Our journey from engagement to marriage by Shipra Saini (surface ebook reader TXT) 📕

After mummy, keerti and Neeta maa left to the market Siddharth and Anshul start decorating fairy lights on the roof. I was in the lawn, collecting flowers and leaves for the garlands.

I really love to do the preparation for Diwali. This is my favorite festival. I mean who don't love making rangoli, garlands and decorate the whole house with lights, flowers and candles.

I took a needle and white thread and started making flowers Garland.

In whole family mummy is closed to me. We don't share relationship where I can share my thoughts with her but she is always there for me when I failed in any exam or papa scolded me without any reason.

I never share my thoughts with anyone and no one like to share their thoughts with me or they thought I am not mature enough to give any kind of advice to anyone. So I make my distance to anyone. I am self reserved kind of person.

My family loves me and I love them too but at some point I find myself alone. May be the lack of confidence or I didn't do anything to make them noticed me like Shivani di and Anshul.

No one knows how hard my high school for me. No one knows I got bullied from my own cousin and her friends. No one knows what happened with me at my prom. No one knows how it's feel to being judged without doing anything wrong.

No one knows how much I cried when I watched '13 reasons why' when I found myself at Henna Baker. How my high school affect my college life and may be my whole life.

No one knows these sides of my life, not even kshama. I don't want to share this to anyone.

I was very embarrassed when mummy scolded me in front of Siddharth. What will he think about me that I forgot such a small thing. This is the first time when I encouraged myself to like someone who may be like me the same way as I like him. When we talked first time and he told me everything about him without caring that I could be judge him. I liked his honesty and I don't know why I feel like Siddharth will not judge me for my stupidity.

But I don't know what will he think after today. I facepalmed myself and groan.

"Preeti...Preeti..." My chain of thoughts broke by Anshul when he shouted my name from terrace.

"What..?" I replied from lawn while piecing the flower and slide it down on thread.

"Come to the backyard.." He shouted again from the tarrice.

I put garlands on the table and walk to the backyard pf our house. I looked up from the ground. Siddharth is standing beside Anshul. He was leaning to the railing while putting his both hands on it and looked at me.

We both looked at eachother. Our eyes locked holding each other's gaze. His face glowing more under the sunlight. I don't know how longer we both looked at each other until Anshul called me again.

"Preeti...Preeti" Anshul shouted my name.

I looked at him with a jerk.

"Huh..what.." That was all I managed to say.

"Where are you looking at. You can drool Sid jiju later." Blood rushed to my face.

He caught me red handed. This is so embarrassing.

hhhuuuhhh....

Siddharth turn his back to me to hide his smile.

"I'm going to switch on the lights and tell me which one isn't glowing." He said to me and then went to switched on the light.

Siddharth turned his face again to my side and looked at me but this time I tried hard not look at him but his gaze boring holes in me.

Few minutes later lights glow. Anshul walked back to the railing and looked at the lights.

"Which one...?" Anshul asked me.

"Third one from your left side and last from right side." I said looking at the lights.

"okey." Anshul said.

I look at Sid and he is also looking at me but I turn my gaze because I know if one more minute I looked into his eyes I got lost in them. His eyes are so deep and intense that anyone could be get lost in them easily. So I leave from there immediately.
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There is always a thought in my mind what will Siddharth think about me when he came to know about my high school. Will he also judge me like everyone or will he understand me.

I know one day I have to tell him everything and I want to tell him. He didn't hide anything from me and I also wants to tell everything about me. He is my life partner and he deserves to know that but not now, may be after marriage I will tell him. We both are in a initial stage of our relationship. We didn't even talked properly.

There is a lot of things which I didn't know about him and he doesn't also know about. I want to understand him, what he likes, what's he hates everything about him.

I like him may be more then like. I think I am falling for him. I know it's too early to say anything but my heart wants me to fall for him without thinking much. The way he look at me, my soul shakes every time.

I was in a lawn arranging garlands when I feel his presence beside me. He started fledging with garlands.

Neither he said anything nor I spoke. There is a comfortable silence between us. We stood there for sometime.

Sometimes he looked at me like he can directly look into my soul and can touch my spirit. It feels like he understand me without me saying anything. Sometimes he let me read him without saying a single word. I feel protected and safe around him.

"Maa always complaint to dad that he didn't give much time to her. Keerti and I are also busy in our works. It's been a long time when we all went for a holiday. Coming here and celebrate Diwali with you it's like a family vacation for us.....Thank You.." Siddharth whispered.

I turn my head and looked at him, he is already looking at me with unknown emotion which gave me a warm feelings.

How could a person gave me a credit of his happiness. He gave m a lots of credit, which I think I don't deserve. I didn't do anything to deserve his Thank you. Every time he makes me feel special. No one did that before me. This is all new for me. I don't know what to say. I don't have any words. So I just keep quit and gave him a small smile.