I Found You by Maya Candy (brene brown rising strong .txt) 📕

too early.

“Hello, Mrs. Higgins.” My mom greeted and hugged her. “Nice to see you. And may I notice the dinner smells delicious?” My mom grinned.

“Good to see you, too, Lauren. And yes, apparently it does smell wonderful, as your daughter here put it.”

“Hey, mom.” I smiled and gave her a hug. “How was work today?”


She groaned. “I will just say I am happy I am out of there.” She sighed and then let a small smile on her lips. “Shall we eat, I am starving.”

We all laughed as we sat around the table and Mrs. Higgins placed lasagna in the middle, she moved the center piece, the bouquet of yellow flowers, to the side and we all said our grace before ‘digging in’, as my mom put it. The lasagna was delicious, but I never expected anything else. It was a nice atmosphere all along. I enjoyed the small talk the two women were making, but I allowed myself to zone out every once in a while. When we were all finished with our food I put the dishes away even though I was called silly again. Mrs. Higgins was extremely neat person, but she liked to do her own cleaning up.

By 7:30 we had moved to the living room and I was sitting in the huge armchair with Strudel in my lap. Strudel, as Mrs. Higgins creatively called her cat, was extremely big and fat black cat. He wasn’t anything like the other cats. He wasn’t active, he pretty much enjoyed to be in someone’s lap and just to be stroked and petted. If it was his choice I assume he’d stay in my lap forever.

The talk dragged on and on. We talked about all sorts of things, among others my mom talked about this nice label she found that was very willing to fully be committed to one artist only for as long as there is a necessity to be. She said it was the best offer she had come across and Mrs. Higgins agreed. I threw in my plans for Mrs. Higgins moving once I earn enough money and my mom agreed instantly, but of course Mrs. Higgins had to go and say she was happy here, that is until my mom started convincing her she is like a family to us and we wouldn’t want her to be here all alone. She sighed and said something like ‘all in good time, all in good time.’

It was ten o’clock when I walked into the bathroom to brush my teeth and get ready for my last night here. I sighed as I stepped onto our small balcony and looked up at the sky, trying to take in as much air as I could. I found my self not wanting to go away… but I knew I had to. It was really for the best of all. After all… how will I ever climb the rainbow if I don’t chase after it?


02

Mrs. Higgins did have a farewell surprise for me next morning. She baked me a cheese cake and cherry pie. Wishing us a nice trip and telling us not to worry about her she returned inside her apartment as we made our way downstairs. We were travelling by a plane and our personal belongings were all on the road in the moving truck. Airport wasn’t packed this early in the morning and I was grateful. I never really liked crowded places, you know. I enjoyed silence, actually. Silence and being alone.

The plane was full by the time we were boarded. I took the seat next to window seeing as I wasn’t actually afraid of flights and wanted to see how it is to fly. I even had my camera to take some pictures along the way. my iPod was safely in my backpack together with my notebook if inspiration comes while on the plane.

I just shut everything out and put turned on my iPod after we were up in the air and I had already taken a few photos. Soon enough I fell asleep and I woke up when mom shook me awake because we were landing.
LAX airport was packed. Definitely not my spot. We got our luggage and made our way outside. Mom actually rented a car so we drove to our new home in the Los Angeles. How amazing, right? My first impression would be that it was too hot for this part of year. I was used to snow and coldness in this part of year, definitely not this.

We passed through some streets and I was really not affected by the city called Los Angeles. It wasn’t all that glamour everyone would think it was. It was just a huge city… and it happened to have tons of stars in it. But other than those stars there were some normal, regular people living here. I guess that slips people’s minds often. We drove a bit longer and then we reached a nice looking building. It had three floors and 5 apartments in it. our apartment was the biggest in there and on the top floor. The moving truck would be here by 3 pm so that’s when we would get all of our stuff. We sold some but we kept some too, depending on our needs. I guess I didn’t really care about those stuff.

The apartment was nice. I liked it. It was spacey and had a lot of light. Plus it was just the right size for me and mom. I took my bags to my room, or what would soon be my room. There was nothing in it, yet. It was some beige color and I promised to myself I would paint it some other color soon, preferably white. I sighed opening the window and looking outside, it was a sunny day.

“Belle! You want to go out to eat something for lunch?”

“Coming, mom!” I sighed and closed the door to my new room and met up with my mom at the front door.

“Lets concur LA, baby.” She smiled as we made our way down the same stairs we climbed just recently.

We walked around till we actually realized we had Starbucks just five minutes walk from our new place. The neighborhood wasn’t that bad. I liked it. but it wasn’t Seattle. Mom decided to bring out some topic about boys, commenting how cute the boy who passed us on his bike was. She always had a problem with me not dating. She thought it wasn’t good for me. I told her I am not interested in immature boys around my age and I don’t intend on dating just for the sake of it. When and if I date someone I will date that person because I will want to. Because we will have that connection on some higher level that will just pull us closer. Not because it is good form my mental sociality state. Whatever that means. I am just fine on my own and I intend to stay just fine… and on my own.

“So, I want to talk to you about these labels and pursuing your dream.” She begun. “I support you, I do, but you know I don’t want you to get too lost in everything. If I feel like you’re slipping away and having your head too high in the clouds… I am sending you to your dad for a whole year if necessary. Okay? No getting self centered and changing. I want my baby to stay my baby.” She smiled. “And I think I have decided what label would be the best for you, of course. I was going through some major labels that were interested in your work when they heard you, but I wasn’t all excited about it, sure they would love you now, but what if some bigger act came around. Then I though they would not work so hard with you anymore, and you need someone working with you. And I was talking to this fine young man, who owns the label house I want you to sign for, and he said he is ready to work with you for this whole year and if really necessary for the next year too…” She was talking so fast. I had to try extra hard to keep up with her. It was really hard to understand her fully. “… yeah, that’s his name… anyway. I was thinking and I will call him today, when we get all settled in and I will ask when we could have a meeting to finalize things.”

So, I missed the guy’s name. Never mind, apparently I am meeting him soon anyway. Well, it will be good my mom will be there because I am not a social person, as you might have figured out for yourself… already.

“Yeah. It’s okay.” I nodded.

“No opinions. Nothing?” She looked at me and sighed. “Belle, you need to be more sociable. It’s just not gonna work like this. You need to talk to me more. I know you come to me when you have some problem, but that’s a rare situation. I want to be there for you, honey. I know that lately… I’ve been really busy, but I wanted to earn enough money for us to come here and for you to chase that dream.” Chase the rainbow. “I just want the best for you.”

“I know mom. I just don’t enjoy socializing. I prefer being alone. I don’t feel comfortable around new people.” I muttered.

“You have to change that, if you make this dream of yours come true, you’ll be meeting a lot of new people.”

I sighed. “I know. I’m working on it.” I sighed once again. I was never comfortable around new people. It was just this feeling of uncomforting, of being away from the safe zone where all I knew was really familiar and going into some zone where I have no idea how to express myself to leave a good impression. I was also afraid of trusting people, I always had a hard time opening up, even with my own family as you can see. My mom and I have a good relationship, but she still doesn’t know much about me. My dad, well, he knows almost nothing. Kayla, she is good to me, she knows some stuff I don’t tell my mom, as I mentioned before. And probably the highest level of trust is the one I have in Mrs. Higgins. She just struck me as that kind of person and once we started talking and I started opening up, I couldn’t stop.

“Okay, honey. We’ll go home now, because I have a feeling that the moving truck will be here soon.”

As always my mom was right. The moving truck did arrive soon and we had a lot of work with the unloading. It took so long and by the time we were finished it was around 6 pm and it’s an understatement that I was exhausted. But now I could go and lay in my bed and just play some music to relax, while my mom talked to that guy from the label company.

She was right, I really had to work on being more social, but I couldn’t see that happening soon. I have always been an introvert, my whole life. I can’t change just like that, no one changes just like that. It’s impossible. I remembered last summer on my dad’s ranch. Me and nature, Gem of course. Gem was my horse. The most amazing horse you could ever find. Yes it was a he and I called him Gem. Gem is a nice