Spirits of Cherish Roses by Rolonda Walls (books to read for self improvement TXT) 📕

stuck on bull****
And it sucks
While I am scared to wear the same ****
The world spins around
Please tell me am I not going crazy
Forgive me mama
But now I hate him


Yet again
I’m going to start
From beginning to End
Yet again
Three months from now
Yet again
I dread to even begin
To turn 18
Time to leave mama's nest
Now to take each bullet
Straight to my chest
Taking deep breaths
The real world is out there
I’m not sure if
I’m able to take this
Final step
Is my head ready?
To step out of my dreams
To what Eighteen
Calls Reality
Time to shake my fear awake
Stepping of my cloud
Let the air hit my face
Eighteen needs to be wonderful
Maybe even great
Time to stop second guessing
Myself
Time to step
With nothing but pride
At least I made it
Made It to Eighteen
Were I come from
Eighteen isn’t no nice number
Is it really there?
Three months from now to there?
What I’m I expecting
Do I need to take cover?
Move and settle for nothing
Frowning with such depression
Then smiling
It’s something different
My life was made different
Its tradition to be different
And Eighteen is………………..
Eighteen might just be me?
My Attitude is now mild
And my walk is now confident
Guess what?
My Dad still don’t talk to me
And my mom is in need of help
Little sisters look up
At me in a plead
Time to reach the
Highest star
And shine the brightest
Time to space out
Drop the people
Around me
That doesn’t know what
I’m about
I’m on a mission
Specific steps
To complete what’s next
Curls in my hair
Releasing all my stress
All I ask Eighteen
What’s Next?
You Hurt Me

Why do you care

You let me die
You made me hurt
You made the world with so much hate
You burn the wood
You trash my hood
You infected my wound
You killed the child
You hit her mother
You stoned her brother
You used her sister
Why do you care
I fell and scraped my knee
I cry that tear
I cry with fear
I shout with pain
I stared at the rain
NO one came to my rescue
No came to hold me down
No one was there at all
No one catched me when I fell
No one told me there was no such
thing as the boggy men
No one told me to sit down
No one told me not to frown
No one told me he'll be back
To finish the game he once played
Why do you care


My Fight To Survive

My heart stop beating
long time ago
but I keep on breathing
under neath the flow
I traveled all around
but how come my remains
can't be found
I can't rest in peace
If the peace can't be
seek-ed
I cry day and night
Don't laugh until you've seen
my fright my fight
Soon my heart beat slowly
as the color of my skin regain health
blood leaks from the energy
For I am not all human
I am a step into the dark
the cries I can only hear
the voices that won't disappear
the minds that trapped unexpected
the growls from many beats
the prowls from the descent
and the touch of ungodly
Hear my fight



My Fight Stops Tonight

As I ran
I took deep breaths
As I know this will
be the fight of my life
The last fight of tonight
Not knowing
The last strike
blood drips from my body
But greed to kill my opponent
will still strike fearlessly
I move in time
dodging the fast movement of the
night
Crawling safely to
My death
My opponent is not scared
but I know this will be the fight of my life
His treacherous smirk
doubted me
I let my pass behide
I let my opponent slide by
Once too many times
Mama and Papa aren’t here this time
My fight
And I’m not backing down
I'm not clowning around
Until I have my opponent by his throat
To he gives up
Till he feels the hatred I have hate
Until the tears be shaken awake
Until he falls gasping for air
Until my name is the name he will
Fear



Driven

To excoriated pain
To the ultimate hatred
To the soul of the disrespected
To damned of the earth
To the shadows that pass the worse
For The Mother and the Fathers
That didn’t believe in their child
To the upward frown
The tears that signal the child is down
The taunt and torture
The screaming and yelling
Only to open my eyes to insanity
Indefinitely to identity
To surprise me
From the strange
World of integrity
Suppress me
To drain blood from inside of me
Cry for me
Hold me
Grab me before I reach
The line between saint and the deadly
The faint doesn’t make it fair to me
Share with me
Be honest to me
Die and be alive with me
Don’t lie to me
Spare me
I beg you please
Driven
But only in my dreams

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Publication Date: 12-02-2010

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