The Daddy P.I. Casefiles: The First Collection by Frost, J (great novels .txt) π
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If I need to vomit? Is that a possibility? A probability? Whatβs he going to do to me thatβs so bad Iβd need to vomit? Why didnβt I make vomiting a hard limit? I think again of that poor, whipped sub with pee running down her legs. Is Master Niall going to whip me so hard I vomit? Is that a thing? Iβve never seen it, but I havenβt watched all that many whippings.
Logan moves behind me. He rests one hand on my shoulder, the way he did when I was in the corner. There, it was a comfort. Now, it feels like heβs pinning me against the sink cabinet. I meet his eyes in the mirror. Mine are wide, white showing all around the irises. His are a Siberian lake in winter: black depths that suck down every emotion and freeze them so solid not even the Mexican sun can warm them.
He reaches around me to the hand-soap dispenser set into the sink backsplash and pumps a few drops onto his fingers.
Heβs going to wash out my mouth with soap? Iβve never had my mouth washed out with soap. Not even when I was a kid. I thought it was one of those fictional Victorian child-tortures.
I suck my tongue back into my mouth. βOh, no.β
βNo?β He lifts an eyebrow. βI told you the penalty for swearing.β
Thereβs a moment where I nearly refuse, where I almost push away from him and bolt. A seasick moment of insane defiance. This is so unfair. I said one swear word. He swears all the time. This is a stupid rule, and a stupider punishment. Is it even safe? I donβt think itβs safe. Isnβt hand soap poisonous?
βLast time, Emily. Tongue. Out.β
I shake. In the mirror, my reflection shimmies. Loganβs hand tightens on my shoulder. He steadies me, holds me still, while I grope for that dim hope I had earlier: if I can just do one thing right, I can turn this day around.
I squeeze my eyes closed, tears running cold down my cheeks, and stick out my tongue.
I wait, shaking.
Loganβs warm breath tickles my ear. βOpen your eyes, Emily. Look at me when I discipline you.β
I force my eyes open.
Logan slides two fingers onto my tongue. The bitter taste makes my eyes water harder. Iβve accidentally gotten shampoo in my mouth before, it didnβt taste this bad. Damn antibacterial hand wash.
Loganβs fingers rub around and around, spreading the nasty taste. Bubbles foam on my tongue. Saliva pools in my mouth. I donβt want to swallow. I donβt want soap in my stomach. Is this what he thinks will make me vomit? I really donβt want to vomit. I know Iβm being punished, but he wouldnβt force me to vomit just to break me, would he?
Of course, he would, you stupid girl. He doesnβt care about you. Heβs going to hurt you to salve his pride and be done with you. You might as well go home.
Loganβs fingers work further back. I gag, which only produces more saliva. It oozes out of the sides of my mouth and down my chin to drip into the sink. I hate this. I hate drooling. I work my cheeks and tongue, trying to stop the flow, but Loganβs fingers push my tongue flat.
Squeezing my eyes closed, hot tears running down to join the drip, drip, drip of saliva off my chin, I try to swallow. Loganβs fingers block the motion. I shudder against him. He slides his hand down my back and around my waist to hold me still.
I gag again, harder, making a wet noise that echoes in the tiled room. I want to beg Logan to stop. I donβt deserve this. I know Iβm a bad sub. I embarrassed him and broke his βno swearingβ rule, but he should just reject me instead of torturing me like this before he kicks me to the curb. I try to swallow again, but nothing goes down. The back of my throat is full of mucus and fingers and tongue. I try to spit it all out. Nothing works. My eyes stretch wide as I try to take a breath. I canβt see anything over the hair hanging in my face. I canβt see Logan. All I can feel is his marauding fingers, working further and further back in my mouth, even though Iβm retching now, my whole body shaking. His arm around me has become an iron bar holding me over the sink. I buck against his hold. My lungs are screaming and I still canβt take a breath over everything in my throat and the memories pour back: being held down, pinned by six hands while the water churned around my head and up my nose and I couldnβt breathe, couldnβt breathe, couldnβt breathe.
Logan pulls his fingers out and slides his hand from my waist, back to my shoulder. βEmily, spit.β
I shake my head frantically. I canβt spit. I canβt swallow. Canβt breathe.
βEmily, is your throat obstructed? Hold up three fingers if yes.β
I donβt know if my throatβs obstructed. All I know is that I canβt breathe and I canβt see anything through the tears in my eyes and the hair in my face.
Logan releases me suddenly. I stagger back from the sink and collide with his unyielding chest. He takes the back of my neck with one hand and sits me down hard on the floor. I canβt even choke out a yowl of pain through the tightness of my throat. I grab my throat, trying to force air in some direction.
Warm fabric brushes my arm and leg as Logan slides down next to me. He takes my hands away from my throat, puts his hand under my chin, and forces my head
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