Hard Love by Mis Understood (small books to read .txt) 📕

“And then when he falls for you, break him. But you have to make sure Melanie breaks, too. And I can do the same with Matt. I know I can make him fall for me.” .

I looked at her. I checked to see if her eyes were dilating or if they were red. I checked her arms to see if she had any track marks. I looked at her nose to check if she had any white powder on her nose she forgot to clean. She looked perfectly fine to me. I still wasn’t sure. So I got closer, to see if I smelled anything funny. But only the perfume ‘Tease’ from Victoria’s Secret filled my nose.

“Stace,” I whispered.

“Yeah, so what do you think,” She looked like a little kid who got a present for being a good girl.

“Stace, are you on something? It’s okay if you are. I will support you, be by your side.” I touched her arm.

She then busted out laughing. Like if I was Kevin Hart, who told the best joke in the world. She stopped but when she looked at my downbeat face, she started laughing again. She even slapped her knees a couple times.

“You see what I’m talking about? Are you high? Me and David? He will never like me! Not that I care!” My voice wavered. The thought made me so mad.

“Did you forget how much he hurt me? Did you forget all the stories I told you? Huh?” The angrier I became, the higher my voice got. When she saw I was mad, she stopped and looked at me with an angry expression herself.

“Hey, no I’m not high. And don’t forget I’m doing this for you. I made this plan thinking it was the best way to get all of them back. Because you’ve been in school for a week and a half and you’ve done nothing but be around David. And if you hate him so much, then it’ll be easy for you. Don’t yell at me for helping you.” She pointed at me.

We both were angry, it made me feel hot. The car was suddenly felt feverish. I turned off the car and got out. I slammed the door, with all the force I could manage. Hot tears streamed down my face. I stomped my way back into the house and went into my room.

I thought about what Stacey said. It’s true that she’s doing this for me. I know she’s on my side. And I do know that she didn’t mean any harm; she was just trying to help. But I know for a fact what it feels like to get heart broken. Because even though David never did anything physically, he hurt me the most. I know why, because he was the guy I fell for. And it sliced me right through the heart everytime he sat there without doing anything, while they had their fun with me.

I wonder if it was a mistake to come back. I often wondered if I had it in my heart to hurt someone as much as they hurt me.

I’m still wondering the same exact thing, right now at this moment. I know I’m not heartless. I know it would be difficult to hurt someone the way I’ve been hurt. But am I that merciless? But what they did was unacceptable. They deserve it.

Muhammad Ali said, “I’m a fighter. I believe in there eye-for-an-eye business. I’m no cheek turner.”  

But Gandhi said, “An eye for an eye will only make the whole world blind.”

They’re both have a valid point, but which one is the right thing to do?

Right now, I don’t know. All I know is that I just wanted to lay down and go to sleep.

And I did.

Moments later, I felt the bed dip. But no arms went around me. I knew it was Stacey, she was giving me space. I also knew it was her way of telling she was here for me, no matter what decision I made.

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AUTHOR'S NOTE: Not going to BS you, this chapter is a bit intense. Even the lyrics I chose are different then what I usually put in a chapter. I hope you enjoy it!

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Chapter Ten: Change of Plans [Jazielly’s POV]

“F$%k this clock! Imma make them Eat this watch. Don't believe me Watch! Imma win this race and I’ma come back and rub my sh&#t in your face, B@&ch! I found my niche, you gon' hear my voice.. 'Til you're sick of it, you ain't gonna have a choice; if I gotta scream 'til I have half a lung. If I have half a chance, I'll grab it, Rabbit Run!” -Eminem

I did nothing this whole weekend. Well, except speak with my dad in the phone, and went to speak with Kenneth, my counselor. It was a tedious weekend for me. But it did give me time to think. I’m not a heartbreaker. I don’t know what I was thinking coming back to school! I should’ve been home schooled or transferred to a private school. But no, I was focused on revenge, now look where it got me! No where because in reality, I know my feelings for David didn’t fade away. I just locked them deep inside a bolt in my heart , and wrapped it around securely with chains. But those chains were loosening each span we looked at each other, each time we spoke, and each second we spent time together. So no, I’m not going along with Stacey’s plan. I’m just focusing on finishing school and that’s it.

I don’t care about the revenge, I don’t care what they did to me. Life goes on; it’s time to move forward not backwards.

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It was the penultimate period on Monday. I always have the urge to use the bathroom at the end of the day. Probably because I drink a lot of water during the day. I opened the door in the bathroom, thankfully the door didn’t squeak. I heard it again. The gagging and choking. I soundlessly closed the door. I tiptoed as best as I could  with these stupid wedges. This is getting serious, I miss my Uggs. I slowly walked near the door. I tried to take a peek of the persom in the stall. I just had a feeling I knew who was inside the stall.

I saw Melanie today. She had red ankle strapped heels and had white jeans.

I couldn’t see who was in there because it was the last stall, and it was also the biggest stall. The toilet was located in the back. It frustrated me I couldn't go inside a stall because of these dumb wedges. I wasn’t risking being discovered. So, I stood near the door waiting for the unknown human being in the stall to come out. A lifetime later, the toilet was flushed. Then the click-clacks I knew so well approached me. I crossed my arms, help my head high and put on a little smirk. I wasn’t intimidated. Not anymore.

The girl came out.

Her eyes widened.

She sucked in her breath.

“Well, Melanie. What a pleasant surprise,” I walk over the sink.

“Jaz-e-elly, I was I could the same,” she walked towards the sink next to mine.

“Aww, that actually almost hurt me. Almost,” I feigned a sad face, then winked at her. I rinsed my hands the turned off the water.

“You think you’re better than me. You got this little change, now you’re stronger than me?” She turned to me, her eyes filled with hatred.

“No, I am a better person. That’s why you betrayed me and then torture me, because I was better than you,” I replied back.

“Hahaha, not even in your dreams, bitch!” She closed the faucet and faced me. Then suddenly she flicked her hands, splats of water landed on my face and shirt.

It made my blood boil but I stayed calm. Because I am the bigger person.

“You think you’re gonna win, but I’m one step ahead.” She smirked. She flipped her hair shoulder and started to walk away.

“You think so?” I called out. I analyzed my nails, just like she used to do.

“I know so.” She was so confident. What was I thinking about not getting revenge? I won’t break Dave’s heart but I can break her.

“You think you’re clever,” I tsked shaking my head. I walked over to the paper towels and cleaned me face.

“Did you know me and David spent his Friday with me?” I leaned on one of think sinks and crossed my legs. Disbelief was written all over her face, but it was quickly replaced.

I tapped my chin trying to look thoughtful.

“No I don’t think you did, because you walked off on him. And he was suppose to be in football practice.” I chuckled.

She walked over to me and grabbed my throat. I could easily raise my arm and take hers down in a second. Then after turn my body and use it as the force. But  it was unnecessary because I knew I was getting to her. Exactly what I wanted. Plus, she was just trying to alarm me, but her group was the ones who did her dirty work. 

I cleared my throat and continued.

“What would Dave say if I told him I saw you in the bathroom, puking your guts out?” Her hand grasped my neck tighter. I realized that I did have to use that self defense move.  And I did. Which took her by surprise. I was behind her, her hands were trapped, because I had a firm grip on her wrists.

“I knew it was you on Friday. I saw the cheetah print heels. No one has those in this school,” I whispered harshly in her ear.  “You may think you’re one step ahead, look again Mels… why am I back? I promised myself to come back for you’s. And I won’t give up, until I’m satisfied with my work.” I let her go and nudged her forward. Making her take a few steps forward.

She turned at me, she might have been taken aback, but she wasn’t afraid not yet.

“I see you're not a weak bitch anymore. But don’t forget Jaz-e-elly. I run this school. I’m still somebody.” she held her head high. And I’m not going to lie, I gave her props. She wasn’t a quitter. “Have you ever wondered why Daviee still with me? ‘Cause deep down I’m his first everything and he’ll always have some type of love for me.”

“Until he opens his eyes and realize who you really are. You have blinded him, but you’ll see─ someone will replace you and recognize what a waste of time you were.” I claimed.

She snickered and rolled her eyes.

“Okay sweetie. Whatever you say,”

The bell rang meaning English was over, and Melanie opened the bathroom door.

“By the way.. I love games, so we can play it until you give up” she winked then waved.

I don’t care how cocky and arrogant I sound right now. I will play this game..