His Despair by S. N. Nina Arthur (e textbook reader txt) 📕

Davina’s POV:- 

I tried to stop crying, but I can’t, I hate him, I don’t know what I did wrong to get treated this way. All I ever did was loving someone with all my heart, but in return, I got a heartbreak, betrayal divorce. I was sitting on the floor with my knees pulled up to my chest and hands around them, I leaned my head back against the door while agony and pain were increasing with every second. 

Why? Why me? I wanted to ask, every single day, I think that someday all this pain and suffering would come to an end, somewhere deep down inside me, I have this little piece of hope that someday it will. I don’t know when and how but that hope is crushed by Arthur, I want to run away from all this, but I can’t, I can’t leave my dad to die. 

“Why?” I sobbed, asking no one in particular. 

“I can’t!” I cried, the pain and humiliation were becoming unbearable for me, it’s breaking my dignity and who I made myself for all these years. I never thought Arthur would break me this way where I have nothing left in me to tell myself that I’m strong, I can handle this. 

I don’t know what to do anymore, I can’t let him do this to me, but I also can’t do anything against him. I did this to myself by signing the contract, I sold myself to him knowing very well that he’s going to break me in and out. 

Someone once said that God puts you through all the pain to make you stronger. He has put you through this and only he will bring you out of it, we just need to be patient, but will he ever bring me out of this? 

I don’t think he ever will, I thought and cried harder at it. 

“Miss Ellis,” came Coop voice, making me stop crying. I wiped my tears, stood up from the floor and took a deep breath. I pulled the door, saw Coop standing at the door with a tray of breakfast and juice, 

“Yes,” I said through my weak voice, I saw him looking at my face with sympathy in his eyes. 

“Mr. Spencer wants you to have breakfast,” he said, extending the tray to me, I glanced at it and rage filled my system. I gritted my teeth in anger and gazed at Coop, 

“Tell him... He can shove it up his ass,” I shut the door in his face and stormed into the washroom. 

I washed my face and glanced at the girl, looking at me with her fluffy eyes, her face dull and it was clear that she cried a lot. I stared at my reflection for a while, I sighed deeply while placing my hands on the edges of the sink. 

“I need to stop crying!” I mumbled and looked up at my reflection, 

“I signed the contract, but… he cannot treat me like a shit, I have to stay strong and fight back…” I said to myself. 

“I have to take control of my life before it’s too late,” I said with determination shining in my eyes, I glanced at my appearance one last time before walking out of the bathroom. As I stepped out of the bathroom, my room door was kicked open and an angry Arthur strolled towards me. 

Don’t be afraid, stay still, I began to mumble but the look on his face was scaring me to no end. I kept a blank expression on my face, not letting him notice that I’m scared. 

Don’t be intimidated, don’t be intimidated, I kept on telling myself. 

Rage filled in his blue/green eyes, he stopped in front of me with just inches away, his body heat was hitting me and his closeness was making my body shudder. My heart began beating rapidly and my breathing was fastened. I looked at his face blankly and saw his angry expression changing into a normal serious one. He moved his hand up and hesitantly touched my cheek, what is he doing? 

“Have you been crying?” he asked, looking into my eyes, my eyes looked down at his hand and I quickly stepped back. Hurt and surprise flashed in his eyes, but he covered it up quickly, “Leave me alone,” I said looking at his face. 

He stared at me without saying a word, why isn’t he doing anything? I thought looking at him in confusion. 

“Coop!” he called him still staring at me, I glanced at Coop who was walking inside with the tray in his hands. 

He walked up to Arthur and stood behind him, Arthur took the tray from him and grabbed my arm, “Do-” I tried to say but he shut me up with a glare. I gulped hard as he dragged me to the sitting area and placed the tray on the table while sitting down, he pulled me down with him and I landed on the couch beside him. 

He took the tray and serving the breakfast on the plate, I was watching his actions in surprise. He’s serving me? Is this for real? 

He extended the plate to me with a serious look on his face, I glanced at the plate and back at him. 

Don’t give in Davina, my subconscious yelled inside my head, but the look on his face was scaring me. I gulped hard and shook my head while getting up from the couch, I turned around and took a step but his hand grabbed my hand and pulled me back onto the couch. 

I gasped and looked at him, “Eat!” he said with an alarming expression on his face, I glanced at the plate, he was holding and swallowed, “N-No,” I stuttered, looking at his face. 

He raised a perfect eyebrow at me, “Eat… or else I know other ways to make you have it,” he warned while his eyes for split-second moved to my lips and back to my eyes.  

Other ways? 

“Wh-What ways?” I asked and immediately a smirk formed at the corner of his lips as his eyes moved to my lips. 

“Trust me, you won’t like it!” he said while moving his eyes to mine from my lips, I swallowed hard and quickly grabbed the plate from his hands and began having it. I heard him chuckling, but, ignored and focused on completing the breakfast. I took the glass of juice and gulped it down quickly, I could feel his eyes on my lips which made my legs shiver.