The Player or the good guy? by NotWithoutMusik . (best big ereader .txt) 📕

I could just squeeze all his problems out of him. 

"First, please let go, you are crushing me!", Peter breathed stertorously and I instantly let go of him.  I looked into his eyes that were so similar to mine and then he finally opened his mouth to tell me what was wrong. 

"Dad wants me to become a Death Eater."

 

 

Sat- 6. September 1977

 

"What?", I asked, even though I understood what he said. It was just unbearable to think of him as a Death Eater. 

"Yeah, he told me that the dark Lord would give me the dark mark on Christmas holiday.", Peter mumbled and my jar dropped. That could not be true! Why did our father do this to Peter, he knew that he was a Gryffindor and that he thought like one as well. We had told him so many times and we were punished with the cruciatus curse so many times, but then finally he let us go, or that's what I thought.

When I was going to answer Peter, I could see that many Gryffindors, who left the Quidditch pitch, looked at us and so I decided to walk to the lake to be more alone. 

"You mean you will meet Volde- "

"Don't say his name!"

"You will meet the dark Lord at christmas? But you can't become a Death Eater, we were allowed to join the Order after Hogwarts! That means that we get to be free from our parents!", I told him, but he just glared at me, like I did something wrong and drove his hand through his dark blonde hair that was so much like our moms. 

"I can't just tell him that I don't want to be a Death Eater! He will kill me the second I say no!", Peter said with panic in his voice. I hated seeing my brother like this, we were always there for each other and now I really had to be there for him. 

"Tell him that you will be his spy!", I suddenly exclaimed and a bit of hope made it's way into my heart. "Tell him, that you can't have the Dark Mark because the people from the Order would notice it, but that you will spy for him after you leave Hogwarts!"

Peter didn't look as excited as I did and when he answered, he spoke like he was a dead man already: "But then I would have to betray my friends, Scar! I would never do that." Before I could say anything else to him, he turned into a rat and ran in the direction of the lake. 

"PETER! Talk to me! I want to help you!", I shouted after him, but it was no use. I couldn't even be angry at him for running away from this conversation, because I didn't know what I would do in such a situation. I would never want to betray my friends as well, but it didn't make sense to run from Voldemort either. He could find anyone and then he would kill them. He would kill Peter.

Absorbed in thought, I returned to the castle and sat down at the lunch table. There were only a few students left who ate lunch, because it was almost four o'clock. I wasn't really hungry, I just didn't know what else to do and I didn't want Aya to ask me what was going on, because I knew I couldn't tell her. 

"Hey, are you alright?", someone behind me asked. It was probably Remus, and when he saw that I was sad, he would ask what was going on, but when I didn't tell him, he would find away to make me smile anyways. 

"Yeah, I'm good.", I said without looking up and put another piece of meat in my mouth.

"May I sit next to you?", he asked and I nodded my head. But when I looked to my left to smile at Remus, I looked into grey eyes not green ones. I almost choked on my piece of chicken when I saw that it was Sirius who sat down next to me. He never sat down next to anyone to help them when they were feeling bad, except if he hoped for a make-out session or if it was one of the Marauders. 

"What do you want here?", I asked after I swallowed my food and drank some pumpkin juice to flush the meat down. Sirius didn't even smirk his cocky smirk when he smiled at me, worry in his eyes. He was actually able to care about anyone but himself?

"I saw that you were pretty upset, so I wanted to ask whether you were okay or not. And you are obviously not.", he then said and pulled me into a tight hug. He smelled really amazing and his hug made my heart beat faster, but I also got suspicious. He never hugged me like that. 

"Okay, what girl are you trying to make jealous? Because then I could just give you a kiss and then you can leave me alone.", I said harshly and pushed him away, even if I would love to keep being in this hug. Sirius chuckled lightly: "Do you see any other girl here?"

I looked up from my plate and saw that the Great Hall was completely empty except for three Hufflepuff guys who were still eating their dessert. 

"But maybe I am trying to make that Hufflepuff guy jealous. He looks very sexy.", Sirius joked and he actually made me laugh a little. Not so much because of his joke, but rather because he was doing all this for me. He wasn't playing any of his games to get a girl, he was just being nice.

But then I thought about Peter again and the smile vanished from my face. He was going to become a Death Eater or die. I didn't know what was worse, but I could never let him die. He was my brother and I loved him with all my heart. 

"So do you want to come?", I heard Sirius say and snapped out of my thoughts. I looked up to him, because he had gotten up from the bench of the Gryffindor table and held a hand out to me. 

"Go where?", I asked, but took his hand already to get up. It felt like little bolts of lightning quivered from where he touched me and I couldn't help but smile when he looked into my eyes.

"Do you want to go for a little run?", he asked and instantly, my eyes lit up with joy. To go 'for a little run' meant turning into our animal and run through the forest, my favorite activity after Quidditch. I nodded my head and then walked with him outside of the castle. When we reached the beginning of the Forbidden Forrest, we both looked at each other and then turned into a black dog and a white wolf. 

It didn't hurt at all anymore to turn into a wolf, it just felt strange. I guess we all got used to the pain of breaking your bones over and over again. After I turned, I could only see in limited colors again, but my hearing and my sense of smell was very heightened. I could smell the leaved and the grass of the forrest, the smell of the dog next to me and some other animals who were close to us. I also heard these animals and the loudest of all was Sirius breath next to me. 

Without a warning, Sirius started running and I had to apply myself to catch up to him. He ran faster and faster, but then, after about five minutes, he stopped. I almost ran into him and I could only stop myself by putting all four of my paws into the ground, which turned them from white to dirty brown. When I looked around, I could see that we were next to a small pond with beautiful flowers around it. The huge trees blocked out the sun, but the flowers bloomed anyways.  They were strong and knew how to survive. 

Suddenly, the black dog next to me attacked me and threw me on the ground. I was confused and instinctually defended myself, getting on top of the dog and growling at him. But Sirius didn't give up, but freed himself from me and jumped around in front of me, it looked like he was challenging me to another fight. This was his idea of fun? Well then I would give him some fun.

I slowly walked backwards, and when Sirius thought that I wouldn't fight him, I jumped forward and playfully bit into his neck. He growled and turned around, baring his teeth and then attacking again.  We rolled around in the mood, trying to get the other one to give up, but none of us did. Suddenly, I felt something cold on my back and I noticed that we fell into the pond. I quickly got out and shook my fur, splattering mud and water everywhere. Then I turned back into a human and sat down on the grass. All my clothes were dirty and I was exhausted, but laughing. Even if I did have some claw marks on my neck and arms, that was a lot of fun and I really enjoyed myself, forgetting about Peter. 

"You fight like a girl!", Sirius said when he sat next to me. He was totally dirty as well, and he had a bleeding bite mark on his neck. We were both used to wounds like this, but it always looked horrible to see any of the guys hurt. 

"Well I am a girl, what is your excuse?", I teased while I got the dirt of my clothes with a simple spell. Sirius laughed and did the same with his clothes. Then he looked at my wounds and shook his head: "It always looks so much worse when you are human again."

"Well you have a pretty huge bite mark on your neck as well, let me heal it.", I said and was about to say the spell when he held his hand in front of the wound. Then he gently put my hand down and whispered: "I will heal your wounds first, Scar. I don't want you to live up to your name."

I knew that I blushed when he said that, but I hoped that he wouldn't see it. When he had healed all my wounds, it was my turn. 

"Episkey!", I said and pointed my wand at his injury. It instantly healed, but there was still much blood on his neck. "Tergeo.", I said and all the blood vanished. 

"There you go, all cleaned up now.", I told him and he smirked: "You are going to be an amazing healer." I smiled and thanked him for the compliment, not knowing if he just flirted with me or really meant it. 

After a while of just sitting next to each other and looking at the lake, Sirius got up and cleaned his rope from the rest of the dried dirt with his hands. "I am going to go back to the castle now, James is probably wondering where I am, I have to help him with Lily.", he said and started walking away. 

"Why, what do you help him with?", I asked curiously and quickly followed him. He stopped and smiled at me. 

"They have a date!"

- 4 -