The Daddy P.I. Casefiles: The First Collection by Frost, J (great novels .txt) π
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I shake my head. βIβd like to, though. I love being restrained.β
Loganβs grin goes wide and wicked. βI noticed. I think we could have lots of fun with shibari. Iβm not a master rigger, but I enjoy the basics, and I love suspension. Have you ever been suspended?β
βNo, Daddy, but Iβd like to try it.β
Iβd like to try anything that makes him grin that wolfy grin.
βGood girl. We will. Any concerns about being in littlespace while youβre bound and suspended? Would your little be frightened?β
βI donβt think so. Iβve never had a problem being restrained when Iβm little. Being tied up or cuffed feels safe, actually.β
βGood. A lot of bottoms describe shibari that way. The rope makes them feel safe, like being wrapped in a comforting blanket. I hope you feel that way, but, if not, just tell me. I donβt ever want to frighten your little again.β
During our first date, he frightened me for real when I was in littlespace. I think it traumatized him more than me. βTa, Daddy.β
He frowns and I can almost see him thinking. βAnything else scare you when youβre little?β
βBig, barky dogs,β I tell him, between bites of tangy, crisp fish. Is it just because weβre on vacation that the food tastes so good? Fish is definitely not this tasty in Syracuse. βBut they scare me when Iβm big, too.β
Logan smiles gently. βWeβll avoid big dogs.β
βBeing left alone in the dark,β I admit hesitantly. I know Loganβs different; he wonβt use my fears against me the way some of my Doms have. But some very small part of me still screams in protest every time I hand him something he could use to hurt me. βIβm okay being blindfolded, though.β
βI noticed you tracking my movements when you were blindfolded during the scene,β he says.
βIβm okay as long as I know youβre there. Being left alone turns my head inside out.β
βDo you start having bad thoughts?β
I nod. βLots and lots.β
βAre bad thoughts scene-killers?β
Wow. None of my other Doms ever figured that out.
βI donβt usually have bad thoughts during scenes. I mean, scenes get me out of my head. But if things go wrong and the bad thoughts crowd inββ I shake my head. βItβs really hard for me to come back from that and Iβve never been able to get back into littlespace.β
Logan runs his fingertips around the edge of his water glass, which is a delicate gesture for such a big man, but I think Logan perceives a lot through touch, maybe more than some of his other senses.
βPhysical pain banishes the bad thoughts, though, doesnβt it? Thatβs why you brought me the hairbrush and asked me to paddle your feet on our first date.β
Yes, it was. βSometimes just connecting with my Dom again is enough.β I edge closer to him, because this conversation is making me jittery. βBut most of the time, I need pain.β
Logan scoops me up and settles me in his lap. βBetter?β
I nod gratefully.
βWhat does kinky pain represent to you, baby doll?β he asks, while he feeds me the last few bites of fish.
βControl, connection, safety, release.β
βGood girl.β He kisses my temple and offers me the last bite of my dinner. βWhen does pain scare you beyond what you can handle?β
I chew ten times before I answer. βWhen itβs unexpected. As long as I know itβs coming, I can relax into it. Even if itβs more pain than I anticipated, itβs still okay as long as I know itβs coming. Like with the cane. It bit really hard, particularly on the backs of my legs, but you tapped me first, so I knew it was coming and I was okay.β
βVery good. What pain is too much?β
I try to think of pain thatβs been truly too muchβeither a kind of hurt or severityβwhile he feeds me crΓ¨me brΓ»lΓ©e. There have been plenty of times when I thought the pain was going to be more than I could endure, but looking back on it, it wasnβt, and it always ended up being a turn-on. Thereβs only been one scene when it really wasnβt.
βThat time I told you about with Matthew. The forced orgasms on the Sybian,β I say. βI should have used my safe word, but I was being punished for, um, being really horrible.β I actually told Matthew to go fuck himself, something I never, ever did again. βI was trying to endure it so I wouldnβt be in worse trouble. It hurt in a way that I couldnβt process. It felt like something was ripping inside me. Iβm okay with pain on the outside, but maybe not so much on the inside?β
Logan puts the spoon in the empty cup and strokes my back. βSo weβre clear, if you use your safe word with me, you will not be in trouble. I will never punish you for that. And if you feel like something is ripping inside, you tell me immediately. You donβt need to safe word. You just tell me, straight away.β
βYes, Daddy.β I snuggle into him, feeling so safe in his lap with his warm arms around me.
βGood girl. I know some of this is hard to talk about, Emmy, but youβre doing great. Just a little more, then weβll watch some scenes. What brings on bad thoughts?β
βItβs not just one thing.β Thatβs not completely true and I immediately regret saying it. βUh, okay, there is one thing. Doubting my Dom. That brings bad thoughts on, always.β
βDoubting your Dom when he leaves you alone in the dark? Or when he takes you beyond your pain threshold? Or when he lies to you?β
βAll of those,β I whisper into his shirt.
βThings that undermine your trust in your Dom. Thatβs what brings on bad thoughts?β
I nod. My throat feels too thick to force words through.
Logan rubs my back and holds me close, breathing warmly into my hair. βDid you have
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