Pieces of Me by Pua Ramona (small books to read txt) 📕

keep hold of her, but the driver’s door opens and I’m not sure who it is that gets out and says “Sina, is everything okay?”

Who the fuck is this motherfucker?

Sina turns her head a little and says, “I’m okay, Marino, thank you for coming to get me.” If you thought I was pissed off before, oh trust me I’m so fucking pissed now that I’m seeing red. How can she just call another guy when she knows that we need to talk about what just happened between us.

“Who the fuck are you?” I snap at the asshole that is brave to come get my girl. He moves into the light and all the air leaves my body. Did she really call this desperate fuck to pick her up? I know who he is now that I can see his face clearly. He was one of the lawyers who worked on our company’s contracts and he is also the fuck head that was dancing with her at The Hut. I look over at Sina and can see she has completely shut down.

“Marino, can you give me a second please?” she asks with a smile that is nothing but empty.

He looks at me then looks back at her “Sure. No rush, gorgeous.” This motherfucker. Before I can fucking say anything he gets back in the car and picks up his phone.

“So you came with me, and you’re going to leave with him?” I say with a nasty tone. She doesn’t bother looking at me and starts reaching for the door. I reach over to stop her “Please, Sina, just let me take you home?” I beg.

She takes a breath and with no feeling at all, says, “No.”

I step away from her and know that I should just let her leave, but instead I stand there like an asshole and say, “Fine. If you want people to think that you’re just a whore leaving with different guys, then by all means leave. See if I give a fuck.”

Her shoulders drop and she turns so she can face me. I hate myself because she didn’t do anything wrong and yet here I am treating her like she was nothing important, just to get a rise out of her so she’ll talk to me.

She looks up at me and I feel it happen. I feel my heart fucking break. “You’re not the first guy who’s made me his second best, but you will be the last man who takes the last broken piece that I’ve held on to with everything that is me,” she cries. Before she gets in the car, she stands on the tip of her toes and kisses me on the cheek, her lips are so close to my ear as she whispers “I don’t exist to you anymore.” And my whole fucking world shatters right here at her feet.

“Sina” I whisper, reaching for her, but she pulls away. I stand there and watch her leave with pieces of my heart in her possession. I can’t feel anything; I’m fucken numb. I am a piece of shit who doesn’t deserve her. I walk back to pick everything up off the blanket and throw them in the back of my truck, including the books that she’ll never get to read. As the sun rises I feel another piece of my soul die. That’s all that she wanted. To watch the sunrise and I couldn’t even give her that. I climb into my truck and drive off, leaving the pieces of me at the lake where they belonged with the last piece of Sina that I selfishly took from her, knowing that I will regret this for the rest of my life.

Chapter Thirteen

Sina

And it happened. I was too weak to stay away from him. I couldn’t replay everything that happened back in my head because it hurt too bad, so I just let it go. “Sina, are you going to be okay?” Marino asks as he stops the car. I look at him with swollen eyes from crying and say “One day I’ll be okay. Thank you for bringing me home, I appreciate you coming out of your way to pick me up.” He gives me a sad smile and leaves me outside Mama’s house with my thoughts.

I am officially emotionally and spiritually drained, but most of all I feel broken. I cried all the way to my mother’s house, and now I’m crying myself to sleep with a prayer on my lips. “God, if you can hear me now, please take it all. I can’t do it anymore.”

“Please stop,” I cry out.

“Stop what my beautiful Sina?” I try to move, but I can’t. My body is stuck frozen. Why is it so dark in here? “I’ll always come back for you” I hear a familiar voice say. Am I dreaming? Please let this just be a bad dream because I can’t do this again. “You belong to me Sina.” Why can’t I see anything? I start fighting, but I’m not hitting anything.

“Please. Please, just leave me alone. I promise I won’t tell anyone” I cry. I can smell him everywhere and I feel myself straining and fighting against my invisible attacker.

“Sina, please wake up.” I hear another voice, but I can’t see who it is. “Please wake up,” the voice whispers. “You better run” it’s that familiar voice again. I don’t know what’s happening but I feel myself start to shake.

“Please, just let me go” I cried. I can’t breathe, why is this happening to me? I just want this to stop, the pain to go away. I’m crying and I can’t move, I feel trapped.

“Sina, please, please, it’s me Leila. I need you to wake up sweet girl.” I know that voice.

Leila? No. You need to leave, he’s going to hurt you, please Leila run I cry out to her. Why can’t I move? Leave her alone! Just take me. I see him