Secret Desires Of The Heart by Melissa Willingham (free novels .TXT) 📕

back, I can see how I was lost in a world of glitz and glamour, power and privilege, fortune and fame. Whenever you came to work for me, you were down on your luck. You didn’t have a penny to your name.

Yet I noticed something different and unique about you. Unlike other people, you treated me as if I were a normal person, instead of a movie star. You looked past my persona, the image I created. The mask I wore to hide all of the pain and insecurity I’d always felt inside.

Somehow you saw through my disguise. You instinctively sensed that although I pretended to be very confident and secure, I’d become an imposter. Deep down inside, I was really still that scared, little orphan.

The one who was so desperate to fit in; searching for a place to belong. The small child who used to peer longingly into the windows of shops and wish for things I could never own. The young girl who used to stare yearningly into the windows of homes and dream of the family I would never have.

Yes, you knew the real me, beneath the hair and make-up; away from the public eye. You didn’t have anything to offer me, except your unconditional love. But, that was all I’d ever wanted and needed. Being with you helped me to realize the truth about the lie I was living, the masquerade.

You gave me something no one else had ever given, your understanding. And you did something no one else had ever done; you loved me just the way that I am. With all of my flaws and imperfections, you still loved me for myself and not for what I have.

I’ve searched my whole life to find someone like you. I’d gladly give up everything I own just to be with you, my darling. The mansion on the hill, the fancy cars, the sophisticated wardrobe, all of the money. Those things mean nothing to me, without you.

How I fondly remember the first night we made love! It was so beautiful and special, so right. You were such a gentleman and treated me like a lady. It felt almost as if I’d never been touched or kissed before. With you, I knew I’d truly been made love to by someone who really cared about me.

You drove me home after an awards show, where I won a couple of trophies. We ended up being in the house all alone, as usual. Only this time, there was a sizzle to the air; a crackling of electricity between us.

We shared a romantic, candle-light dinner, and then went into the comfortable den. We began to slow dance by the cozy, warm fireplace. In the past, we’d always managed to contain our desire and restrain ourselves.

But the passion overtook us and we lost all control. As we gazed deeply into one another’s eyes, we suddenly couldn’t keep our hands off one another. Our lips met hungrily; our tongues danced a tango together.

You took my hand, leading me over to the bear-skin rug. We lay down and ravished each other for what must’ve been hours. Since then, we’ve become even closer and I’ll be forever grateful for finding you. You complete my life, my sweet lover. My bodyguard, my chauffeur.


"Portrait of Me"

See the portrait of me, lonely as can be
I suppose I could be wild and free
but instead, I'm lost in a world of misery
It seems that I just can't let you go

I sit alone and sigh, sometimes I cry
and how I try so hard to understand
why we ever had to say good-bye
It seems that I just can't let you go

Because no one else I've ever known
has been able to touch me like you do
I know it's probably for the best
but I won't settle for anyone less
It seems that I just can't let you go

I believe one day, I'll get over you
but for now, I guess I'll be blue
unless you know you can be true


"Shelter From The Storm"

When my day is dark and gloomy
you're a breeze blowing to me
When the world is cruel and cold
you are always there to hold

You're my light in the darkness
as I struggle through this test
You lift me up into your arms
and keep me safe from all harm

When I feel I can no longer stand
you take careful hold of my hand
leading me along on this journey
Close beside me, you will remain
and your love will never change

There are no worries on my mind
you seem to heal me every time
Even when I'm bent and broken
your heart becomes my loving token

You're my shelter from the storm
because of all the things you do
you have made my life so complete


"Will I Ever"

Many lonely years and empty tears
I have waited for so very long
for the right man to come along
when will my wait finally be over?

Will I ever say "He's my husband"?
will he ever say "She's my wife"?
will I ever feel a sweet, little life
growing deep inside of my womb?
So much joy that would bring

Will I ever hold a tiny baby
and know that I'm its Mother?
So much peace I would discover
as its fingers curled around mine
knowing that I had been its life-line

Will I ever bounce a child on my knee
and tickle its tummy playfully
while I grow old so gracefully
beside the man I'm with eternally
from whom I don't want to be free?
Will all of this ever happen for me?

"Confusion"

If I ever sought
to understand the
things one cannot comprehend
there would only be confusion


"Another Christmas Without You"


The Christmas season is finally here
but my darling, you're nowhere near
My holiday's become a familiar scene
you're missing, what does this mean?

It's just another Christmas without you
looks like this year brings nothing new
I have searched my heart, only to find
you are still the one who's on my mind

The leaves they drift about in the wind
watching them, I wonder how I'll mend
My world seems empty on a special day
if only you'd come back home and stay

Can't stand another Christmas without you
you are the other half that makes us two
I have tried hard to forget the way I feel
but every December 25th makes it so real

What was that I thought I heard just then
slamming door and footsteps in the den?
My dear, you have returned to me at last
let's clean the slate and let go of the past

Won't be another Christmas without you
my world is happy, goodbye to being blue
All I've ever wanted is you, here and now
to give you my love forever, I make a vow


"The Master's Hand"

Like a pebble on the beach
like a tiny grain of sand
weary soul within His reach
touched by the Master's hand

Like a falcon in mid-flight
like a child learning to stand
fearful soul on darkest night
touched by the Master's hand

With the strength of solid rock
with the mountain view so grand
aging soul watching the clock
touched by the Master's hand

With the steadfastness of steel
with the vastness of the land
loving soul whose heart will heal
touched by the Master's hand


"What The Years Can Do"

A slowness of steps
creases appearing in skin
what the years can do


"Reborn"

Sheltered under snow
tiny buds struggle to thrive
reborn in the spring


"Hearts And Flowers"

Come sit down and talk to me
if the time you have is free
Between us is a building tension
neither of us has yet to mention

Today is our wedding anniversary
somehow we've lost our harmony
As two ships passing in the night
we can't seem to find the light

I still believe in hearts and flowers
a love that's built strong as a tower
Two hearts in love cannot be measured
flowers in bloom are to be treasured

We shouldn't neglect to pay attention
to spend our time and show affection
Will you share your hearts and flowers
strengthen us, sweet blessings shower

Take a moment, here with me
darling, listen to me, please
Such precious hours we are wasting
true happiness we could be tasting

For a while we've been so distant
the distraction from the TV is instant
There's no tender touching anymore
we've erected a wall, with no door

I still believe in hearts and flowers
a love that's built strong as a tower
Two hearts in love cannot be measured
flowers in bloom are to be treasured

We shouldn't neglect to pay attention
to spend our time and show affection
Will you share your hearts and flowers
strengthen us, sweet blessings shower

Imprint

Publication Date: 02-20-2011

All Rights Reserved