His Mission (HIS SERIES Book 1) by SAKINA HUSSAIN (ebook reader library TXT) 📕

I shut my eyes and breathe deeply, forcing myself to calm down. I can hear Tobias breathing in front of me, his chest rising and falling steadily.

"Because it's true, I do think you're beautiful."

My eyes snap open and I look up at him, shaking my head in frustration.

"You can't do this! You can't ruin Jake and I! You're going to destroy him Tobias, you've already destroyed a piece of him! I won't stand back and allow you to ruin him completely." I say, my jaw clenched tightly. I can feel the sadness and anger build up inside me, bubbling away like a volcano ready to erupt.

"Does Jake know?" Tobias asks his voice wavering slightly when mentioning Jake's name.

"No." I snap back bluntly, tugging free of my wrists. I hold them to my chest closely and take a step back from Tobias. I see the hurt immediately flash over his face and he holds his hand out towards me before rethinking and letting it drop back to his side.

"Jake can never know."

Tobias nods grimly, his eyes trained on the floor, he resembles a told off toddler.

"I can never know what?"

I freeze, my heart dropping to the pit of my stomach.

"I can never know what Emily?" Jake repeats, his tone becoming more demanding as he stands in the doorway, his stare fixed on me.  I open my mouth to respond but I can't do it, I can't hurt him. I don't want to see his face crumple in pain, I can't be the reason for breaking him.

"Can somebody please speak?" He asks loudly at Tobias and I, making me jump. I remain silent and keep my eyes trained on the floor. I can't tell him, it will break us apart. I can hear Jake's breathing speed up from across the room and in a flash, he's by my side.

"What's going on? Why are you in here?" Jake asks a series of question, his voice rising with each one. I don't answer and instead hang my head low, hiding behind my hair.

"Jake." Tobias speaks up behind me and I tense up, freezing on the spot. Is Tobias going to tell him?

"I don't recall asking you the question!" Jake snaps back at him, his tone threatening. He's warning Tobias off, already becoming defensive. Jake turns back towards me, his tone desperate. I can already sense the fear behind his voice.

"Emily, answer me. I can never know what?"

How can I break his heart? Break him?

Our relationship from this point on will be full of insecurities. I shake my head sadly, still unable to look into his eyes. I turn towards Tobias, my face emotionless. I can't be responsible for burning their relationship to the ground completely.

"You need to tell him." I say before walking out of his room, shutting the door behind me. I close my eyes and sink down to the floor next to Tobias' door, waiting for the fighting to start. My heart is thumping against my chest and I feel like it's about to burst straight through. Will Jake and I ever be the same?

Moments pass and nothing happens.

No screaming and no fighting.

I press my ear against the crack in the door, listening out for their voices. All I can hear is the faint buzz of their conversation. They aren't yelling or raising their voice. What the hell is Tobias telling him?

I sit anxiously, my leg shaking up and down as I wait for Jake to leave Tobias' room.

"This isn't right." I mumble, standing back onto my feet. The door swings open and Jake walks out, his gaze landing on me.

"You were planning a surprise party for me?" Jake asks uneasily and I look at Tobias who's stood behind Jake. Tobias signals for me to nod so I nod automatically, looking back at Jake. An uneasy feeling sits in the pit of my stomach and I swallow the lump in my throat, knowing we're both lying for him.

"That doesn't explain why you ran off." Jake questions me and I glance back at Tobias, unsure on what to say. I've never been very good at lying and this time is no different.

"Yeah, uhm. . . sorry about that. I kind of freaked out." I mumble quietly. Jake narrows his eyes at me and Tobias suspiciously, his gaze flickering between the both of us.

"It's not my birthday so why a party?"

"It was a party for Emily really, to celebrate her getting out of the hospital. Ivory and I were planning it for you two and Emily walked in, hearing us." Tobias lies effortlessly and I have to stop myself from gawking at how easy lying came to him.

"You've had it hard lately so we wanted a night to just cut loose," Tobias shrugs and I smile tightly at Jake who looks like he's slowly believing the lies.

"So when is it?" Jake asks and I open my mouth to let him know it's been cancelled.

No point in carrying on with a lie right?

"Tonight." Tobias replies quickly and I widen my eyes at him, glaring. He avoides my burning stare, acting like I've suddenly grown invisible.

"I'm just going to get the booze now, any special requests?" He asks and Jake turns towards him shrugging.

"Whatever," he responds before grabbing my hand and leaning over to place a gentle kiss on my temple. I close my eyes and inhale deeply, hating myself for lying to him.

"Tonight's kind of short notice but I suppose having some fun won't hurt. Mum and Aunty Myra are out too, nice thinking Muffin." Jake grins at me and I smile back at him tightly, feeling my stomach twist further in knots.

"Great, I'll go pick up some supplies." Tobias mumbles, disappearing behind his bedroom door to get dressed. My throat runs dry and I can't look Jake directly in the eyes.

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