the past i've forgotten? by B.Raven.T (best finance books of all time .TXT) 📕

rang.
“ Hello?”
“ Hunny where are you? I heard some yelling and you haven't checked in,” my mothers calm but slightly panicked voice rang through.
“ I'm sorry. I'm with a friend, I'll be home in a little,” I said, I felt a squeeze from Carter.
“ Okay, I love you bye.”
“ Bye,” I said and hung up the phone.

“ Who was that?” Carter asked?
“ My mom, she wanted to know if I was okay,” I said.

Its weird, just holding his hand gives me butterfly's. He makes me so nervous but yet I'm calm too. And I can tell him anything. Why is this?

“ I've met you before. What you saw in that vision was when we were little and your house burned down. Your mom died and I held you in my arms that night, I didn't know what to say, I was still nervous and I did like you a lot, I wanted to be a man,” Carter said laughing a bit.

It all came back, the school days we'd spend together in class, and the moments when he'd give me that charming smile. The summer days that we spent swinging on his porch swing and laughing. Until that awful night.

“ Carter,” I said looking at him, he turned his head to look into my eyes,
“we were in love, weren't we?” I asked him.
His face got blood red and his eyes wide and bright blue. “ I was in love with you, I don't know about how you felt about me,” he said still shocked.
I knew I felt something for him,I was little but I knew it wasn't just a close feeling. I remember my old mom saying that love is confusing, you don't know its love at first, at least I think thats what she said. I don't really remember my mom.
“ What if I -I ...” I mumbled, feeling way to nervous.
“ What if you what?” Carter asked, he stopped walking to face me.
I swear I could have died at that moment.
“ What I I told you that...that I love you? Would you still love me after all this time?” I asked, I just blurted it out?

His face was blood red and he looked shocked. I'm not sure if it was because I loved him after one day or because I shouted.
“ Macy?”

I turned around and saw Emma and Kim walking near us.

Oh my god, they just saw me confess my love to the new kid! What are they going to think? How will I explain this? Ugh!
Don't worry Macy, we can explain thing.

I looked at Carter and he was still bushing but he had love and passion in his eyes, and they were electric blue again. He gave me that same charming smile as when he did when we were kids. I think thats what I remembered most.

We all sat on a bench at the park, it was awkward.

“ So, uh...you like Carter Macy?” Emma asked?
She seemed so nervous, and these questions weren't her thing, she didn't like to prie into peoples life.
“ Ummm, yeah. I guess,” I said, my face flushed. Secretly Carter was holding my hand, he squeezed it.
“ Macy and I were friend when we were kids, then Macy's house burnt down and she moved so we didn't see each other for a while. And I guess we didn't recognize each other being grown up and all,” Carter explained.
“ So now your in love?” Kim asked, she had a joking voice.
“ Well, we were when we were kids, I still like Macy,” Carter said looking down, his voice was all to serious.
Carter, I love you.
Macy, why don't we talk about things before we get into this. I still love you but I want to be sure abut you feeling the same.

I looked at him, he didn't look up. His eyes were a navy blue, the darkest I'd ever seen them to be.
“ Macy, we'll see you at school. I see you too have to talk,” Emma said as she dragged Kim with her.

Carter, what is it we need to talk about?
Macy, I need some time to think things trough, I'm sorry I'm not concentrating on this but my cousin is in a mess.

I let go of his had and got up. “ I'll see you later Carter,” I said.

Bye Macy.

Ugh! What a jerk! He couldn't even say goodbye right. Whats his problem? Oh, his cousin Kim. Wow, now I know too Kim's. But why? Why is he all of a sudden disagreeing with what he felt? I know hes hiding something, I can feel it.


MACY!!!

I woke up shaking and sweating. When I went to bed last night I was pissed off. I can't blame him, I wouldn't be concentrating either but he led on that he wanted to date, why?
I walked out of my house ready for school, still mad. I walked to the corner and saw Carter looking at me, I gave him a dirty look.
“ Macy! Hows it goin?” Sara asked?
“ Fine, why?” I asked?
“ No reason, so a new guy? How long has it been?” Sara asked again?
“ Nope, single. Forever and always single,” I said commenting to her remark.
“ Jeez what crawled up your but?” Sara asked?

I didn't answer, nobody needed to know.
Macy, I'm sorry.

I also wasn't in the mood to speak to him.

The first half of school was okay, but after lunch everybody knew about my little confession, it was recorded. By who you ask? Daniel, the girl who’s hated me forever. Apparently I stole her friends and her old boyfriend.
It was accidentally played at the assembly. I watched all go down, the foolish words that came out of my mouth, the bitterness of it all was left in my mouth. I immediately walked out, but there was her crew. “ Your not missing this, suffer bitch,” one said pushing me into the auditorium.
“ Look heres the loser!” The other girl screamed.

This was the time to use my escaping skills. I jerked my arm lose and with the palm of my hand hit the girls nose right where it would break. She screamed and the other girl let go of my arm. Th teachers didn't go after me, I escaped the school.
One problem, mom. I also didn't have my books.

I couldn't stand it, Carter didn't even look at me, he didn't show any emotion at all!

My mom flipped. I'm grounded for a week, thats fine with me, I don't care. I was in my room with a book and I heard a knock at the door, mom was at work, so I had to answer it. I ran downstairs and opened the door hoping for Emma, so I could let it out, all the bitterness that I had said and believed. But unfortunately it was Carter.
I stepped out so I could speak with him.
“ I'm sorry, I'm trying to help my cousin,” he said.
“ Carter, as long as your not going out with me theres no need to apologize,” I said, he looked confused and relived.
“ Really?” he asked?
“ Yeah, and to add to your time, lets pretend we never met like before, and completely ignore each other this time. Don't bother me, kay? Kay,” I said, opening the door.

He grabbed my arm. “ Please don't do this,” he begged.
“ Do what? Who are you?” I asked with an innocent voice?

I turned to see his reaction, his eyes were a dark blue and he looked like he was going to cry, but he let go, and I went inside. I sat by the door and cried, truth was I didn't want to be like this but if he was going to act like he doesn't want to be together then fine, I want him to put his full heart in this, not just half. I want him to focus on me.I know it sounds selfish but I just reunited with him.

My mom eventually got home and and wondered what I was doing, I told her it was nothing but I could tell by the look on her face that she knew it was more than nothing.


A month's gone by, I haven't talked to him, looked at him, nothing. I don't know if anythings happened with him yet but its not my problem.
There’s a new student, his name is Arex, yes he. Hes cute I'm not going to lie, he has black hair and