Growing Fast. Dying Slow. Living Life. Being Me. by Brooke O. (books to read for 12 year olds txt) 📕

Eternity

I can’t go another step
But I’ll follow you forever

I can’t take another breath
But I’ll always sing for you

My heart has already stopped
But it will always skip a beat when you’re near

And once my eyes have forever closed
I’ll always see you

I belong to you
My heart
My mind
My soul

But now, I must go

I’ll be with you forever
Always with you forever

My love
My life

My one
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Keep Going

Rain cracks against the windshield
Shatters like shards of glass
I’m not going to stop

Billboards fly by
With blinding white light
But I see my future paved ahead

The red tail lights tell me to stop
But I want to keep on going

Chapel Creek passes by
And I won’t stop here

Keep driving
Keep fighting
Keep smiling

Almost home
So close

Fear of a wreck just doesn’t scare me enough

Bumps in the road will always be there
No way to stop them
No way to avoid them

I may get a scratch
I may get a ticket
I may be hurt

But I see my future paved ahead
No way am I going to stop here
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Leave Me Alone

Leave me alone
I can’t take it anymore

I’m sorry if you thought wrong
But it’s just not meant to be

I know that you mean well
But there is just no way

You should know who you are
Don't second guess

I’m terrified right now

Absolutely not

No

Leave me alone
I can’t take it anymore
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Terrifyingly Lovely

That bittersweet smile was set on his lips
That same gleam filled his eyes

I was pushed aside so fast
I was pushed aside so carelessly
So cruelly

I’ve learned to live with what was done
And I’m sorry that he’s left
But not as sorry that I still love him

He left me all alone
He left me cold
He left me heartless

He comes over to talk and smile
Just to torture me more
Just to make the pain stronger

I feel like breaking down
I feel like crying
I feel like screaming

I just want it to get better
I just want it to go away

I just want to forget
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Now

She’s so lucky

Every day when we sit and talk
She always talks about him

He walks by and blows her a kiss
He holds her hand in the halls

They just act so in love

I used to have that
I used to want that

Now, I don’t

I’m glad that she’s happy
I’m glad that he cares

But him

He

broke my heart
He

walked away
He

destroyed me

What’s done is done, I guess
Nothing can be changed

But he

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Muarharhar!!!!!

Muarharhar
My word of the day

… WORD OF THE DAY!?

That should be word of the year…

Wait… word of the century!!!!

My awesome psychotic laughing

I know it makes you laugh, too

Stop trying to not to…

Say it

Just say it

Say ‘Muarharhar’

SAY IT!!!!!!!!!

You know you want too…

Did you say it?

YAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAY!

Wasn’t it fun?

Well….

MUARHARHARHARHARHARHARHARHAR!!!!!!!!!
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I... I just... Why?

I need to know
I need you to tell me the truth

What I saw today… please tell me that it was just in my head

I thought I saw… a scar

A new one

You’re my best friend
You’re practically my sister

I can’t lose you
I can’t lose you again

I need to know
I need you to tell me the truth

Was it real?
It can’t be real…

Please don’t let it be real!

I need you around

I was lost long ago
But you’re still here

I just don’t know what to say

I made you promise
I promised
He promised
We all promised

Please… tell me it isn’t true
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Simply Love

My smile keeps on growing
And I’ll go to sleep knowing
You’re there

I can’t believe how it all turned out
I guess this just happens
You leaned down to kiss my pout

I’m as happy as ever
Because now I know
I have a love that’ll last forever
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Face

My face has lost its smile
Has lost its shine
You’ll never see a laugh line

I don’t cry when I’m sad
I won’t smile, or even laugh

I just stare at you like a blank canvas
Empty and dead

Say as many jokes
Make as many faces
Cry any time

I’m sorry
But I’m not even mine

I’m not yours
Definitely not yours

I’m empty
I’m not even mine

My face has lost its smile
Has lost its shine
Now you’ll never see a laugh line
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