De anima by Tessa Ellington (sad books to read txt) 📕

/> dead in your chest.
You can barely hear the Thump, Thump, Thump.
The broken beating of a lonely heart.
My Personal Pain

The hatred that burns inside of me,
the hatred that burns my veins,
controls everything I do.
It courses through my veins,
weakening me,
controlling me.
Destroying everything I do.
Hurting everyone I have ever loved.
This hatred is unstoppable,
because I have let it go on for too long.
Now it has control over me.
I can no longer love,
no longer care for those whom I once held close to my heart.
For the fear of hurting them, bringing them pain,
haunts me in the back of my mind.
The pain and hatred now slowly consumes me,
driving me insane.
Making me sick with anger, rage.
Nothing can stop it.
So stay away from me, before I hurt you.

Fire

Ignis
calidus, lucida
ardoris, duro, ardens
destructiva, tenebrarum, hiems, remit
gelida, mordax, frigida
patet, rigentes
Glacies

My Love

I sit here,
missing him.
Wishing that I could hear his voice.
See his face.
I used to feel empty,
un-whole,
worthless.
Then he came into my life,
made me begin to see the good in me that I could not.
Each day,
each hour,
I wish that could hold him.
Tell him how much he means to me,
hoping that I will never have to let him go.

A Mother's Love

Laying in a ball on the floor,
you wish for the suffering to end.
Wish for the tears to stop.
You hear her voice in your head,
calling you worthless, a mistake.
Feel every wrong the woman had ever done to you.
Mentally.
Emotionally.
You grip your chest and cry some more,
seeing her face twisted in a horrible mask of disappointment.
hear her say how she could not believe she was your mother.
Feel the pain of fists on flesh once again,
as her boyfriend sits there and hits you.
While she just sits there,
watching.
Saying you deserved it.
You try to push these memories from your mind,
but you can't.
So you find the only solution left to ease the pain.
You grab a knife, and with one last shuttering breath,
plunge it deep into you chest.
And with your dying wish,
you hope she feels remorse for what she has caused.

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Publication Date: 10-20-2011

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