His: Tony: The Sabatini Family by Fiona Murphy (sneezy the snowman read aloud TXT) 📕

I shake my head and kiss her cheek. She blinks, and her eyes glisten with tears. “Ah, no tears, please. I do not deserve them.”

“You do. Only you won’t cry them, so I have to do it for you. I’m sorry, Tony.” She hugs me tight.

Her calls keep coming over the next few weeks until it becomes a habit to visit her every Tuesday and Thursday. We cook together, practice her Italian and we manage to keep the loneliness at bay for the both of us.

But that’s during the day. At night, I still burn for Christy. For months, I wish I had just killed her so I would never know this need. Gradually, the hate dies, but the longing never does.

***

Christy

The first eight days away from Tony, every minute of every day all I wanted to do was run back to him and beg forgiveness for leaving him. I’m sure it will get easier, except as the days go by, it never does. I’m in Austin, Texas. It’s sunny and the people are nice. And I hate everything about it because it isn’t Chicago and Tony isn’t here.

I had taken a train to Indianapolis. From there, I flew to a small town in Mexico where I got the identification I knew I needed to live without Tony finding me. When the man handed me the paperwork and called me Christy Sabatini for the first time, I wondered what the hell I was doing daring to take the name I would have freely been given, if I had stayed.

No, Tony didn’t really love me. He only wanted to keep me to stay alive. I can live with the memories of the last three months. I’ll keep them and treasure them forever.

I tell myself this longing will fade, but damn it, it doesn’t. I’ve found a job as a home health worker and am settling into my empty apartment. On the eighth day, I wake up one morning feeling even worse than I have been. When I get up to take a shower, I faint dead away. A few hours later, the urgent care doctor congratulates me on being seven weeks pregnant. I faint again for only the third time in my life.

All I want to do is get in my car and drive straight through the night to get back to Tony. I actually start packing until I remember all the reasons it’s wrong. No, I would be wrecking his life. I have to stay strong, for the baby and for Tony.

Now that I know I’m having his baby, a new calm comes over me. This is a way of having Tony forever. If I had known, I never would have left. Deep down, I hate myself for walking away from him with the one thing we both wanted. I have no doubt Tony will hate me ten times more for not going back to him with our baby. But the baby gives me a different kind of strength to get through every day. It wasn’t really love. I need to remember that.

14

Present Day

Tony

I’ve just swallowed my morning espresso when the call comes in from Johnny. “Yeah.”

“Regina’s fucking trying to get married behind my back!” He yells so loudly I pull the phone away from my ear. “I can’t believe this shit. I need Dom here now. This has all gone to hell. I knew it. I knew I should have just told her when she got here to New York two years ago and brought Dom here and settled this. Why did I listen to you?”

I motion to Carmella that I need another espresso. “I told you when she rolled her eyes at you six months ago, she was ready to take on Dominic. You were the one trying to get her to stay because she wanted to, not because you got the doctors telling your time is up.” I remind him. “What the hell do you mean she’s getting married?”

“Last week, I found out she’s been sneaking around with some fucking pencil dick wanna-be associate of Benny Bruno. The guy is a piece of shit. He’s all coked up and in it to his fucking neck to Al and Benny. I locked her down in her room while I looked into how deep he is with Al and Benny. Come to find out today, she thinks she’s getting married at the courthouse tomorrow. If Dominic doesn’t get up here fast, I’m going to lose her to this fucker.” He’s out of breath.

I work to keep the annoyance out of my voice. Wincing, as I remember Johnny’s days are running down from the lung cancer he was diagnosed with two years ago.  “This could be a good thing. Dominic having to save her from herself. He won’t like it, but he won’t back down from it. There’s no way around it, though. You’re going to have to ask him to make her his wife. He won’t refuse you as his Don, especially not after he sees what he’s saving her from. But only after he’s met her, you do it before, and he’ll run the other way.”

“That won’t make him resent her?”

“Maybe for five minutes. He won’t hold onto it. She’s a beautiful young woman. Finally, she’s a woman. Dominic won’t be able to keep his hands off her for long. Once he’s had her, he’ll come around.” I hope to god I’m right, and my son doesn’t hate me for this.

“You’re sure?” Johnny doesn’t sound convinced.

“I’m sure.  I’ll make the reservation for his flight out to New York right now.”

Johnny sighs. “Good, good. Okay. When he comes to see me, I’ll tell him to do what he can to keep them apart. So I got him thinking of having to save her already. Thanks, Tony. I shouldn’t have left this so long. I thought I would have more time, y’know? Fucking cancer. Happy birthday, Tony. Enjoy them while you got them.”

Did he just take a drag off a