Our journey from engagement to marriage by Shipra Saini (surface ebook reader TXT) 📕

Tall buildings surround us make us small in front of them. Lights on the street and buildings are on adding beauty of the place at night.

I raised my head and look at sky. Tall buildings make hard to look the sky to me. Only few stars is visible in sky. After a month monsoon winds will be start blowing.

Bus arrive after 5 minutes and I hopped inside the bus. I took a window seat. After giving a fare of my journey, I lean my head on the glass of window and closed my eyes.

Kshama and I are still best friends. We both talked on phone in a week. She is engaged to his college friend which she met after long time.We still share everything to each other but I stopped to share my pain with her.

My nightmares became worsen then before. Every night I get the nightmares and my eyes automatically open exact 3.00 a.m. 'the black hour of my life.' I started get sleeping pills to avoid the nightmares but sometime they also can't help.

The driver pull the brake and I pulled little forward on my seat. I hoad the head of the front seat of me to balance myself of sudden break. The bus came to an halt and conductor of the bus shouted the station name. After hearing my station name I pulled myself up to my seat and walked towards the exit gate of bus.

I lived in Neha, malhotra uncle's daughter (Preeti's father friend ) one bedroom flat. When I came to Delhi a year ago I was living with her in her flat but she shifted to Mumbai 4 month ago. She let me live in her flat for free but I insisted her make me pay the rent to her because I don't want to be a burden to anyone. Firstly she denied but I convinced her later to pay the rent.

I opened the door of my flat and turned on the light. I put my hand bag on couch and walked to my room for shower.

It's already 9.45 p.m when I came out from the washroom. Today is one of the busy day in office. I don't feel like to eat anything so I drink a glass of water and settled myself on the couch in the living room.

I looked at my empty ring finger where once I was wearing his names ring. Which shows our love to each other. Now there is nothing just a fainted mark of the ring on my finger.

My tears are dried now but a lone tear fall from my eyes every night by missing him.

I didn't try to search or know about him after that night when I came to know about his engagement. I don't know how he is looking now. Is he still same handsome or change.

A lone tear escape from my right eye looking at my empty finger which reminds me everytime he is not mine. He is someone else and living his beautiful life with his beautiful wife. He must be a father now, of a kid.

Kshama once told me that she reads about him in some international business magazine. He is now one of most successful businessman in the world. He is the one of the youngest C.E.O. who is very successful in business world. His company earns in billions every year.

I am happy to know that my prayers for him was worked. I am happy because he is happy, no matter with whom he is happy with. I still pray for him every night.

Ring...ring...

Ring...ring..

My phone started ringing I looked at caller Id and picked it up.

"Hello...mummy.." I said.

"Hello Preeti.. how are you beta?" Mummy asked me.

"I'm fine. Is everything Okey. Why are you calling me at this time. Why don't you sleep yet. It's late." I said looking time at the wall clock.

"Everything is fine here beta...I just wanted to talk to you. It's been while since I last talked to you." She said.

"How's is everyone at home?" I asked. Looking at my hand on my laps.

"Everyone is fine here. But Aditya is angry on you that you didn't attend his wedding." Mummy said.

I was feeling guilty not attending his wedding. He is not talking to me since after. I can understand his anger. But I don't want to go back to the place where I spend most precious time with him, our village. It's remind me of him.

"Mummy you know I was newly joined and I couldn't ask for leave for a week." I said. It is partially true. Aditya married to his girlfriend. He decided to get married when I newly joined the company. I couldn't dare to ask for a leave.

"Talk to him. He will forgive you." Mummy said.

"I called him but he didn't pick my calls."I said.

"Call him once again. This time he will picked your phone. He is missing you." Mummy said.

"Okey I will call him." I said.

"Preeti.. I wanted to ask you something." Mummy asked.

"Beta..you are 24 soon. Aditya is younger than you. He also got married. We are worried about your marriage. It's been two years since then. We have many good marriage proposal for you." Mummy said.

"...and how many of them asked you for a dowry for getting marry to me." I asked her, little harshly.

Mummy didn't say anything for a while.

"I'm Sorry..I shouldn't have talk to you like that. But mummy please understand..I am not getting marry after paying full loan. Please give me little more time. I promise after paying the full loan I will get married to the person you will chose for me." I whispered feeling a little hurt.

Saying this it felt like I'm betraying him. I don't want to marry to anyone. I don't want to ruin anyone's life because my heart belongs to someone else. I will never be able to give this place to anyone except him.

"Okey fine beta.. as you say.." mummy said with a little disappointment.

After talking for sometime we hung up.
I don't know how long I could dodge mummy for my marriage because my heart still refuse to move on. The heaviness make its permanent home in there.

I got up from the couch and walked to bedroom. I took out a bottle of sleeping pills. Took out one pill I gulp it with water and laid on bed.

The heaviness on my heart started increase and I rub my hand over my heart to ease it, like it wanted to tell me that don't dare to think about anyone except him.