Our journey from engagement to marriage by Shipra Saini (surface ebook reader TXT) 📕

He stop in his track when his eyes fell on me. I also looked at him. I saw sadness in his eyes. It's like he wanted to hold me in his arms and don't want to leave me. I controlled myself to run into in his arms. Our gaze locked to each other. We both don't want to break the gaze and continue our conversation through eyes.

"Arree.. Siddharth come beta..we are talking about you." Our gaze is broke by papa.

I averted my gaze firstly from him. Tears are threatening me to leave from my eyes before it can leave from my eyes I walked from there.
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"Bus itna hi..(only this)" Puja said with a pout, take a 500 rupees note in her hand.

"This is enough for you." Anshul said.

"Don't be so mean Anshul, come on loose your pocket and gave me a purple note of 2000 rupee." Puja said forwarding her palm in front of him.

"I will Cut it from your salary." Anshul said.

"Salary..?" Puja look at him confusingly.

"Yeah, you will work in my hospital na , in future as my assistant." He said with a smirk and everyone broke into a laugh.

"Tayi ji.." Puja look at mummy for help.

"Anshul, don't irritate my girl, give her what she asked for." Mummy said.

Anshul huffed and put 2000 rupees in puja thali.

After one by one we all sisters celebrate bhiya dooj with our brothers and they give us gifts and money.

"Keerti beta, now you do tilak to Siddharth." Tayi ji said.

Keerti nodded her head and take thali from table.

"Bhayi, sit here." Keerti said in a very slow voice.

I can hear the sadness in her voice. She didn't look cheerful today as she looked everyday. Her mood is also gloomy because of leaving that soon.

Siddharth set on a sofa and take out a handkerchief from his pocket and put it on his head.

"Keerti, one second beta." Keerti was about to do a tilak of Siddharth when chachi stop her. Keerti look at her.

Chachi held me by wrist and drag me towards them and make me sit on sofa beside Siddharth.

"May be they are not married yet but they are soon to be husband and wife. It's better we consider them one." Chachi said to everyone.

I turn my head to look at Siddharth and he is already looking at me. We both look at each other with love through our sad eyes. I can see his eyes started glossy with tear, his eyes and ears turn into red shade. Before his tear escape, he turn his head and sniff.

I take my dupatta over my head then keerti started taking our arti and put vermillion on our forehead. Then give us coconut. Keerti make eat sweet to Siddharth and then me, then we both make her eat sweet. Siddharth take out a small wrap box from his side and put it on thali.

"This is from Preeti and my side." He said in a very low voice. Keerti nodded her head and take it.

After tilak everyone set for breakfast. I served everyone their breakfast. Siddharth is ignoring me. Whenever my eyes met him, he turn his head and averted his gaze from me. In whole breakfast he didn't look at me. This works as a salt on an open wound. Is he angry on me. Why he is not looking at me.

Even when we started to leave from our village home I tried to make eye contact with him but he averted his gaze whenever his eyes met mine. I came saharanpur in papa's car. Aditya is came with us because he is also leaving today for Delhi and he asked lift from Siddharth to drop him railway station.
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"Preeti..beta prepare lunch for everyone." Mummy said.

It's been an hour when we reached home. Mummy is with Neeta maa and keerti helping them with packing. Papa is sitting with Akhil dad and Anshul, in a leaving room and Siddharth locked himself in his room. I didn't see him when we reached home.

They had a flight at evening at 8 o'clock from Delhi to New york and 5 o'clock flight from Dehradun to Delhi so they are leaving around 3 p.m from saharanpur.

I nodded my head and walk to kitchen and started making lunch for everyone.

It take one and half hour to make lunch for everyone. I switch off the stove and pour curry in a serving dish then set the lunch table.

Everyone set on a dining table except Siddharth.

"Where is Sid?" Akhil dad asked.

"Bhayi said he is not hungry." Keerti said while serving dish in her plate. Disappointment take place in my heart. My heart ache at his lack of attention. Why he is behaving like this. Akhil dad nod his head.

"Preeti beta why are you standing there, come sit, have lunch." Neeta maa said.

"No, maa thank you but I'm not hungry." I said.

"Arre..why are you not hungry. You also didn't have breakfast. Come sit and have some." she insisted to me.

I set one of the empty chair and serve some food for me. I was playing with my food from last 3 minutes. I don't have any appetite. My heart is aching for his love.

Suddenly an empty chair pull beside me and I felt a familiar warmth beside me. I raise my head and turn to the warmth side. My eyes met with the most beautiful pair of coffee eyes in the world and my heart skip a bit when my eyes met his. We both look at eachother with most intensity and love. We hold our gaze for a while before averting our gaze.

When he was about to take curry bowl I beat him and served some curry and rise in his plate.

Everyone is busy eating their food.

I gasped slowly when I felt a hand on my left thigh which traced from my arm to my wrist then held my hand under the table. I look Siddharth and he is also looking at me. Both our eyes reflected the same sadness. He then intertwined our fingers still looking at me. I look at our hands then him. His eyes shows how much he love me and sad because we are going to separate. I curled my fingers around his and he tightened his fingers grip around me while holding his gaze with me.