Sinfully Yours by Mirah Selim (best e reader for manga txt) 📕

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Hazel played with her breakfast staring at the table. After his as usual forcing her to call his name he settled her on the seat extremely near him and filled her plate with food. She had no idea what was wrong with this man? Before he never cared about what she ate and how much she ate then why now?

He made sure to over-fill her plate not leaving a single thing present on the table from placing it on her plate. But Hazel had no appetite. Her mind was a mess. She had no heart or any hunger in her stomach to fill. Her worries were enough to get rid of her appetite.

She glanced at Cyrus who was busy shoving the food down his throat like a caveman. He always eats like a beast. No wonder why is he that big compared to her. She bit her inner cheek hesitating in asking him something.

She again dropped her eyes on the table not knowing how to voice out and tell him what she was debating on for God knows how long? She was in her world oblivious of the eyes that once again got stuck on her.

Cyrus stared at her ceasing his feast when he witnessed a deep frown settle over her forehead. She looked in a deep dilemma like she was trying to convince herself of something but wasn't able to gather the strength to do so. He internally chuckled. It's so easy to read her. She's like an open book to him.

"What do you want to say?" She flinched at his sudden voice making her snap her eyes to him only to find him already staring at her with curiosity.

She opened her mouth in surprise. She was shocked to see how just by seeing her expressions he knew she wanted to say something.

"Come on." He pressed making her place her spoon on the plate and look at him with hesitation.

"Is there something you want? Just name it I can give you anything." He said with confidence. Hazel wanted to tell him that all she wanted from him was freedom but holding herself back she didn't. She gulped down.

"I don't want anything. I just." He nodded staring at her curiously. She never asked anything from him except for freedom which he can never give her.

Even the things he tried giving her she always refused to take them. Like the dress for that party. She never asked anything so it took all his attention and curiosity to hear her wanting something. Especially from him.

"I want to visit Church." Cyrus raised his eyebrows in surprise. This! She wants to ask him this!

He blinked not able to believe his ears. She always surprises him with her words. Just when he thinks she must want something like the wife would want from her husband she succeeded in ruining his scenario. He actually thought this innocent beauty would ask for something. Especially from him. What a joke!

He sighed in disappointment. He actually wanted her to ask something from him. He wants to shower her with gifts. He's ready to give her the world she deserves. The only thing he knew she didn't deserve was her being captive by him.

But he's selfish. Extremely selfish for her. And there is no way he's going to let her go. Hazel stared at her expecting him to just simply deny her like he always does but then.

"Ok." Her eyes widened slightly in surprise hearing him. He's really giving her permission.

"I will take you to church tomorrow. Just tell me the time." He said making her instantly utter out the time she visits the church on.

Hazel has a habit of visiting the church twice a week. Those five months she spent with Cyrus she wasn't able to go there. But as soon as she came back to the village she visited the church and cried in silence in front of her God asking for forgiveness for the thing she never wanted to do.

She had a belief of having sex before marriage is a sin. Cheating is a sin. So the time she spent with Cyrus she was forced to commit the sins she never wanted to. She was forced to sleep with him, she was forced to cheat on her husband. At least for her, it was cheating.

And to ask for forgiveness she went to church. But only if she knew she did not sin. The man who touched her was her husband, she didn't cheat on him. But can it make everything better? Can it wipe out the hate she has for her husband?

The answer is No. It can never. No matter how much she tries to accept that it was a contractual marriage and there was no clause of being faithful to this marriage but still her beliefs don't allow her to let his cheating on her go.

He cheated on her with Ella and then on her with her funny right. But still, he didn't know she was his wife and he forced her into submission. He did everything being tied up into a contractual agreement.

Maybe for him, it was indeed just a contract. But for her, she vowed that she have to be loyal to her husband. She doesn't deserve this. If she's a loyal and faithful wife then shouldn't her husband be the same. Why did a pure woman like her get such a vile man? Just why?

Cyrus once again noticed her not touching her food. He thought him giving her permission of taking her to church might make her eat a bit but no. This time she didn't even grab the spoon anymore. She seemed deep in her thoughts.

"What's bothering you?" She blinked looking at him. Shaking her head she looked away feeling a wave of disgust in her gut.

He disgusts her!

"I am done. I will go back to the room." She said standing up from the chair. She tried walking away but before she could do so her wrist got caught by his large palm.

Cyrus stared at her frowning in confusion. Her eyes didn't fall on his face instead she looked at his hand that was touching her. She scrunched her nose in disgust abruptly pushing his hand away.

Cyrus' eyes flickered in surprise watching her take a few steps away from him. "Nothing I am just tired." Saying that she tried walking away but he again grabbed her wrist pulling her back and this time he stood up from the chair towering over her.