Doctor Thorne by Anthony Trollope (epub e ink reader .TXT) 📕

dire enemy usually was concealed. Sir Roger, however, was too weak now to be his own master; he was at length, though too late, a captive in the hands of nurses and doctors, and the bottle had now been removed.

Then Lady Scatcherd came in, and seeing that her husband was no longer unconscious, she could not but believe that Dr. Thorne had been wrong; she could not but think that there must be some ground for hope. She threw herself on her knees at the bedside, bursting into tears as she did so, and taking Sir Roger’s hand in hers covered it with kisses.

“Bother!” said Sir Roger.

She did not, however, long occupy herself with the indulgence of her feelings; but going speedily to work, produced such sustenance as the doctors had ordered to be given when the patient might awake. A breakfast-cup was brought to him, and a few drops were put into his mouth; but he soon made it manifest that he would take nothing more of a description so perfectly innocent.

“A drop of brandy⁠—just a little drop,” said he, half-ordering, and half-entreating.

“Ah, Roger!” said Lady Scatcherd.

“Just a little drop, Louis,” said the sick man, appealing to his son.

“A little will be good for him; bring the bottle, mother,” said the son.

After some altercation the brandy bottle was brought, and Louis, with what he thought a very sparing hand, proceeded to pour about half a wine-glassful into the cup. As he did so, Sir Roger, weak as he was, contrived to shake his son’s arm, so as greatly to increase the dose.

“Ha! ha! ha!” laughed the sick man, and then greedily swallowed the dose.

XXV Sir Roger Dies

That night the doctor stayed at Boxall Hill, and the next night; so that it became a customary thing for him to sleep there during the latter part of Sir Roger’s illness. He returned home daily to Greshamsbury; for he had his patients there, to whom he was as necessary as to Sir Roger, the foremost of whom was Lady Arabella. He had, therefore, no slight work on his hands, seeing that his nights were by no means wholly devoted to rest.

Mr. Rerechild had not been much wrong as to the remaining space of life which he had allotted to the dying man. Once or twice Dr. Thorne had thought that the great original strength of his patient would have enabled him to fight against death for a somewhat longer period; but Sir Roger would give himself no chance. Whenever he was strong enough to have a will of his own, he insisted on having his very medicine mixed with brandy; and in the hours of the doctor’s absence, he was too often successful in his attempts.

“It does not much matter,” Dr. Thorne had said to Lady Scatcherd. “Do what you can to keep down the quantity, but do not irritate him by refusing to obey. It does not much signify now.” So Lady Scatcherd still administered the alcohol, and he from day to day invented little schemes for increasing the amount, over which he chuckled with ghastly laughter.

Two or three times during these days Sir Roger essayed to speak seriously to his son; but Louis always frustrated him. He either got out of the room on some excuse, or made his mother interfere on the score that so much talking would be bad for his father. He already knew with tolerable accuracy what was the purport of his father’s will, and by no means approved of it; but as he could not now hope to induce his father to alter it so as to make it more favourable to himself, he conceived that no conversation on matters of business could be of use to him.

“Louis,” said Sir Roger, one afternoon to his son; “Louis, I have not done by you as I ought to have done⁠—I know that now.”

“Nonsense, governor; never mind about that now; I shall do well enough, I dare say. Besides, it isn’t too late; you can make it twenty-three years instead of twenty-five, if you like it.”

“I do not mean as to money, Louis. There are things besides money which a father ought to look to.”

“Now, father, don’t fret yourself⁠—I’m all right; you may be sure of that.”

“Louis, it’s that accursed brandy⁠—it’s that that I’m afraid of: you see me here, my boy, how I’m lying here now.”

“Don’t you be annoying yourself, governor; I’m all right⁠—quite right; and as for you, why, you’ll be up and about yourself in another month or so.”

“I shall never be off this bed, my boy, till I’m carried into my coffin, on those chairs there. But I’m not thinking of myself, Louis, but you; think what you may have before you if you can’t avoid that accursed bottle.”

“I’m all right, governor; right as a trivet. It’s very little I take, except at an odd time or so.”

“Oh, Louis! Louis!”

“Come, father, cheer up; this sort of thing isn’t the thing for you at all. I wonder where mother is: she ought to be here with the broth; just let me go, and I’ll see for her.”

The father understood it all. He saw that it was now much beyond his faded powers to touch the heart or conscience of such a youth as his son had become. What now could he do for his boy except die? What else, what other benefit, did his son require of him but to die; to die so that his means of dissipation might be unbounded? He let go the unresisting hand which he held, and, as the young man crept out of the room, he turned his face to the wall. He turned his face to the wall and held bitter commune with his own heart. To what had he brought himself? To what had he brought his son? Oh, how happy would it have been for him could he have remained all his days a working stonemason in Barchester! How happy could he have