The Player or the good guy? by NotWithoutMusik . (best big ereader .txt) 📕

everything would be alright. Now she was busy planning an escape plan for me, so that I could live with the Order of Phoenix that Dumbledore had created and in which both her parents were, fighting against Voldemort. There was no war yet, but people started disappearing and some magical creatures acted more cruel than usual. 

„Lessons over, you can back your stuff now!“, Aya pulled me back into reality. Quickly, because almost all of the students had already left the classroom, I packed my bag.
„Miss Pettigrew? Could you please come to the front desk?“, I heard the strict voice of Professor McGonagall over the talking of my fellow students. Worried, I looked at Aya but she just smiled and pushed me towards the teachers table. With every single cell in my body I hoped that my Professor didn’t find out anything about Dalton, but my wound wasn’t bleeding yet so I hoped for the best. 

„Yes, M’am?“, I asked with an innocent expression. 

„I couldn’t help but notice that you do not pay as much attention to my class as usual. Is there something bothering you? I know that your parents-“

„It’s nothing, really. I just wasn’t as concentrated but I am truly sorry. I will do better“, I quickly responded, but I could see that she wasn’t happy with my answer. 

„The final exams are coming closer and you need to do good if you still want to become an auror.“

„Yes, M’am“, I just said and then walked back to Aya, knowing that McGonagall wouldn’t like my attitude. But everything was more important right now than exams. I could be dead by the time I even had to write them. 

„Scar, you have to act normal. She is already suspecting something, everyone is! Either you tell them or you figure out a plan to get back at Dalton! He is always one step ahead of you and you have to change that. You can’t become a Death Eater! Please“, my best friend whispered with fear in her voice as we made our way to the next classroom. 

„Oh my god, you are so right! I was always just waiting for new horrible stuff to happen but I never really thought of actually going against him! How stupid of me!“, I exclaimed, causing some students to look at us. Quickly, we walked past them and walked down the stairs to the dungeons for potions. 

In my head, I already formed a plan and I could see Aya smiling: „ That’s my girl!“

We had almost reached the door when Sirius and Marlene caught up to us. 

„Aya, this isn’t your next class“, Marlene wondered, but Aya just winked at me and then turned around to go to her actual class. 

„She just walked me here, we had some important things to discuss“, I said smiling, but my head wasn’t in the conversation that Sirius and Marlene had after, I was thinking of a brilliant plan to get rid of Dalton Goyle. That bastard would be sorry to have messed with me. 

 

Wed - 26. November 1977

 

It was a full moon again, but this one would be an amazing one, because today I would go through with my plan. I didn’t tell Aya exactly what I was going to do, but to keep her from snooping or worse,  getting inured, I told Fabian to take her out on a romantic date with the full moon on the Astrology tower. 

Now the Marauders had already gone to the Shrieking Shag, but I told them that I forgot to tell Aya something super important and stayed behind in the Gryffindor common room. 

I was very nervous about this, but my deadline come closer and closer and I had to do something to save Peter. We didn’t really talk anymore, he never really talked to anyone and he got thinner, too. He almost never showed up to lunch or dinner and I wondered what he was doing? Was he maybe trying to stop Dalton himself? Did he just hide or did he actually already work for Dalton? I didn’t think that Peter would ever do that to his friends so I assumed the second. 

Thinking about Peter, I walked out of the common room and down the stairs. Suddenly, I remembered how we all walked up these stairs for the first time ever. 

 

„Ouch, you stepped on my foot“, I heard the voice of a little girl behind me and turned around to tell her that I didn’t and that she shouldn’t be such a baby. But when I did, the little girl smirked mischievously and held  out her hand: „I’m Aya. I saw that you were in a cabin with the three boys. Remember me? I walked in and tricked you all into thinking that I had to pee really badly“

I laughed at the thought of it, because the boys all panicked and wanted to send her to the bathroom but then she sat on James and poured some water over his lap, which made him scream and us all laugh. 

„Yeah, I do remember. Why did you leave us again?“ 

„I had some other people to prank!“, Aya smiled and at that moment I knew that she would be my best friend. Forever. 

 

I sighted. Forever seemed like such a long time then. And also we pranked so many people then, this year we only did one little prank. Hogwarts had turned so dark for me and when I looked at my future, it was even darker. I knew that I couldn’t stop Voldemort but I could help save my brother and my best friends. Yes, they would be sad at first, but maybe they would understand if Aya told them everything. 

 

I reached the Slytherin common room, but wasn’t sure how to get inside until a Slytherin girl came along, mocking me the minute she saw my red tie. 

„Ew, what are you ugly slut doing down here?“

„Could you bring Dalton outside? I need to talk to him“, I said plainly, not having the strength to fight this bitch. 

„No, why would I do anything for a Gryffindor and why do you want to speak to the hottest Slytherin? As if he wants anything to do with you!“

I guess I had no choice now. For this plan to work, Dalton and I had to be in the Dark Forrest in half an hour, just when Remus would begin to change. 

„Imperio“, I whispered and secretly pointed my wand at the blonde girl. Suddenly, the feeling of power flew through my veins and the girl’s eyes became willingless. 

„Get Dalton out here. Tell him that Katherine wants to see him!“, I ordered and without and protest, the girl walked into the Slytherin common room. 

Phase 1 completed. 

Now came the hard part.

„Pettergrew. Never though I would see you here. What do you want?“, my worst enemy asked with his slimy voice when he walked out of the common room. 

I closed my eyes for a second and tried not to throw up. When the heavy door closed and the echo came back from the walls, I just did it. I mean, I had done it before so it wouldn’t be too bad, at least that is what I hoped. 

I leaned it, pressed the blonde boy against the wall and - kissed him. When I closed my eyes I imagined Remus, not this snake of a person. 

The kiss was pationately, and to my disgust some part of me even liked it. Stupid love potion! 

But then Dalton pushed me away, even though I could already feel the bump in his pants. With lust in his eyes he looked down at me, but I could see that he hadn’t turned his brain off yet. He was suspicious. 

„Why would you kiss me?“, he asked, liking his lips again and staring at mine as if he couldn’t wait for them to touch again. 

„I don’t know. I just had this feeling that I wanted to. I mean, you know that I find you attractive, you were the one putting the love potion in my locket. I don’t know what spell you used, but my feelings for you are getting stronger!“, I lied my ass off, hoping that he wouldn’t notice. 

He licked his lips again and then raised his hand to put some of my hair behind my ear. My heart was beating so fast, but what he did now actually made it skip it’s beat for a few seconds. 

With one motion, he pulled my hair back, then turned me 360° and pushed me against the wall that he was just standing against. Then, he punched the wall just centimeters next to my face. Shocked, I could do nothing but stare at him. 

„I heard you like that“, Dalton whispered: „I have my informants you know. I will always be smarter than you, Pettigrew!“

Panik spread from my heart to every inch of my body and I wasn’t capable of talking anymore. How did he know all this? 

„Sometimes it can come in handy to be a rat, you know?“, he continued and now a fire started in my chest. Peter? My own brother had betrayed me? The fear, that held me before was replaced by anger and just like that, I slapped him. Very hard. 

Cursing, Dalton let go of my hair and stepped back, holding his cheek that slowly turned bright red. 

„He would never do that to me!“, I screamed at the Slytherin and then I ran. As fast as my legs could carry me and with the hope that he wanted revenge. I knew that he saw woman as lower than him and so being slapped would be horrible for his ego. And I was right, not long after I reached the stairs, I could already hear the footsteps behind me. I was way faster, but I had to run so slow that he could follow me. Even if Peter told him everything, he couldn’t possibly know about my plan from tonight. I had told nobody, not even Aya. 

And so I ran through the great Hall that now was only filled with a few students and then outside in direction of the Dark forrest. From here, I had to be careful that no teacher saw me, but Dalton still followed me. 

At the grey , dark sky with heavy clouds I could already see the bright light of the moon and the shrieking shak already was filled with howling screams, sounding animal-like. 

„Stupor!“, a masculine voice shouted and just seconds after I could feel how the spell hit me. With a grunt, I flew off my feet and uncomfortably landed on all four, my face into the dirt.  My hands, knees and hips hurt from the fall, but I got up as quickly as possible to face Dalton on my feet. When I got my wand out, he was already standing there, about 10 Meters from me, with his wand pointed at my heart. 

„I know about your boyfriends furry little problem. And you are starting to get very annoying, even though I enjoyed the kiss and the ‚Imperio‘-curse you used on poor Anne. I enjoy your dark side and I want you to embrace it. I know you liked it too.“

I furrowed my eyebrows and grabbed my wand tighter, but when I wanted to say something, I realized that he was right. I had used an unforgivable curse without even blinking with an eye. I swore never to give in to my dark side and yet, I had done so without noticing. I kept trying to save my friends and my brother, but maybe I needed the saving. Then, I stood up straighter when I thought about my plan of tonight. I was going to be dead by the morning anyways, and I would have killed Dalton with me. I wanted to get him to a quiet place to kill him, with Remus as the distraction but why even wait? I had already done it before, why shouldn’t I use an unforgivable curse again? I didn’t want to die being as evil as my worst enemy, but I