lost love by dancingmilklover246 (top books to read txt) 📕

all the walls are glass and when its snowing or raining you can see it. This was the place I would come to when I was upset. I was sitting in the corner the teacher went to the office to get something so it was a perfect time for them to come. Mase was getting some type of mystery book for drama. We had to do some type of romance or mystery. Of course mase picks mystery. As I was flipping trough the pages of twilight and Romeo and Juliet I hear their footsteps approaching me. I look up to see only one guy there and a group hiding behind a few book shelves. I smile tenderly. He leans forward” hey umm your not new here are you?” I shake my head no.” oh wait where do you live?” I hesitate before answering.” River road house number 23. Why?” he looks at me” no reason I live down by Swenply Street. Okay. I look down back to my book ignoring him. I hear his friends laugh at his rejection. I write a few notes and look up to see him staring at me.” Oh your still here?” he stays were he is.” If you need something please say so if not I have an essay to do so if you would just leave me alone.” I smile sweetly at him and look down back to Romeo and Juliet. He picks my book up and looks at me . “ would you like to go out with me?” I don’t hesitate to reply.” No.” he looks a little shocked. I see we only have a few min left of school so I start collecting my books. He keeps going though.” Wait you cant just say no. I’m the football captin any girl would die to go out with me.” I laugh.” Okay then Mr. football captain go save one of those million of girls before they die to get to you. Now if you excuse me I have to get home. I try to walk past him but he grabs me by the upper arm and pushes me against the wall. I hit my head and feel the anger rising. He starts telling me I would go out with him and that I was his. I knew better than to take that so I kicked were one should not be kicked, I punched his face and elbowed his stomach. As he falls to the ground with pain I hiss loudly enough so he and his friend can hear. “I will never be yours.” I walk out then and wave to his friends staring at him and looking from the place he was a few seconds ago and now crumpled on the floor. I chuckle as they start helping him to his feet. I go to the jeep and wait till mase comes out. Im waiting for like ten min when I see mase immerge from the library but not alone. He’s holding the hand of the cheerleading Capitan Katelyn Joni. Before he drops her off at her car he kisses her and he walk over to the car. I stay silent as we drive at the 5 min mark I finaly ask” um when are you going out with Katelyn joni and not telling me?!/ “ he sighs and only responds that she’s says she’s liked me and that she was waiting for school and blah blah blah. When we get to his house I offer to pick him up for Tuesday movie night. He looks at me sadly and only responds” I cant I’m going out with the guys, and Katelyn.” I look at mase likes he is alien. “Since when are you friends with those jerks and when did you start developing feeling for her.!???” He doesn’t respond just answers simply” you just don’t understand.” I feel the tears running down my face. So what did Katelyn tell you to stop being my friend? Is she like jealous does she not like how were close and that I hate those jerks.?” I yell at him. He nods sadly. He looks at me with soft eyes. I get out of the car and go over to his side he gives me a hug and only says sorry. I look at his face with tears streaming down my face. “ I hate you mason carver. I fukin hate you. I hope your life is very happy.” I rip off the friend’s bracelet and necklace he gave me and throws it at his feet. Its pouring out and I can barely see with the tears and the rain. I slam my jeep door and speed away. I didn’t go far when the drunk driver came out of nowhere. One min I’m crying over mason the next I blank out and the only thing I remember is hearing sirens in the distance.

I hear some type of beeping and snoring. I open my eyes to see that im in a hospital. I inspect myself over. No cast no bandages. I groan knowing ill have to leave soon and adventure into this harsh world alone. I see a figure by my bed and turn my head to find mase staring at me. I feel the tears pool over my eyes. We stare at each other for a very long time. I ignore him like he isn’t there. A few hours later a doctor come in and tells me I am dispatched. I sigh with relief and get out of the hospital bed. Not caring that mason was there I put my shirt on then my pants lastly I brushed my hair with my hand and grabbed my stuff. Mason stayed sitted like a statue not ever moving. I walk out and leave him there with his chocolate and flowers in hands.
I get to the front office and call a taxi and my car insurance. My car is fine just a few dents. Will only cost about 150. I give them my credit card number. I’ll have my car back the next 2 days. Great ill have to use the Lexus. I get home and pay the taxi man. My phone n my pocket keeps vibrating and I cheek the id. Mase. He’s called in a total of 12 times in the last half hour. I sigh and turn my phone off. I walk upstairs to the living room and find my sister with her boyfriend doing homework and watching mtv. She looks up immediately. “oh hey how are you I heard what happen I just got home didn’t see the messages are you hurt? “ she goes to me I shake her off and say I’m fine. She yells at me while I walk away” mom coming home from work late dads staying at his friends house. I shrug. Same thing as always. I go to my room and strait to my bathroom. I take a hot shower and put on black sweat pants on with a work out shirt. Kept my socks on and walked downstairs to the kitchen. I prepare myself some Mac and cheese’s eat it and stare out my window at the rain. Mase knocked one and I opened the door. Before he could have said something I slammed the door in his face. It was a couple min later that I hear a knock on my bedroom door. I say come in and mase comes in accompanied by Katelyn. Katelyn is staring at my room and my house like it’s the biggest thing and stuff. I laugh, same reaction from everyone. Before I have a chance to show mase I’m laughing I cover it with a cough. I look up to see them standing on the far side of my bedroom looking like a pair of strangers I pretend to not see them and open my book up and start reading. I plug my ear phone in and blast riot by three days grace on full blast. It takes a few min before mase comes over and takes my ear phones from my ear and takes my book away. “Come on Aubrey. You can’t ignore me forever; you can’t have so much hate. He looks at my wrist to see the fresh wounds cut on top of the fading scars. He curses slightly under his breath and looks up to me. I cant bear look at him knowing I have tears in my eyes. I muster enough strength to rip my hand from him and wipe my face I get out of bed and stand as far as I can from him and Katelyn. I speak softly and steady. “I think we’re going to be best friends…. Remember that mase. Remember when you said that? Probably not. Well I will forever, you were my miracle, keeping me a live for a few more months but to be honest I can’t go on with life. Life is only pain after pain after heartbreak. It’s a lot to bear. I believed you when you said those few words’ thought no one would come between us but I guess I was wrong weren’t I now of Corse you know me well enough I can’t stay mad for long but because of the unbearable pain .I am going to do you Katelyn a favor. I will forget you. Like we never met. You can live your life ill try to live mine. You don’t have to worry about me anymore. Were strangers. I look up to see mase with tears in his eyes. I shrug away the feeling of sadness creep onto me. I walk past them and open the door. Katelyn walks out tugging mase with her, a sob escapes my throat while he leaves and he looks back at me. I shake my head while my body trembles with tears and sobs. When we get to the front door I open that one as well and as he leaves with Katelyn at lead he shakes his head and whispers ever so softly.” I will never give up.” A new round of sobs come round with those words knowing he will never stop trying but tonight will be the last night he has the chance.

I’m holding the knife tightly to my wrist and sigh as I put it down. Knowing I will never be strong enough to go so far. I look at the metal in my hand with a look of disgust. Just thinking about cutting myself and hurting myself disgusts me. I push the knife away and scramble away from it into a corner with tears running silently down my face. I huddle in the corner with my hands around my knees and while all this is happening my sister comes in. as she takes in the scene from where I had the knife the small indent on my arm with blood trickling down my arm and a tear filled face in the corner. She comes over and checks my pulse. She then sprints out and I can hear her yelling to josh to come and check on me. I hear her screaming into the phone with someone and while this all happens I’m sitting in the corner rocking back and forth thinking and staring. Staring but not seeing anything. Staring at blackness.

I watch my sister and her boyfriend try to do something as I see everything go in slow motion hear everything. Each heart beat every sob and yet I don’t move. Im stuck in a trance that their so worried about. I feel a blanket being draped over my shoulders and my sisters frantic hands trying to grab the knife but every time she touched it she would drop it like it was piping hot stick. I hear the door slam downstairs and expect my parents or an