Pieces of Me by Pua Ramona (small books to read txt) 📕

you Becca. You can go ahead and shit on my sister. Just know that you’ll always have nothing to look forward to, I don’t give a fuck who takes the time out for you because you’ll never be Sina. Now if I hear you or your little fan club talking shit about my sister again, I’ll have Mona beat your ass. Or better yet, I’ll just have Sina beat your ass.” He steps back, looks at me and shakes his head “Why her?” He gives Reese a slight head nod and walks off to his car.

We stand there watching him drive off and all we hear is “Why didn’t you do anything babe?” Becca asks, looking hurt. Reese ignores us and walks inside the office slamming the door behind him.

Becca walks closer and I stop her with both of my hands up “You need to leave Becca, I already told you I was done, and I meant it. I’ll pack your things and you can pick them up here tomorrow, or I can just drop it off at your place.”

She stands there shaking her head with tears rolling down her face. If she did this a few weeks ago it might have worked, but I don't have time for these crocodile tear games now. Becca was never my end game and she knew it. “You don’t mean that Eli” she cries out trying to reach out to me.

“I do. I mean it Becca, we are done” I say before I turn and walk into the office closing the door behind me.

I walk past Reese and make my way to the coffee pot “Do you want some coffee?” I ask trying to make amends for the shit show that just happened outside. I look over my shoulder and I see him shutting down his computer like he does when it’s time to get off work. “Are you heading out early?” I ask. He looks at me and doesn’t say and continues getting ready to leave “So you’re going to ignore me now?” I know I’m goading him but I don’t give a shit. “Fine leave, it’s not like you’ve been here to do your actual job anyways. So you can fucking leave now” I growl.

He drops his jacket and throws me up the wall “What the fuck is wrong with you? Why are you being such a fucking asshole? Huh?” he yells.

I feel like shit because I have no right to be a dick to him but my emotions are everywhere. I give up because I need to know. “Why didn’t you tell me it was Sina’s birthday?” I ask, feeling defeated.

Reese looks confused and says, “What? What does she have to do with anything?”

I pull out of his grip and say “Everything man, everything.”

Reese moves to his desk and looks at me still confused “So you’re mad ‘cause of Sina? I don’t fucking understand man. You’re going to have to help me with this one ‘cause I’m confused as fuck right now.”

I run both hands through my hair feeling frustrated “I have feelings for her. I always have and don’t know what the fuck to do now shes back” I look at him sure enough he looks surprised at first, then irritated.

He shakes his head and says “No fucking way man. She’s been dealing with enough as it is, she doesn’t need yours or Becca’s bullshit too so you can forget about that shit straight off”

I stand up straight and take a couple steps until I’m in his face. I push him and say “Who the fuck are you to tell me to stay away from her, huh?” I pushed him again asking “What? Do you have a fucking thing for her Reese? Does she make your dick hard too, is that what it is? Since when did you start having a soft spot for her, huh?”

Yeah I’ve completely lost my shit over someone that probably doesn’t give two fucks that I see her. But I always saw her, the times she smiled for smiles sake, the way she watched the water of the lake that day, the way she scrunched her nose when she wasn’t sure of something. I see her. The look on Reese’s face says it all and I know that I’ve just fucked up bad. He gets in my face and shoves me hard into the fucking wall “What the fuck?” I bark out.

He punches me dead in my face “Since I watched her breakdown at Pixies in front of Michael'' he hits me again “Since she held onto me afraid that Michael would hurt her again” and one last blow to my gut “Since I found out that she use be a fucking cutter.” I can’t breathe and it isn’t because of the hits I’ve just taken, it’s because my heart just broke for her. I’ve been too damn busy worrying about myself and blaming Reese when all he’s done is protect her from everything that was hurting her. I slide to the ground holding my chest. Reese slides down right next to me with his head hanging down, tears welling in his eyes. “I saw the scars, man. She doesn’t know that I saw them, and I doubt that anyone knows” I’ve never seen Reese cry before “There’s more to the story Eli, it wasn't just Michael and Becca. Something happened ‘cause when she woke up from passing out she was screaming and hitting. I tried waking her up but she wouldn’t. When Leila came back after she called for help Sina woke up screaming, “No Jackson'' When she realized it was me and Leila she broke down again” he says shaking his head.

I sit here fuming because I wasn’t there for her, I’m pissed that Michael did this to her, I’m pissed that I gave my time to Becca, I’m fucking livid because I want to know who this Jackson fucker is. Most of all, my soul hurts because she’s hurting