36 days by Katerina Rose (books you need to read .txt) 📕

think what this band needs is a fresh voice"

"Oh well thanks" I rolled my eyes

"Cass, You know I'm right"

"Well---"

"You heard him"

"This is her band, I'm not going to take that from her"

"No, not taking anything, just turning this into a two person vocal band plus we are down a guitarist, have been since Daniel---ehh...."

"Yeah I know about him" Tyler half smiled.

I sighed. I wasn't sure what I wanted to do. I felt like I had just got this band back on track without the drama did I really want to add another member?

Tyler noticed my frustration "How about I let you guys talk a moment, I'll be outside" he said put his hand on my shoulder as he walked out.

I heard the door click shut behind me...


"Are you out of your mind" I protest to Alex. "I JUST got this band back to before the crap and you want to add another member?"

"You like Tyler"

"What?!"

"Crap Cassie can't you ever just NOT like someone" He sighed at me.

"I dont Like him like that Alex, thats not what this is about I swear"

"Then what is it"

"Maybe I dont want to share the spotlight"

He gave me a "don't be stupid" look. "we both know your not like that"

"What if it doesn't work? what if he's not ready for this... this is a lot Alex "

"I think we need a guitarist anyway, right?"

"Yeah"

"What if we just ask if he wants to play guitar, let him play a couple gigs, see how he does in front of big crowds and then talk about the duet stuff"

I sighed.

"I know your sighing because I'm right and you know this will work" he laughed "Have I ever steered you wrong kid?"

"You made Daniel our band manager for Aus- Don't even get me started with wrong" I glared.

"In my defense, I had NO idea he got married"

I held up my hands "Don't want to talk about it--"

"Ok" he smiled "Tell Tyler to come in here and we'll talk"

I sighed and got up.

Tyler was brought back into the room we ran it by him and he agreed to help with the guitarist but didn't want to take any spotlight from me. I reluctantly assured him it was fine with me and I would welcome a new member. Truth be told I was too afraid it would end badly and our good friendship would end over another band drama. Too many people have been cut off from my life because of this band. I didn't want it to happen to anyone else. In the back of my mind somewhere I smiled at the thought of Daniel seeing Tyler on stage with me and cringing. Well maybe this would have some perks to it.
Chapter 17

I sat on the stool in the studio. Headphones on, my hands on the mic in front of me. I began singing the first verse of one of our new songs. Tyler strummed the guitar, it was just him and I. Alex wanted to see how well Tyler and I work together. Ally and Levi were on the other side of the glass watching with Alex.

He continued playing and my mind wondered off as I sang the lyrics I created from my personal pain through the last year.

I wondered what Daniel was doing with his life now. I wondered if him and that girl had gotten divorced? Maybe she was faking the pregnancy and he could come back to me? Maybe it didn't matter I had given him enough chances. This was fate telling me we couldn't be together I needed to accept that. I missed him. There was no denying that, but I couldn't go there I had to keep moving.

"As twisted as it seems, I'd rather feel your love when its in my dreams..."

I sang the bridge to the song and Alex cut in.

"That was really good guys, I think we should bring in the whole band"

"Wouldn't it be better if this one was acoustic?" Tyler asked, and then looked at me. "It seems like this one is more on the painful side, I think it would come across better acoustic, every band does acoustic once in a while right?"

I paused.

"Did you record it Alex, just now?"

"Yes I did"

I took my head phones off and came into the booth to hear the playback.

I listened for a few moments and agreed acoustic was best. It brought out the raw tension in the song. Tyler must have been listening to me more than I was even listening to myself.

Ally and Levi agreed to keep this one acoustic and let us rerecord the bridge because we were cut off.

Tyler and I came back into the booth and put the headphones on.

He put his hand on my leg "I'm sorry for what he did to you, I can feel everything now--"

"Guess I didn't realize the song was that open"

"I think it was more your delivery of it, I could see you were lost in your own head"

I looked down at the floor and closed my eyes. Tyler started his guitar and I began reliving the pain of the last year with Daniel. Tears rolled down my eyes as I belted the bridge to the song. My voice came out raspy and broken. Tyler picked up with me, he belted the bridge and back into the chorus. I was startled at first but it felt better than singing alone.

Alex cut us off

"Oh so we are doing the duet thing now?" He smiled He made a circle with his fingers. "rerun it! Tyler ...Come in at the first chorus,... and then at the bridge"

Ally came over the speaker "Wait I have the best idea!"

we were all ears.

"What if you rewrite the second verse for a male vocal?" - "Like how you say "he" in the first verse?, You could rewrite "She" into the second verse,.. the chorus still fits the situation, and the bridge too, but it could be from two different perspectives, I bet that would be intense!" she beamed.

Tyler looked at me "I don't want to take this from you this is your journal---"

"No, I'd actually like to take the focus off of me Change the lyrics and sing the second verse"

I rolled my fingers in a circle "Rerun it!" I called out.

The guitar started back up again... I heard my voice ring out, soft,... I felt broken, and the more I sang my own lyrics the more I felt vulnerable and I wasn't sure how I would react to Daniel ever hearing these lyrics.

The chorus came and went, and the second verse started. Tyler's voice was soft and smooth, he had a bit of a rasp that entranced me as it rang out. I couldn't help but look over at him as he sang these lyrics. His eyes closed and both hands on his guitar. He belted the lyrics as if they effected him personally. A chill ran down my spine,... And I knew this was the combo of musical genius Alex and I had been waiting for.


The session wrapped and everyone decided to go out for a celebration dinner. Alex and I were the last ones out of the studio.

"What are you going to do when Daniel hears this?" He asked grabbing his messenger bag off the table.

"Hide?" I smiled grabbing my jacket.

"I actually teared up a little"

"No shit?"

"Yeah, Levi said that came right out of your journal"

"I did"

"Your okay with reliving this every day on stage?"

"Well, Tyler helps alleviate some of the pressure"

"He's a good match for you"

I looked at him

"Vocally---"

I smiled

"No funny business"

"Oh I've learned my lesson" I held my hand up. "Scouts honor"

He opened the door for me " Lets go celebrate your new beginning.."

"With lots of alcohol" I smiled and walked out......

Chapter 18

Headphones on, I could feel my body running. My pulse was racing and the wind was rushing through my pony tale. I was breaking a sweat. I had been at this for an hour now. Alanis Morrisette 8 easy steps was my jam when running today. I decided at the hour and a half mark that I should run back to my apartment. There was no amount of running that would ease my nerves today.

I rounded the corner to my apartment complex and I saw the one car I wished I never had to see ever again.

"Cassie?"

"Kat?" I took a second look.

I had finally reached the parking lot where she stood next to her car.

"Kat what are you doing here?" I asked taking my headphones out.

"Before you get mad at me---"

"Before?"

"I'm not here for me, Ok, I'm here because Da--"

"No, go away"

"Cassie I know you still love him"

"Kat you don't even know whats going on anymore"

"You seriously think I havn't been talking to him this whole time?"

"Oh yeah that makes me want to speak to you again, or him for that matter"

"Look" she grabbed my arm as I headed towards the apartment doors. "Be mad at me, fine, I deserve it, but don't punish him"

"What are you even talking about!?"

"He didn't realize what was going on, he was drunk"

"So getting married makes it okay as long as hes drunk!?"

"Wait---What?"

"He got married Kat I'm sure since you've talked