The Daddy P.I. Casefiles: The First Collection by Frost, J (great novels .txt) π
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I also want to talk through the branding scene I have planned for Emily. Although I told her I needed her pain before I gave her a Lazy Baby Day, the truth is the branding is a reward for her, too. Only another sadist like Niall can understand how giving my bottom such intense pain could be a reward. Niall constructs scenes the same way I do, building from the psychological outwards to the physical. Heβll understand the connection Iβm cementing with the brand, as well as my need to mark Emily, and her need to be marked. He also has a bottom who has some of the same self-worth issues as Emily, although youβd never know it from meeting Shaan, so heβll have ideas about how I can work that into the scene.
Since Niallβs not around, I rise and leave the girls to their chat, which is moving rapidly back and forth between Emilyβs kitty and a book theyβre reading. I kiss Emily on the top of her head again, run my fingertips between the catβs ears and head out into the yard.
I scuff through the grass, which is getting a little long, to the old apple tree. My mother made hard cider every year from its dull, green-gold apples. Emilyβs researched it and told me itβs a Golden Russet apple tree, which, evidently, has some historical significance. For me, the tree is full of memories.
My first kiss was stolen behind the treeβs concealing trunk. Kathleen Sweeney. At our Memorial Day barbeque when I was twelve. Her braces cut my lip; I spent the rest of the day tasting blood and mustard from the hot dog sheβd been eating. Reeling with the belief that Iβd suddenly, somehow, become a man because of that first kiss.
I smile at the memory as I reach up and put my hand on the stump of a branch, broken by Lizbeth when she was nine as she tried to climb the tree. I bolted across the yard to catch her. I broke her fall, and my wrist. While I sat in the doctorβs office getting a cast, she wrapped her thin arms in a death-grip around my waist, shivering and sobbing quietly. She didnβt stop until I was able to put my freshly plastered arm around her, dry her eyes, and tell her I was okay.
I felt a hundred feet tall and got a hard-on that didnβt go away for two days.
Nothing has felt as good as taking care of my sister felt, not until I started topping Emily. Before Emily, I felt a shadow of that greatness. Sometimes strong, and sometimes nothing more than a ghost. Being with Emily brought those feelings back full force. So strongly, they resurrected all my guilt, too. What kind of big brother wants not just to protect his baby sister, but also to spank and fuck her? I had to exorcise that specter and taking it out on Emily did not feel good.
I glance back at my baby girl, sitting at the table, talking animatedly to her friend while dangling the little feather toy for the cat, who is batting at it with his white-tipped paws and purring so loudly I can hear him out in the garden, even over the traffic noises from the street.
Smitten cat.
Almost as smitten as me. I still canβt believe Emily fell for me after I took my guilt and anger out on her. But sheβs right that itβs bonded us, maybe in a way nothing else could. Iβve let Emily in further, let her see more of me and my true feelings, than anyone Iβve been with.
Maybe thatβs why my relationship with Miranda failed. I felt like Iβd accomplished something when we hit the one-year mark. None of my other relationships came close to that mythical mark, and Iβd begun to wonder if there was something wrong with me that scared women off after a few months.
But duration and depth arenβt the same thing. I was with Mir a long time, but I never let her in as deep as Iβve let Emily. I demanded trust from my bottoms, and I did my damnedest not to breach their trust, but I never gave it in return. I made them open their souls to me, but I didnβt trust them with my own demons.
Only my little girl, who seems fragile, but is made of platinum and Kevlar beneath her curls and big eyes and shy smiles.
Thinking about Emily conjures my imp. Her arms slide around my waist as she presses against my back. Her cheek rests between my shoulders.
βHi, Daddy,β she murmurs.
βHi, baby girl.β
βWhat are you thinking about? You look sad.β
I pat the broken branch. And give her the whole truth. βLizbeth broke this branch when she was nine. I caught her as she fell and snapped my wrist. She clung to me and cried the whole time I was getting a cast on it and only stopped when I put my arms around her and told her it was okay. Best feeling I can remember.β
βMmm.β Emily squeezes me, encouraging without judging.
βIβve been chasing that feeling ever since. Looking for it every time I topped. I havenβt found it again. Not until I started topping you.β
She rubs her cheek between my shoulder-blades. βDo you think thatβs because of what happened on our second date?β
βI think itβs because I trust you more than Iβve ever trusted anyone.β
βReally? More than Miranda?β she breathes.
βMuch more. First of all, Mir never gave me all of herself, so I couldnβt give her all of myself. Second, Miranda and Lizbeth hated each other on sight. If Iβd told Miranda anything
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