoudln't not right now anyway.

Dj

I coudln't think or feel anything I was so sad. I was really mad at myslef because I walked out on Carla yesterday and she needed me and to be honest I needed her. I couldn't keep running away from anything so today I dedcided to visit Keasha's grave. I had went to the flower shop to pick up her favorite flowers, roses. I carried them to the car and let the wind woosh past my face. Then I pulled up to the cemetary. I was about to turn around and go back and hide and run away liek the little boy I am but I saw Carla and Keasha's mom there so I had no choice but to go. I was the man in this and I had to act like one. So I grabbed the flowers and walked out the car and into the cemetary. I walked to Keasha's grave and laid the roses on it. I whispered her a prayer. Then Carala and Keasha's mom walked up to me.
Miss Nancy: Hey honey how are you holding up
Me: Good Good
Miss Nany: I know we all miss her and I know I do to but shes in a better place
Carla: You got that right
I could tell Carla wasn't taking this easy and was putting all her anger towards Keasha's mom and I wouldn't blame her but right now she needed to show some respect.
Me: Hey Umm Carla we should talk
Carla: Theres nothing to talk about
Miss Nancy: I'm going to go see yawl later
She kissed Keasha's garve and then left. I grabbed Carla's arm and walked her to my car.
Me: I didn't want to talk about this stuff by her grave but we really need to talk
Carla: Look Dj I love you
Me: I love you to
Carla: No shutup you don't
Me: What do you mean
Carla: I mean I love you more than a friend I've always had but I never had the guts to tell you
Me: And you decide to tell me now !
Carla: I thought it would be best
Me: NO! NO! It isn't why didn't you tell me
Carla: You really want to know !
Me: Yes!
Carla: Because I was afarid you woudln't feel the same about me and I see that you dont
She let go of my hand and walked away.
I couldn't believe me ears, Like how could this be.
I hoped back in my car. I coudln't beleive what I was hearing. I mean I never felt that way about her before. I had to talk her. Not only was I recovering from my best friends's lost but now I have to go through finding out my other best friend was in love with me. Wow, I didn't know what to say or think.

Carla