Life Is Not a Fairy Tale by Fantasia (e book reader free TXT) 📕

what they don’t understand, or maybe they will someday, like the Bible says, is that “the truth shall set you free.” And by getting all of this out of my mind and having it stop weighing heavily on my heart, I can finally begin to mend all of my mistakes.

Anyone who thinks that I should not be putting my business out should remember that it is just as hurtful to be the topic of a High Point porch conversation as it is to be on page 20 of atabloid with a made-up story about how I don’t speak to my father. What happens in every person’s life is private and up to the people who are livin’ it, not up to the people who are talkin’ about it to decide what is what. If anything, we should be there to help each other and prop each other up when we’re fallin’ down.

Today, the only thing left to do after acknowledging my mistakes and learning from them is to move on. I have to move on for Zion. All young mothers have to move on and be the best mothers that we can be and not dwell on our mistakes. Our babies are a blessing. Truth is, our children are here now and they don’t want to live in the shadow of our mistakes. It’s our job to make life bright, finally.

I want Zion to have all the things that I couldn’t have. I want her to love her own life. I want her to feel happiness all around her. I want her to have the vision of what she wants in her own head so she is not influenced by anything that she sees that someone else is doing. I want her to focus on God. I want her to be involved in sports because that will give her discipline. My main focus is her schoolin’. I want to see my baby graduate from high school and go to college. When I’m gone, I want to know that she can depend on herself, because she will be educated. Zion is smart.She can do it.

I also want her to carry herself with respect. I don’t want her to make any of the mistakes that I made. Of course, all mothers want this! I want her to experience the things that I didn’t get to experience when I was younger. I don’t want her to learn these things when it’s too late. Not after the fact, like both my mother and I did.

I want for Zion to be able to stand up for herself in relationships with men. I want Zion to be around good male role models. I want her to grow up around men who are married and love their kids and their wives. I want Zion to know how to pick a man for herself. My dream is that Zion will never let a man yell at her or put his hands on her. My dream is that the man in her life wouldn’t even think about that. In a relationship, I want Zion to look for a man who can be her friend and prayer partner. I hope that she meets a man who will never cheat on her. I don’t want her to accept a man cheating on her as normal like many women do, including my own mother.

I wanted Zion to be able to say, “I didn’t see my mom go through abuse.” But she did, and now it’s up to me to paint a different picture in her mind. I want Zion to be a woman who demands respect. I want Zion to be a truly strong woman—not just look like one.

I figure that the best way for Zion to learn all these things is for me to live them myself. I have made a lot of changes. I had to. I had to change the type of men that I was interested in. Now I’m working so hard on my career in music, I want a man who is also business oriented, someone who isserious. I look back and see a very different me and I can really see how much I have changed by how my idea of the man for me has changed. I used to be into guys who were thugs. I liked men with their pants hangin’ low and who were showin’ the bling-bling. I liked men who ran the streets all day, accomplishing nothin’ but seemin’ busy. That turned me on! Now I want an educated, righteous man. A man who looks good as well as a man who has respect for himself, for others, for me and my baby. I need someone who has some common sense and someone who prays when common sense is not enough. These days I want a man who works and who had a dad or a solid role model in his life who taught him how to treat a woman. That is what I really need in my life: someone who was raised right. Now, when I see some guy with his pants down to his ankles, all I can say is “Pull your pants up!”

I’m trying my best to correct my mistakes. I have this incredible chance to change my life and I have my whole life ahead of me. I have started reading and writing at every opportunity I get. I have a lot of people who love and support me and understand why I might not know some things that they know. They even help to push me a little further. And every day, I feel my confidence grow just a little because I know a little more today than I knew yesterday. Now that is real news! I am trying to get my GED and my driver’s license. I am blessed to have my music give me so much, but as I work to write this book and tell my story, I know that my education just started.

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