Love Grows In The Dark by Eli Lowe (read books for money TXT) 📕

him knowing who I was actually...without him knowing my name or my real identity as well. I did not hold myself back either, to do everything that anyone would want to do with their mates. Just for once, I wanted to live in the moment with my mate, so that I could say to myself later that I could love too...that once I had a mate as well, and I did love him with all my heart, so what, it was just for one night. My love was true and my heart knew that very well.

But I had never expected him to say that he loved me too.

I had never imagined that the always heartless Kazan could express his love too, proving my assumption wrong in every way. That night I realised how warm his heart was even when he was all cold from the outside.

And that was why I could never forgive myself for being such a cruel person to him, to my mate, to Kazan, ... because when he said the words from the depth of his heart, I knew that I was not going to be there with him anymore to listen to his very words ever again. I knew that I was going to leave him after that night without even letting him know who I was... who his mate was actually.

Yes, I know I did wrong to him. But I had no other choice.

Forcing him to stay with the one whom he hated the most just because we are bound by the mate bond, was the last thing that I wanted to do with my mate. I did not want to play with his emotions either by staying in the dark forever, when I knew clearly that nothing would be the same when he will find out the truth one day.

The reality was harsh indeed and it would only cause destruction to both of us and nothing else.

So leaving him was the best and the only choice left for me, at least when I knew that he hated me as Summer.

But little did I know that in these few days I would get to learn to see things in a very different way. People whom I used to hate were not deserved to be hated. No, not all but a few of them. I realised over these few days that it was just me who had failed to see the truth all this while. They were not at all like I had thought them as always.

Why am I saying this now?

Well, you will get to known soon.

But before that, I have to tell you what I did after that night.

Savouring enough love for myself from my mate, I returned home that night, making sure of the fact that I stay hidden from him, no matter what. And Kazan did not protest either, cause he knew how to keep promises, unlike me.

Yes, I broke the promise. I had to.

Otherwise, two lives were going to be ruined instead of the already ruined one...me.

So, that night I came back home with a new promise which I made to myself that I would never ever wish to be with him again, no matter what. But I did not know if I could keep that promise or not. All I knew that I must try.

No, I did not run out of the town, neither did I stop going to school or to my work, but I made sure to stay hidden all the time just like before. Especially from my mate, Kazan.

I kept sneaking around the school while I made sure that in no way I have to face him ever again. And I was indeed successful in all my attempts.

Cause now, I had friends to help me with all those things, no matter if I tell them my each and every reason or not. They helped without asking a single question, even when except Kaith none of them knew why I was so determined to hide, neither did they try to know without my consent.

And yes, Markus too. He had become such a good friend to me lately. Even though I did not ask him to change ever, but he did, willingly.

“Summer? Are you even listening to me?” My thoughts got interrupted as Markus asked again, seeing me zoning out to somewhere else in my mind.

“Yes. Do not worry. I will deal with it.” I muttered the last few words under my breath as I had already decided what to do with Kazan, since I took the decision to stay away from him forever.

“I hope you do. Anyway, I got to go now. See you later.” With that, he went out of the library in no time, leaving me behind only to be engulfed with the thoughts of my unfortunate life once again.

After school, I was walking back to my home instead of going to the cafe for my another part-time job, cause today was my off day. And that was why I did not bring my bike today to school in the first place, as I really needed to walk alone sometimes here and there, letting my mind free, at least for once in a while. The evening breeze was gentle and the air was fresh to breathe in.

And like always, my walk back home turned into a long evening stroll, cause I knew where I had to go.

After that last night with Kazan, I discovered gradually that he had someplace to go whenever he felt down. It was kind of a secret spot for him, since when I did not know, and I never saw any of his friends hanging out with him there. Since I found out about the place to where he usually escapes, I have always seen him alone, sitting on the farthest park bench, facing the lake before