Talking Eyes by Mia Lafreve Pedretti (sci fi books to read .TXT) 📕

eye contact though. Yang Suk ki and Choi Seung must have felt the tension around us, because they didn't speak out.

"How many?" I asked.

"Two." She answered, annoyed.

"And you broke up with them, right?"

"I'm single now, so yes?!" She replied and finally lifted her head making eye contact with me. She smirked evilly. "One was a JERK.." She spat at me, like she was talking about me. "..And the other one cheated on me. Remind all this is really upsetting, so if you don't mind..." Her rigid jawbone was a clear sign of irritation, but I had to ask one more thing.

"One more thing." I said less jerkily.

"What?" She was on the edge to explode, I knew it.

"Did you at least beat them up?" I asked trying to lighten up the mood. And I smiled too.

"Well.." She tried to resist, but the tension around us was already lightened up and she  smiled too in the end. "Of course I beat them up. Who you take me for?" Her beautiful smile grew wider. At first stiffened, Yang Suk ki and Choi Seunghyun visibly relaxed.

"Well done Yumi-chan." Choi Seunghyun said giving her an high five.

When I was sure that everything was really okay, I apologized to her. "Sorry I got you mad." I said. "I just.. wanted to know. But I think I exaggerated. Sorry."

"Nah..It's okay." She replied waving her hands. "Friends can get you mad sometimes, but it's okay.." She added shrugging.

That word. Friends. It's starting to get on my nerves. Let's say that I started to hate it. And the worst thing is that I didn't even know the reason. I could stand that Yang Suk Ki, Chaerin, Sandara, Lee Hi and any other girl in YG thought of me as a friend, but not her. I didn't understand why but..the word sounded wrong to my ears. So I tried to replace it with another one, like Advisor or Confident..But nothing. It didn't work. At least until a little voice in my head whispered...Her boyfriend. Is that possible? I asked mentally to myself. We..During all the time we spent together, I always had strange feelings towards her. Like when I felt annoyed by Choi Seunghyun or any other guy that got too closer to her; Or like when I had the huge to lean my mouth upon her mouth, every time I stared at her lips; Or even like earlier, when I get turned on just at the sight of her bare legs, and I wanted to caress them, not like a friend would have done, but more like a..boyfriend would have done. Her boyfriend. Just imagining what I could have done with her legs or simply hold her tightly in my arms, was really thrilling. That's when I realized that I liked her.  But I cannot do those things if I stay just a friend to her. I thought then. I would have to make the first move as soon as possible.

"Oppa?" I heard someone calling me, but I was too lost in this revelation to reply. Then the voice got louder. "OPPA!"

I blinked a couple of times, like waking up from a dream. He took me a bit of time to   understand who was calling me. It was her. "Oh..sorry." I apologized. "I was lost in.. my thoughts. What did you say?" I asked a little embarrassed.

"I was asking you if you ever had a girlfriend?" She asked curiously.

I wasn't expecting such a question, but since I asked her about her private life, I should have expected it.. "Well yes." I answered shrugging. She got sad for one sec, but I noticed it anyway. So I hurriedly added: "But it didn't work out, so we broke up. What can I do?!" I said nonchalantly.

"Oh." She seemed disappointed for just one sec but that expression was replace with a smile in the next second, a smile that she she tried to cover with her hand. I knew her feelings for me since forever. So I better show what I feel too. I thought back then.

"So now I'm single too." I said caressing my lips on purpose.

"H-how come?" She blushed slightly.

"I don't know.." I narrowed my eyes for a moment, and then I lifted my head and stared at her. Directly in her eyes. "Maybe I should look around more.."

After our little chat ended, she didn't ask me anything more about my past, and talked with Choi Seung Hyun instead. I didn't even hear a word of what they were talking about. I was busy staring at her, and melting at the idea of kissing those sweet and inviting lips of hers. She noticed that I kept staring at her, but acted like if she didn't notice it. Even if her cheeks were all red. Anyway, She and Choi Seung talked to each other for the entire time,  01:30am came and we were obliged to go. Because she was starting to fall asleep and Yang Suk ki was already sleeping on her shoulder, even if she was trying really hard to keep her eyes open.

Before leading us to the door, me and Choi Seunghyun wished goodnight to Yang Suk Ki, who was going to their shared room. Arriving in front of the open door we said goodbye to Yumi too. "Goodnight, Oppa." She said to him first. "It has been a pleasure chatting with you."

"It has been a pleasure for me too Yumi-chan." He replied, smiling at her. "Goodnight!" He said, and then he stepped out of the dorm, waiting for me.

Yumi then looked at me finally. "Oppa, you didn't talk too much tonight." She complained, with a sad yet cute face.

"Sorry, my mind was somewhere else tonight." I felt guilty not having chatted with her more, but it was like Choi Seunghyun wanted her to chat only with him. He didn't let me say even a word. So I had no choice but to stare at her. I could have stayed there watching her for the entire night if I had the chance to. "Let's chat more another time, ok?" I said and then laid my hand on her shoulder and patted it.

"O-okay." She stuttered every time that she was embarrassed. "So Goodnight! Or should I say Good morning since it's 01:30 am?" She asked herself.

"Let's pretend it's still night." I proposed and she nodded. "Anyway. I better let you go to sleep, since you have a full trainee schedule tomorrow." The trainee's days were always full and I didn't want to steal her sleep from her.

She sighed. "True." She mumbled.

"So, Goodnight and sweet dreams." I used on purpose a deep and sexy tone of voice to hit on her, and it worked. But when she smiled at me, I couldn't help but smile back at her too. I must be went nuts...I liked it though.

"G-goodnight to you too, Ji Yong." She replied, flushing red. I continued to act sexy, even if I was suspecting that the stupid smile I had on my face was ruining everything.

I exited the dorm without breaking eye contact with her and she blushed like I expected. Was I blushing too? I greeted her by waving my hand for the last time, before she closed the door. I stretched, walking through the corridors. "Wasn't it a good night hyun?" I asked him smiling widely.

"Are you serious?" Choi Seung surprised me, not for the question itself, but mostly for the seriousness in his voice.

I stopped in my tracks and he did the same. "What do you mean?" I asked him, frowning.

"Don't play dumb with me bro." He replied smirking. "You know exactly what I'm talking about." He sounded irritated too.

"No, I'm sorry, but I don't understand at all." I replied, frowning.

"Oh come on, Ji Yong!" He exclaimed annoyed. "I know you since we were trainees, I understand right away when you got a crush on someone. And tonight you just got a deep crush for Yumi." He added, surprising me.

He's one of my best friend. I couldn't hide it from him, since he knew me so much. "Well, you got me." I admitted putting up my hands. "I admit it, I'm...completely crazy for her." I confessed blushing as soon as I said it.

"Even crazy?" He asked in disbelief.

"Y-yes. I really think so." I shyly nodded. "And if I don't make the first move, I'm sure I'll go crazier." I added remembering every time that I wanted to hug her or kiss her and I didn't have the chance to. Or couldn't do it. The thing made me go crazy, without knowing the reason.

"I'm happy for you man but.. I don't think that would be a great idea. Hooking up with her. Absolutely not." He surprised me again, because I thought that he would have been on my side.

"Why are you saying that?"

He looked at me like I was stupid. "Because if you two get together, things might...No. I know that they'll become too dangerous." He warned me.

"I'm not that weak you know." I replied. "I ca-"

He didn't let me finish. "I'm not talking about you." He shook his head. " I'm talking about her. It would be mostly dangerous for her and I'm not kidding."

I knew what he was referring to. And I didn't agree with him. "You're exaggerating." We finally arrived in front of our dorm.

"No, I'm not, Ji Yong. You should know better than anyone else how jealous and crazy your fans..and sasaeng fans can become. If I were you, I wouldn't challenge them." He said and then opened the door and walked in the room.

I knew he was right, But I didn't like it anyway. I mean, I've just realized to like Lee Yun Mi, and now I had, was obliged, to break apart from her. What the f*ck! I didn't have any desire to follow his advise, but lots of nightmares bothered me in my sleep. So in the end I gave up and did like he said. From the following day till today, I acted as if she was just a common girl and I was just a simple friend to her. I treated her like a simple friend would have done. A simple damn friend. Gosh, how I hate that word.

END OF FLASHBACK*

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And now here I am. Trapped, with nothing but a wall behind me. I closed my eyes and sighed. I looked at the boss. He looked back at me lifting his brows, as to say "So?" I sighed again, not knowing what to say. Why the hell he had to bring up the whole story in the first place? I snorted irritated. Aish! What do I do? What am I suppose to say? Aish! I angrily stroke my head and sighed.

"Just split everything out!" The president pressured me. "It's too late to deny it anyway.." He added more gently.

I saw in the corner of my eyes Yumi. She looked surprised, confused and also..a little angry. And I knew that within two or three minutes, she would have figured out everything...and exploded in rage. I sighed. "Can you at least give us some privacy?" I asked to the president.

"Eh? W-what?" He stammed in disbelief. "This...is my office you know?! Or you don't remember?"

"But I can't talk about it in front of you." I complained.

"This is ridiculous, why should I le-"

Yumi interrupted him, speaking after a long silence. "President!" She called him out loud. "I think it's better if you go out." She said impatiently. "I want to hear what this guy has to tell me." This guy. She used to use this word when she was amused or angry. Guess how she feels now. Exactly. I'm doomed.

The president thought about it, but did as he wanted at the end. "I don't think that's necessary." He said crossing his arms and staying right where he was. "Do you want to know the truth..Here it is. That guy there.." He said pointing his thumbs at me. "He acted like he felt nothing for you, but he can't even stay away from