I Deserve by Kaitlin Humphries (novels to read for beginners .TXT) 📕

“Is that a promise?” I ask.
He kisses me roughly as he replies, “oh that’s a promise.”
School goes by quickly and soon it’s time to leave. I smile at Eric as I pass him and he smiles back.
Tossing my hair I walk past a group of boy’s who whistle to me like a dog. By the time I get behind the school almost everyone is gone. I sit down and wait not seeing Alex any where nearby. I am almost asleep with boredom when I feel someone roughly shove me to a wall. My eyes snap open and I see Alex smiling at me, “afraid?” he asks.
I shake my head, “Actually just the opposite.” I reply.
His smile disappears as he grabs my arm roughly, “well time to change that.”
He pulls me out from behind the school and shoves me into a car. I am liking his bad boy routine. We drove for a while then we pulled in front of a wore down house. Pulling me out of the car he walks toward it. Opening the door he shoves me in. Inside there are a lot of guys. I smile slightly my heart pounding, okay now I am afraid. I turn to leave but Alex is blocking the door, “afraid now?” he asks.
I nod slightly and he smiles, “you see Ally me and the boys had been watching you online for a long time. We LOVE your acts.”
One of the boys grabs my waist shoving my waist into him as though ready to penetrate my clothes. He smells my hair as he whispers, “yeah… ‘ALLY’” he sneers, “we’ve been wanting to give you a good fucking for a while.”
I pull away staring at this group of guys fear building in my heart, “l-look Alex this is real funny but… Mrs. Betsy is waiting s-so I’m ga-gonna leave.” I turn and a guy grabs my hair pulling me back. I scream in pain as the guys laugh.
“You ain’t going no where yet.” Sneers Alex. He yanked off my skirt and pulled off my shirt. I stand there shaking as the guys eyes drift along my body. One of the guys grabs me and pulls me to him, I struggle and he backhands me. I fall to the ground with a cry of pain and Alex laughs.
“Not so brave are ya?” he asks.
I hear a bang on the door and Alex walks over to it. Opening it he gets shoved aside and punched in the face. I look down hoping it’s not a police officer but instead I hear Eric’s voice he is yelling at the boys. I look up blood falling from the corner of my mouth and I can clearly feel a bruise forming on my eye. Eric glares down at me, “are you asking for a death wish Ally?” he asks. I shake my head and he helps me to my feet. Alex looks at Eric fear in his eyes, “I didn’t know she was yours!” he states.
Eric glares at him, “shut up Alex and don’t ever let me catch ANY of you touching her again.” Alex nods frantically and as Eric walks me out I look back and Alex is glaring at me with hate. I smile like the temptress I am and blow a kiss to him winking as well to add affect. He stares at me in surprise. Once outside I look down and remember that my clothes are inside. I pull away and tell Eric I’ll be right back. Inside I grab my clothes and turn to Alex, “by the way…” I pull him to me by his shirt and kiss his lips, “I wasn’t afraid… so if you still want something…come by the place sometime I’m in the third window on the third floor.” Then I leave looking back once more to see Alex grinning at me.


Chapter 3


That night I sit in my room reading (okay look I may not have been allowed outside the house and my father may have thought it stupid for a girl to have an education but he still allowed me to read… what you think I’m that stupid? OF COURSE I’M NOT THAT STUPID!). I look up as something hits my window. Walking over to my window I open it and smile down to see Alex standing on the ground. He calls up to me but I quickly hush him. I quietly but quickly go down stairs and open the front door. He comes in and pulls me to him. I can’t help but giggle as he smiles down at me, “So… you weren’t afraid?” he asks.
I shook my head smiling up at him, “My father… well let’s just say I’m used to that kind of behavior…” I whisper as I kiss him (okay I have to admit that’s a bold faced lie but I don’t give a crap… He’s cute…although I am used to it…FROM MY DAD… but not anyone else…)
He smiles as he kisses back and then pulls away, “You’re a strange girl Ally…” he states. I smile and look down but he gently pulls my chin up and his fingers lightly brush the black eye that I had (I told Mrs. Betsy I had a fight with a locker… she asked if the locker won… I told her yes… she’s sarcastic…) Alex pulls me to him roughly and smiles, “You know you look good with bruises…” he states.
In my brain my inner voice is screaming at me he likes the bruise! You need to push him out! You moron this means he will want to hurt you! Remember what that’s like! Remember that guy your dad brought home! You idiot listen to yourself…well me! Listen to me! I growled at myself my own voice intervening inside my head shut up! I will do what I want so shut up! I want him INSIDE me! I want anything inside me ANYTHING! As long as I feel complete I’m happy! You know it’s strange to be arguing with myself… but hey whatever happens, happens. My subconscious shut up then as I led him to my room. I pulled him onto the bed as I kissed him. He is actually gentle so I mentally stuck my tongue out to my subconscious. But my subconscious got to do the same back at me when we were naked and he was about to enter me. His grip had turned rough and harsh. He gripped my hips so hard he is leaving bruises. I whimper and gave small cries of pain at this but his smile broadens as he roughly shoves himself into me with all his strength. I swear my insides ripped at the power he rammed into me. But I liked it I don’t know why maybe it’s the fact I want guys to have their way with me I don’t know but I cried out to him begging him to slow down this made him go faster and harder (which is exactly what I wanted). I had an orgasm but he had none so I endured 15 more minutes of his rough and brutal sex. Finally he shot his load into me and pulled out. My bed is bloody so I had to get up (and that was painful to do) and pull off my sheets and replace them but first I had to throw them away. Alex grabs me and throws me back on the bed before I can even pull me sheets off.
“Who said you could go anywhere?” he asks as he kisses me.
I pull away and get back up, “I did…I have to replace my sheets… Mrs. Betsy will kill me if she finds out about this…” Alex lets me go and helps me with the sheets as I put on new ones he stands behind me kissing me neck as his hands run all over my body. I turn to him and kiss him. He kisses back and we stand like that for a few minutes skin on skin. But he pulls away and gathers up the sheets, “I’ll deal with these… see you at school Ally.” I nod and he gets dressed and leaves. I fall on my bed and began to think about how I will save my dad. The bail costs 2,345 dollars which I don’t have. Then a thought clicks in my brain, “I can use my… ability to seduce people to get money!” I about yell.
My subconscious speaks up again, so basically you want to be a prostitute…or a pimp’s bitch?
I think again then reply to myself yes basically…and I know who will help me with this…
Who Alex? Wait… no don’t go to DJ he is a horrible man a horrible man horrible horrible horrible horrible horrible horri…
I interrupt myself getting annoyed with the continuous horrible he’s horrible I get it but I don’t care so bud out and don’t make me come in there… wait why am I talking to you like your real? You are nothing but a… something… you’re something but you’re not real!
I am happy to have peace and quiet right then so I lay down and go to sleep.

I wake up the next day to someone kissing my neck. My eyes flutter open to see Eric smiling down at me, “morning Ally…” he whispers
I smile then turn back to fall asleep tired from having stayed up till 4:00 and it now being only 6:00.
Eric chuckles and picks me up pulling me out from under my warm covers and placing me on my feet on the cold floor.
“Eric, leave me alone… I’m tired let me sleep.” I tell him
He shakes his head, “Ally it’s time for school if you hadn’t stayed up last night screwing Alex you wouldn’t be tired.”
My tired brain clicked at that and I turn to him my eyes wide with surprise, “you…you know about it?” I ask
He nods his eyes dark with anger, “He called me bragging about it… and I heard you…”
I move away bracing me to get beat but he showed no signs of wanting to harm me, “aren’t you going to hurt me for it?” I ask attentively.
He shakes his head his eyes changing from anger to worry, “no Ally I would NEVER beat you… is that what your father did to you?”
I turn away, that is the only reason I’m happy to be away from my father but not even that can keep me from wanting to be with him, and whisper, “yeah…” I quickly look at him to defend my father, “but it was always my fault not his… I deserved what he did… I deserved to get hit for not doing what he says.”
Eric shakes his head as he puts his hands on my shoulders and shakes me, “NO! Ally your father is worse than Alex… you NEVER deserved to get hit… look you… you shouldn’t want just any guy in bed with you… I mean you should…”
I look up at him waiting to hear what he wanted to say but he just turned away, “let’s go to school Ally…”
I nod and got dressed Eric didn’t bother to leave my room but when I am dressed he lightly grabs me by my elbow and steers me out of my room and down stairs. I jump into his Corvette and we ride to school in silence. At school Eric didn’t leave my side to go to see his friends. Alex started to come over to me but seeing the look Eric gives him he backs up and just smiles at me. When 1st period came Eric walked me to class. The silence between us is uncomfortable so I am happy to go into class and for him to walk