Ex-Wife by Mirah Selim (paper ebook reader TXT) 📕

"Cry, princess. Cry. I know it's hurting you. I know it's painful. Just think the one whose hugging you it's not the man who tormented you but the man you used to call your friend. Just cry. I am here Mia. Just let out."

I felt her shoulders shaking while her body started trembling. She wanted to be strong but finally, her tears started falling on my bare neck. I bit my lip feeling a tear escaping my eye as well.

Her cries at first were almost inaudible but slowly she started sobbing loudly. Her sobbing changed into loud wailing pressing my face deeper in my neck. I did nothing only pressed her against my body trying to give her the warmth of my embrace.

Her cries reminded me of the sin I committed. Reminded me that half of the credit of her pain goes to me. I am as responsible as that bastard was. But I wasn't ready to be a coward like him. I am ready to do anything to redeem what I have caused.

I will do everything. Anything for her to forgive me. Even in doing so, I have to forget about my wishes. Dreams or desires. She's the only one who matters to me. And I will do anything for her comfort. For her peace.

After a while of crying she slept in my embrace I was happy that she at least let her pain out a little. I watched her all night sleeping. For the first time after that incident, she looked peaceful.

The next day I talked to her and to my surprise she replied. I tried convincing her that I will try to find Maxim but she asked me to not. She said she doesn't want to ruin a family. He's happy with his family. So let him be.

I didn't give up. I tried every day to convince her and a month went away. But she never said yes to my advise. And finally, I gave up. I can't force her for something she doesn't want to.

We started communicating more. I did everything to make the pregnancy easy for her. She was still a little distant from me but I didn't mind it. I was ready to do anything to make her life easy at least.

After some days I noticed her being too much quiet. It wasn't like she used to dance all around but still, it was like she always went to her own planet and I had to call her many times to make her listen to me. And it was worrying me.

"Mia what's bothering you. I thought we are doing good. Aren't you comfortable with me anymore? I can arrange another house for you if you want. You can even start your job again. I---" I stopped my chattering when she placed her hand on mine.

"Xander it's just." I looked into her green eyes. And was relieved to find a little bit of shine in them. I hope one day she will get the same brightness she used to have in her eyes back.

"My baby. I don't know what to tell my child when he/she will ask me about their father." I sucked on my breath hearing her words.

I didn't even for once think about this. Even though I wanted to tell her that she doesn't have to fear being a single mother but again. She's just 19 years old for God sakes. She deserves to have a proper life. A normal life, full of happiness.

"I don't want my child to grow up having no father. I don't know what to do. I don't even want to look at another man anymore. I felt like a homewrecker." Her voice broke in the end making me held her both hands.

"Don't. Don't you dare to call yourself that? He's the lying bastard here not you. You just loved a man who was single in your eyes. He's the culprit, not you princess. So don't." I warned her making her chuckle slightly.

I stared at her as her smile faded away and a heavy sigh left her lips. What have I done? Her life had turned so difficult. I stared at her thinking about something. I don't know how she will react but I have no other way in my mind.

"What." She asked me as all I did was stare at her continuously.

"Marry me." As soon as words left my lips she froze. Her eyes widened staring at me with a shocked face.

"Marry me. Let me be the father of this child. And if you ever found someone you want to be with. You can leave me. I wouldn't stop you. But I am still ready to take yours and this precious gem's responsibility."

She shook her head. "No Xander. I can't do this to you. I am pregnant with another man's child. And I." I kissed her hands hushing her.

"I know Mia. And I am ready to accept you with everything. I am proposing you with open eyes." She looked at me with a defeated gaze.

"But. I love. Love someone else, Xander." She whispered making me feel the pain again. But I only smiled at her.

"And I love you and I am ready to do anything for you."

Flashback End
Author Pov

"After my pursuing she accepted the proposal. My father was a little bit hesitant but then I told him that she was pregnant with my child and he accepted it. We got married and it took my everything to pull her sanity back on track. When Alexander born I named him joining my name with our son's. She was so happy that day. After few months of Alex's birth. I noticed how she used to stare at me. I thought it might be only a being grateful look but I was wrong."

Xander stopped wiping his tears. He chuckled rubbing his hands on his tear stained face.

"One night I came back from the work. At that time I was working to raise my company a little. I wasn't that successful at that time. I went to my room only to find Mia still wide awake. She said she was waiting for me and it made me so happy. We talked for a while and then she asked me something."

Xander stopped making Amelia look at him through her teary gaze. "She asked me 'Xander do you still love me.' I said yes. She looked at me with her teary eyes and told me to find someone. I refused. I simply brushed her off saying that it's fine she doesn't love me all I care about is she's happy and that's enough. That night I again apologized for the things I did to her and then she said something I was dying to hear. She said 'I forgive you Xander' It was sincere and real."