ALLURING DREAMS by DEE CARTER (read more books .TXT) 📕

I knew it was time to let you in to my lifestyle and finally have someone to share it with and when you asked me to move in with you I thought now would be a perfect time I didn't want to think about it anymore because I didn't want our love to be about anything but us I didn't want my lifestyle to come between something so pure like you see on the television but as the weeks went on I could see that it would never be about that I held secrets back just like you do to keep us safe I couldn't lose you after just finding you again so after everything this is who I am and it feels so good to be sharing all this with you please don't leave me I would die a thousand deaths without you I couldn't lose you again .” “What do you mean again again is like pretence I don't understand” I replied “I meant ever sorry I get carried away sometimes I meant I can’t lose you ever. I just want to give you the world on a silver platter and share my wealth with you and know in my heart of hearts you have everything you could ever desire is that so bad baby” he laughed what could only be detected as a false laugh .
The evening was just around the corner the lighting on the decking of the yacht came alive and it was spectacular alexander poured me another glass of champagne and pressed play on the cd player again this tie it was classical music he stood taking my hand and walked me to the centre of the decking and twirled me around and pulled me into his arms and my head rested against his chest I breathed him in so deeply never wanting to forget his scent he kissed my head and we began gently dancing together it was classical piano and it was so romantic and melodramatically all at once we were made for each other to dance with each other to make love to each other just about anything with each other I looked up to see his eyes closed “ I love you alexander” I whispered “I love you too Kristen always and forever and I finally realised forever was never going to be long enough the music stopped and on came another tune my heart beat a little quicker it was the tune that was on in the coffee shop the day we met it he remembered I remember going out and buying the album just for this one song it was flying without wings and from that day on it became our song “ Kristen I never lose hope when I'm with you all I find is hope and strength and so much more I wanted to explain about my wealth without it panicking you but every time I went to something stopped me but then today I realised you want me to open up to you and live with you and I realised I couldn't keep it back from you any longer so here goes I was very young well not that young I was say maybe 17 and my grandparents had passed away but they had left me a substantial amount of inheritance so I put it on the stock markets increased my profits and then I started buying run down businesses refurbishing them then reselling them at a higher price and then I started buying land etc. building houses rehoming the homeless building hotels and then before I knew it my profits had increased and I had more money than sense so I started buying things just small things to start like watches and clothes then it turned to things like yachts and houses and then part buying into businesses and also restaurants I knew someday I would find you and then my life would be complete but I also knew I had to be in the state to be able to look after you fully and I can, you just got to let me Kristen”. The music by now had stopped and he was looking at me for comfort but I was so overwhelmed not only was he a fantastic guy with emotion compassion but everything he did, he did it to better people’s lives and now he wants to look after me I couldn't help but think I couldn't blame him because I was doing exactly the same I too was withholding the same information through fear of losing him this means I could be who I really was without worrying about losing him or worrying about buying my home in London without arising suspicion I could live life to the fullest without looking so pompous I could buy the expensive stuff without any questions asked I had become quit accustomed to simplicity but luxury was what I did best. “it’s ok baby I'm not going to leave you have you not got it in your head yet I love you too much to worry about something as materialistic as money or yachts or homes you are all I need you make my world complete not money” as soon as I had said it he eased back against me his arms wrapping around me more tighter kissing me fiercely and sighing “thank Christ for that I’ve never worried about things like that till you came along you live life so simply and I thought you would take me as a show off or something worse I just want to make you truly happy” he kissed me again “alexander you already do that” and I kissed him back “ would you like to spend the night on the yacht or go home its entirely up to you ,your every wish is my command “hmmm well I tell you what I have to go see doc at 930pm so why don't you stay here I’ll get a cab go see him then pick up night bag and I’ll see you back here later.” I said convincingly “don’t you want me to come with you baby” ahhhh he always wants to come but he can’t I know he can’t he’s too vulnerable still to innocent he knows nothing of my past I need to hold on to that a little while longer. kissing his lips again “no you stay here baby keep the bed warm for me” I tried as seductive as I could “ sure ok baby will you be long “ checking my watch it was now 8:47pm damn the time really had gone so quick “ no I’ll be back here by 11:00pm I promise I’ll just pick up a night bag before I come back I walked off the boat and realised I was already getting nervous I looked back to see alexander waving to me off the top deck I waved back and smiled as I walked up the steps separating the riverbank to the street I put my hand out to wave in a taxi I could see just coming round the corner that was lucky “that was more than lucky” my inner voice told me all the way in the cab I tried to focus on what I was going to say to doc it had been a month and still I had not gotten over the fact that somehow I knew this man I had always known this man and I owed him everything but as always tried to push It to the back of my mind I would figure it out someday I was sure of it as I pulled into his drive I paid the cab driver but asked if he could wait for me he complied and stayed where he was the light in the study was on and I knocked on the door the housekeeper opened the door as usual “it’s been a long time Kristen its lovely to see you again dear ” I smiled “yes its lovely to see you too rose doc in his study I take it “ yes he’s waiting for you “I closed the door behind me watching rose walk into the kitchen “ can I get you something to drink “ an earl grey would be lovely” “I’ll bring it in once its ready” I heard her say I knocked on the door “come in” I opened the door doc was sitting in the chair reading a book his face lightened up once he saw me “ahhhh Kristen come on in its so good to see you’re looking a little peaky are you ok” he said with a tone of concern “yes it’s just been a long day” “oh good come and sit down now about the phone call last night from alexander would you like to shed some light on the matter” I looked out the window as I spoke “ well what’s to say apart from it was more in-depth this time and it was like I was a fly on the wall and my mother seemed so real I could almost touch her but she was so scared for me and she kept babbling on about these two men who I know nothing about and that all I know, because she tells me the names but the second I'm awake I don't remember it’s like a mental block but I remember her telling me to go visit a cousin someone by the name of henry but how come I know his name but why can’t I for the life of me remember the men who my mother is so concerned about I don't get it ,she goes on about I need to remember things what do I need to do or remember for that matter and why do I feel like there’s another side to me that's gone to sleep and is never waking up again if I'm going to survive, what does she mean by that if I'm completely honest its scared the living shit out of me but I don't know what it all means and then I wake up and it still all feels so real.” But then I'm wrapped up in cotton wool and fluffy clouds with alexander that I have to ask myself is any of it real because my life has never been so perfect. I looked at doc to see the confusion but also worry pass through his eyes “well Kristen as I’ve always said to you your dreams are what is left of your memories as a human being and because you were such a loving person so full of passion and as for your mother you have been able to keep a strong link with her even in the after world and your senses as a vampire has heightened that experience but the more you dream the more dire its becoming and your dreams are becoming lucid dreams with out of body journeys too but I must stress its becoming worrying Kristen” the door knocked and I jumped in my seat it was rose with my tea “here you go dear I put a little more sugar I thought you could do with it” “thanks rose “ she turned to doc “if that's all sir I’ll be heading home now” she smiled warmly “yes goodnight rose see you tomorrow” she turned “goodnight dear” she took my hand I smiled and felt the warmth in her touch “yes goodnight rose see you soon” she closed the door behind her doc looked at me and my tea “I’ll get you something a little more substantial in a minute it’s been too long and soon you will start to feel the effects” I suddenly was telling him about my day and how already it has