How About Forever by Peyton Keller (urban books to read txt) 📕

that's when it hit.

When I hugged him he had his head on my shoulder. I didn’t know what to do because he was crying. I was never good at calming people down. It just never came to me.


So I tried it anyway, “Hey Garrett it’s ok. I’m here for you. You have me. Don’t cry.”
He lifted his head up and looked down at me and said, “It’s just so hard. I didn’t have a mother, father or brother or sister to argue with or to say I love you. I didn’t have a mother to give a mother’s day card or a father to go out and do guy stuff. I never had any of the real stuff some people do. I don’t even remember what my family looked like. I was so young! My grandparents were great believe in me, but it just wasn’t the same. They were too old to even take care of me so I was stuck taking care of myself when I got older. I just wish life was different!”


I didn’t know what to do. I was scared and confused at the same time. I knew what it was like to not know your own parents. But I didn’t know what it was like to not ever know what they looked like or what it was like in general to not have parents. He pulled up his sleeve and when I saw what he wanted me to see I gasped.
I grabbed his arm and looked at him and practically yelled, “NO! Why would you do this to yourself? Garrett! Tell me you stopped that!”


He looked at me with sad eyes. He shook his head no.
“It feels like an escape for me. To feel the heat on my arm. It feels like something new is regenerating in me. You probably think I’m fucked up but it feels nice when I press the metal to my skin I like the way it feels it helps me.”


I was too shocked and to concerned to even speak.”But you just can’t... You can’t do that to yourself. It’s wrong and not the way you handle things. You could seriously hurt yourself. You have to stop!!!! Promise you won’t do this to yourself!”
I felt like I may have been too hard on him. He didn’t seem comfortable so I said, “the only reason I’m acting this way is because I don’t want you to hurt yourself like this. It’s not healthy to burn yourself like that and I care.”


He looked over at the clock. “I think it’s time I take you home. Let’s go.”
He shut everything off and threw away what he was cooking. Great I thought. Just great. He hates me.


Maybe I was wrong to even hangout with him today! I shouldn’t have agreed to come to his house. I made two really big mistakes. One doing something sexual with him. Which I’m a complete whore for it and two opening my damn mouth. I definitely had no right to talk. I had a cutting issues before. But I stopped because I knew somewhere in my heart it wasn’t ok for me to do that. I know I could have seriously done something if I would have cut to deep… I had to find a way to stop him from burning himself. It was my job to stop him.


When he pulled out of the driveway I looked at him and told him how to get to my house.
When we go to my house I noticed the lights were out. And I didn’t see my Aunt’s car in the driveway. I wonder where she is I thought. I got out of the car and started walking to the porch I had then noticed he got out to.


We both reached the porch and I turned to look at him, “look I am sorry. Ok. I don’t want you to hate me. I just care if you have noticed. I just don’t want you to do that to yourself.”
I sighed and started searching my bag for my house key. At that time I noticed my phone had 4 missed calls, I hadn’t called my Aunt back and she was probably worried and probably pissed and I quickly got my phone out. I turned it on to find 1 new voicemail from my Aunt. I pressed the number 1 and hit call. I had then got the message. She said something about how she had to go out of town and wasn’t going to be back until next weekend! You’re kidding me. I heavily sighed, I finally got to the house key and opened up the door Garrett was about to say bye but I told him he could come inside.


I walked up to my bedroom with him following. I kind of didn’t like when people came in my room. I felt like I was being exposed for whom I really am. I know it sounds crazy but I just felt that way. I set my bag on my desk and took my shoes off.


“Um isn’t your Aunt going to flip if she sees me in your room? Cause from what you’ve told me she doesn’t seem like she wouldn’t agree with me being in your room.” He was leaning against the door frame.


I sat on my bed and patted the spot next to me, “No that voice mail I had was from her. She isn’t going to be here until next weekend. So I pretty much have freedom. Thank god I hate when she’s around. So no you’re not going to get shot if you’re found in here.”
He came over and sat next to me. He grabbed my hand and held it in his. He half smiled and kissed me on the cheek. I laid my head on his shoulder.
For the next 3 hours we got to know each other better. He told me some things he was comfortable telling me about and I told him most of the things I did. Let’s face it I don’t have much to say I am a no lifer. He didn’t seem to have a lot to talk about either. He said he mainly stayed with his grandparents instead of going out with friends. He more or less had to take care of them.
He seemed to be responsible and a well mannered boy. I Like You A Lot

I woke up In Garrett’s arms. Woah, I thought to myself. I couldn’t recall even falling asleep last night. It was weird. But waking up to a face like his, well that’s not a bad thing. He had his arms around my waist and my head was rested against his chest. I listened closely as his heart beat. I took in the way he smells. He smelled like he bathed in axe. The smell stuck to him like a magnet. I gently unhooked his arm from my waist. I quickly got up and went and got clothing. I hope I could make it out of the shower before he woke up.

It took about 15 minutes get a shower. When I got out I grabbed me towel and step out onto the rug. While I’m drying off I didn’t notice the door was open all the way. I stand there dumbfounded and see Garrett standing there with wide eyes! I didn’t react right away so Garrett quickly ran to the door and closed it.


I’m stupid! I forgot to close the door! Ah god! No way. That was embarrassing. I quickly got my clothing on and stood in front of the mirror and saw how red my face was. I definitely didn’t mind at his house because it was slightly dark!


I heard a gentle knock on the door, “Babe, I’m sorry. I had just woke up. I’m sorry.”
I looked at myself in the mirror and opened up the door. He was standing there in his Asking Alexandria muscle shirt and lime green boxers. He looked at me with surprise. I looked at him with a smile and asked, “What?”
He shrugged and said, “It’s just you look beautiful without make up not that you didn’t with makeup but you’re woah.”
I looked down at my outfit. I was in a cami and short black shorts with my favorite purple and grey belt. I did have pretty descent chest to fill out the cami. And I know I looked pretty good in the cami.
I smiled and touched his chest and said, “Well you looked pretty hot in your lime green boxers. Now the only thing that would make you look better is this.”
I pulled his shirt up and lifted it up and put on the floor. Now he looked amazing. His tattoo was located a few inches under his collarbone, stretching across the top of his chest. It quoted: No Sunshine Without Shadows.
He had one hell of a body for someone that barely eats. He started messing with his snake bites. I always thought about how I wanted mine done.
“So did you do your snakebites and tattoos by yourself?”
He shook his head no, “My one friend’s friend does the stuff for me. I met them a little while ago. They did the piercings my grandparents let me get the tattoo’s for my birthday. Why?”
I looked at him and said, “Do you plan on getting anything else done? Because I’m want snakebites too. I’ve always wanted them.”
He smiled and grabbed my chin, “I think you should get angel bites you’d look better with them. And I do plan on getting another piercing I want get my septum today. I’ll take you with and they can do it for you.”
I shook my head yea. “When Are you going? And how much do they charge?”
“Well I can go to them anytime I want and no worries I got it!”
“No I can’t let you pay. You paid for me to get in a movie last night and paid for the popcorn. I can pay for my own piercing.”
I hated when other people paid for my stuff. I didn’t want them to think I was using them. And plus it just felt awkward.


“No. I got it; think of it as your next birthday present. I don’t know.” He smiled and I agreed.
At that moment my stomach started to growl. We both laughed.
“Come on let’s go down stairs and get something to eat!” I said that and walked out of my room and down the stairs and into the kitchen. I pulled out some leftover Chinese and asked him if he wanted any.


After eating out breakfast/lunch I went to clean up the dishes. While doing them Garrett came up behind me and put his hands on my waist and rested his chin on my shoulder.
I giggled and told him he isn’t supposed to disturb his “maid” when working.
He giggled and nuzzled my neck. He lightly kissed me and I felt