Ex-Wife by Mirah Selim (paper ebook reader TXT) 📕

Amelia Pov

I couldn't understand what was happening. Just a few minutes ago everything was perfect but within a second, I felt like my world has crushed under a heavy mountain.

I slowly opened my teary eyes only for my brother to rush towards me with a worried face. Tears started streaming down my eyes again. Xander. My Xander.

"Oh my god, Amy stop crying nothing happened to your husband. He's perfect. Stop crying." My head snapped towards him hearing his words. Instantly sitting up on the bed I let out a small groan. God my head. It's hurting so bad.

"Where is he," I whispered as my throat hurts a lot. He sighed before helping me sit on the bed properly but I pushed his hands away.

"Leave me I want to go to him," I said clearing my throat. He sighed once again at my stubborn behaviour. Finally nodding his head he helped me up.

"Nothing's happened to him, Amelia. You scared me more than he did." He mumbled but I was too focused on seeing my husband.

I couldn't pin a point of why am I feeling so lost. Even though I knew the reason. When I heard Xander's pained groan and a crash on the phone I felt like I had lost the reason to live. My heart throbbed in so much pain.

I couldn't imagine living without him anymore. He had become a part of my life. Part of my body. And my heart. I was foolish so stupid.

All this time to push this feeling away. The fear of being in love and getting betrayed again. I refused all the feelings and emotions I had grown up in my heart for him.

But today. When I realised the possibility of losing him. I understood. I understood that no effort of mine had succeeded in ignoring my feelings.

I love him. I do.

But the fear of losing someone that I loved forced me to think that I don't love him. That my heart doesn't beat for him.

I loved Liam. I did. But who said you can't fall in love again. I did love Liam a lot. But that love fades away when I witnessed him being nothing but a monster. He ruined us and somehow I realised that indeed love is not always enough to mend things.

I loved him the time he ruined us. I thought I hate him when I lost our child. But no I didn't hate him but I didn't love him as well. That love died with our baby.

The Liam I knew wasn't a heartless beast that I faced in those 9 months. He changed and that be for the worst. There are a lot of things I don't blame him for doing at that time but there are also a lot of things he had done that I can't forgive him for.

When I met Xander I still used to think that I have feelings for Liam and that wasn't wrong but after becoming close with Xander I understood that somewhere in my heart he had started making his place.

I had given him my heart before he did I know. I realised the love that I had for him when I chose him over Liam that night. The first night I let him have me. The most beautiful night of my life.

But I refused to accept it. I was afraid of being heartbroken knowing very well that he was still in love with his late wife. And also the fear of being in love and then left with nothing.

Liam's betrayal had torn my heart into pieces. The pain I felt during miscarriage was terrifying. I felt like my soul was leaving my body that day. The pain was extremely horrifying. And somewhere in my dreams I still see myself in that painful trauma.

I was afraid to feel that pain again so I refused. I kept on refusing till the day Xander confessed his love. Every time I watch him after that day I had a huge urge to confess my love for him. But again the fear won against my heart.

I kept on denying it every day till this day. The moment I heard about his accident. The moment I realised that I might lose him. I felt something. Something in my heart.

Regret. I regretted not confessing my love. I regretted not accepting my feelings. I regretted not telling him. I regretted not showing him how much I love him as well.

Finally reaching the room I sighed out in relief as more tears escaped my eyes watching my husband sitting on the bed with his hand on his head. A heavy bandage was wrapped around his head and also arm.

With my trembling legs, I walked fast towards him. His eyes met mine and in a second worry appeared in them.

"Darling what happ---" I didn't let him continue and threw myself on him. He wrapped his arm around me instantly. I could hear him groan a bit but I was too much lost to leave him.

"I-I was s-so scared," I whispered tightening my grip on him. I heard him sigh before pulling me deeper into his embrace.

"Baby I am fine. It was just a minor accident. Nothing happened. Amelia Stop crying. God." I didn't stop crying and kept on sniffling as he forcefully pulled my face away from his neck, palming my cheeks.

I burst out in heavy tears letting out loud sobs. He chuckled kissing my forehead. "My cry baby. Stop ok. I am perfect." I shook my head again throwing myself in his arms.

He had no idea how scared I was. I couldn't breathe properly fearing to lose him. I buried my face in his neck and cried harder.

"Amy what's wrong with you sis. Please calm down." I heard my brother's voice which was full of worry but I shook my head. I kept on tightening my grip on him. I can't lose him. I had lost enough. I can't lose more now.

Author Pov

"Please don't leave me." Xander's heart melted away hearing her pained whisper. He could see how much afraid she was. He felt happy but worried for her at the same time.

She was looking too pale and kind of sick too. Instead of pulling away he wrapped his injured arm around her waist and other under her knees pulling her on his laps.

The nurse looked at him ready to protest but he shook his head with cold eyes which covered her back. She wanted to stop him from putting pressure on his arm and head but Xander was too focused on his weeping wife.