A Reflection Of Me by Drea Jordan (ebook reader for surface pro .txt) 📕

hell out of my business and tend to thier own when we were togather i would feel uncomfortable with you becasue all of a sudden you would just come out of the blue saying these stupid things and then we would fuss and fight and make up the next day you are the bad habit that i have we are so close that i wouldnt go no where without knowing that you were by my side and when i would passmy mom fussing on the phone she would say " if you are at this age maybe you dont need a boyfriend but you know i didnt listen to her becasue i still loved you after we fussed and fought i dont listen to them dumb ass people and you shouldnt either becasue you are the only thing in my world and i am the only thi g in you world so dont worry i am always will be here for you no matter what you going through we are bestfriends you can tell me anything that is on your mind and i will to cause i know twhat everybody says so you shouldnt have no kind of doughts what we are going through we have alot more to worry about in the future.


Still In Love

memories started to play in my head
me wantin to tell you how i am
feelin about yu but
dont even try to call me and see
how i am doing im still in ♥
wit yu from the way
we kissed the way yu said
yu loved me but we had ended it .

we said that we would never
part and that yu would always
love me know me wishin
that i had never broke off what
we had im still sprung as yu can
see im stuck on yu cuz
this is what yur love
is doin 2 me.

im still in love wit yu cuz we went
through so much togather
yu always told me that
yu would neva break
my heart no matter
what had happend knw im
settin here cryin cuz all
of dat was a lie and knw im
missin yu more then i eva i
thought i would cuz yur
love has me pheanin.

just wishin yu knew how bad im
missin yu was my rock, my love, my heart, my life
but the issue of trust kept
running through my head i
wanted to believe that our love
would keep yu from cheatin.

im still in luv wit yu as yu can
see my life has changed and
became worser since yu walked
out of my lufe its just fallin apart with-
out yu holding it togather its
like imma neva fall in love again
cuz im missin yur lovin that
much that no other boy's love
will neva be like yurs .


Revenge

the way i see things knw is so different
you claimed that it wasn't gunna
happen but it did yu say that
yur not a hoe n 3 more
but yu proved me wrong
all the things yu did led me 2
see that yu was wrong
all the late nite creeping
and the ways yu came
in the house so late
led me 2 thinking of why
i am feeling this way
all the things that yu said yu had 2 do
made me wish that i had never met yu.

when i went through yur phone
i seen more then just one gurls numba
it led me 2 conclusions
that yu never loved me all
the late night phone calls had me
wondering if yu was ever true from the
begining??
me 2 question myself all the time
thinkin that i had did something wrong
but all along it was yu
yu put me in the prediciment
that has me feelin this way
all the lies that covered up the 1st
lie made 2 wanna say that
yu is a lier a cheater and
a hoe all the girls i could
imagine lined up in a row one
by one and me the last one
2 find out that yu was
cheatin for fun
why didnt yu juss tell me
that yu wanted 2 fucc n not have
nothing else 2 do wit me
instead i was the next girl
in line 4 yu 2 fucc wit n den leave
yu juss dont kno wat
yu den got ya self in now
imma do the same shit
2 yu den leave yur sorry ass
outside n let yu see dat yu aint
ready 2 fucc wit me cuz
i can play the same game
that was played on me.


My Life

I may smile when yu see me but truely im hurtin inside i dont kno how 2 say dis but i feel like im dying inside i feel like dat im on mii own in dis lifetime its like a dream dat when i reach out for sumebody im here all by miiself like no one can here me or see me i seen mii life flash rite b4 me n im dying a long n coldly death and when im dead all i is can see mii life flashin rite b 4 me all the wrong i have done in mii life juss led up 2 wat made me i seen no wrong when i was alive but now that im dead no one can even help me i was told dat god can save you and you can live better life when yur dead but im not one of the ones that makes it 2 heaven im the one who ends up in hell burning in hell for all the wrong that i have dune all i see is the devil laughing cus i kno that i had done so much that was wrong so i juss sit there burning and wishing that i would have changed so i wake up frum the dream crying and shaking cus i kno what i had did to make this happen n im still crying so i got up out of the bed n i looked around 2 see that i was really dead n the whole time i was a spirit i seen mii body still in the bed n i juss knew dat i wont dreamin so i closed mii eyes n opended them again n i seen mii self walkin into a light n i aint kno where i was headin so i juss kept walkin until i seen mii daddy i was so happy dat i juss started cryin again and i gave him da biggest hug n said " daddy i missed yu" but den he started 2 fade away n once again i was all alone until mii little brother alganon started walking towards me wit mii step mommie n she said "drea welcome 2 heaven" and i started 2 see that i was not really dreamin i was dead i thought and i was in so much of a shock until i really woke up and seen that i could have sworn that it was real n that i was actually dead so i wish sumone could help me with mii problem but it feels like im loosin dis race on earth i may never smile again cus mii life its going to never be the same i still feel like im dying inside and im in so much pain if you could only step in my shoes and see the world end slowly and the dream that i had was juss only the beginning.


Fading

your like a song repeating in my head juss cant stop thinkin bout yew,

im startin to realize that we are not made for eachotha juss knowing that yu are

still in ♥♥ wit cha ex had me thinkin dat i wuz gunna neva be next.


its not the same how it use 2 be im fallin for sumeone else if

you cant see it i mean i still love yu but yur fallin 4 sumeone else and i can

see that she is the one.


all of the late night conversations on the phone had me thinkin i was neva alone and

knw its juss like yu den left me all alone not even thinkin bout yu is wat is startin 2

happen yu say yu like me but yu never show it when we are talkin

im juss sayin that i juss wanna be friends yu wont gunna try n start nuttin special

n e ways so imma juss finish this poem of by saying that i still love yu but its not

the same when all yu talkin about its yur ex loves pain the dummist shit that

you have done left ha all lonley n cold and for sumeone else 2 love ha

i undastand that she was da one dat broke it off but it was yur fault for lettin ha

go knw its me dat has 2 read n hear about it ova da phone its juss not da same

feelings that i had for yu before i mean they are still here but they are starting to

fade n im startin 2 miss my ex-lovers warmth.


Hiding

what is there to do when the boi yhuve fallin
4 has fallin in ♥ widd sumeone else do yhu
hide da pain or try to reflaim wat yall had widd eachotha.

do yhu hide in misery knowin that he belongs to
anotha gurl but the feelings that yhu have 4 him
starts to outshine hers n yhu not knowin how he
feels about yhu but yhu still pushin yhurself towards him
so yhu start to think dat he is feelin da samewaii about yhu.

Yhu start to ? yhurself about him he says he always thinkin
of of yhu but when yhu call or txt him he wont reply
bacc to yhu.

yhu start to ? yhurself more and more about it and then
you notice that yhur startin to stress yhurself about yhur special
sumeone the boi that gave yhu the respect yhu wanted and
yhu gave him bacc what he wanted n he vanished like magic on yhu
leavin yhu uncared for and hurtfull. yhu start to feel like yhu've ran out of
anwsers and all the thoughts start to cume more often n yhu start to get
confused and wonder wat yhu've done wrong cuzs yhur scared of bein alone..

he's stops contacting yhu but yhu have
to see him everydaii for the rest of ya life
n all yhu do is cry n hide da pain inside cus
yhu kno that yhu will neva find anotha
like him.. when all yhuve done is
wat he wanted but he still has fallin 4 this otha
gurl n yhu thinkin all yhuve done was going to
pay off and yall 2 would have had suttin special
but late @ nite yhu kno he is thinkin of ha n not yhu
but yhu still want him so bad dat it dosen't matta
wat yhu have to go through cause yhur
scared of tellin him how yhu feel about' em but
but yhu keep it hidin inside of yhu dat yhur in ♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥
widd him.....


??s Of A Broken Heart

Have you ever been scared of being alone bcus the
boy that you love is doing you wrong do you start yo feel sad
bcus the boy that you go with is cheating on you bhind you bacc but you kno that he comes
to you when he wants something from yu....

But yu still consider yurself