Diary 2 by DeYtH Banger (ebook audio reader .txt) 📕

 1. Fail, Fail and Fail

(Yeah, yeah I know the theory... but it little shakes me inside... it just feels wrong.)



2. Encountering Strange Guy/s


(It's supposedly to be another story but ets don't put a full stop somewhere around here. I will be more focusing on "The Strangest Guy", he was looking me in a very strange way.... from eyes, up to head... and just everything was strange in this guy. Who in fucking hell looks at you in such manner?)


3. Muscles

(At Least, I am not jerking off... that's good news to be heard from me. If I was doing that, I was going to blame it on "Jerking Oof", but now who to blame?


We went too far away from the topic, I don't get the idea of muscles, but I feel like I need muscles... I should be stronger, but WHY?.... No fucking clue, the truth is the truth and I see getting stronger as something which is 0-minded.)

I should be proud or sad? This will be the question which should shake your mind. I am sad because some kinda asshole just ruin my night. But I am proud, for?

(P.S. - Yeah, sure... Today = Today)


1. Success

(I should put myself as a successful person, If I have favourite comedians.

So I have here are my top 6, favourite comedians since 1 day and half...

.... I should be successful person If I have period in my life in which I laugh and laugh and laugh... not at some kinda shitty stuff... but on the way how is presented... the truth... The most funniest way! )


2. Laugh

(If You laugh at something which is faken it sucks... if you laugh at somebody who has prepared what to tell and you see the way to be a real cliche..... It means that it sucks again... it should be natural ... Jim Norton and Robin Williams are very natural comedians.)


3. Anxiety

(Wow... wow...wow my heart has stopped beating so fast... but still I get some specific chills in which I should work. It's for sure after few hours of comedy... I am feeling like a brand new guy. Less Nervous and Less Anxious. I can't say on 100% that "Anxiety", has gone. But stIll a piece of it has gone, I hope this for the better....)


4. Challenge

(I put to myself a challenge.. . And I made it.... On Sunday - Not this one "Now", but the previous Sunday... Which I had a chance to meet some new people while getting involved in English TV Show or Gladiator Series. My role there wasn't something big... it was something small but in the frama of 12 Hours, I made in about 5-6 Friends. - Rough said = As Always!


But the sad truth is that I could get only 3 Phone Numbers....


This there wasn't a challenge which happen on Sunday, it was just trying out new things in my life.


Somewhere around the 15/07/2017 - I had a small talk with a stranger.. . - Main Reason = Dog.


16/07/2017 - Which is today... Few people on the way to the fitness... Just started talking to me .... Totally Random Stranger.

1. The first Guy... Saw that one car ... wasn't following what The Traffic Lights were saying. - Good Reason, For A Small Talk!

2. The Second Guy... Oh yeah rain came on the way... and he started with making strange sounds like "Ysshsdassaaaaaa"... - Something like that and look after few minutes with started talking... - Again Fast and Small Talk.

3. The Third "Whatever" - Not sure how to name it... It was one girl wanting from me money.... it was about some kinda donation as far as I know.

4. The Fourth Guy

- Small talk with the cashier


5. The Fifth "Whatever"

- I don't know how to name this person also... It was talking with the girl which was again playing some kinda role as a Cashier in the Fitness.


6. The Sixth Guy

- Oho.. . Fast talk again with a stranger... but a fast conversation...


....

Oho.. . I Really fail here... I felt little nervous and anxious. I wanted to talk with one girl... she was looking at me... But I couldn't make it - Unfortunately..., it was most likely exchanging Face Expressions... Than something else - Sadly... I Really wanted to talk with her... but I couldn't... But StIll..

We should point out that I was less anxious... and I was feeling like a new person with a new skin.


7. The Seventh Guy

- Nothing more than a small talk with a stranger about his dog... He was walking the dog and that was a good reason to strike a conversation... It was a feeling inside which was saying "Go and talk with this guy"...






16/07/2017 - Challange from out of 5... I talked to 7 Strangers


Tomorrow Challange is going to be out of 8 or 9 Strangers to talk to.

5. Celebrate

(Yes... Indeed I am going to celebrate...

...

I am very exhausted... it has been  a long day and I have done moves which are out of my comfort zone.


But stIll.. . FAILURE = IS FAILURE... I WON'T GET UOSET UPSET FOR SOMETHING LITTLE... I DID MY BEST AND I AM TRYING TO CHANGE MYSELF.


I HAVE BEEN AROUND A LOT OF MATERIAL AND NOW I AM STILL GETTING USED TO IT... I NEED TIME TO APPLY IT... INTO MY ACTIONS.)


6. Muscles

(IT has been great to come back today and to make some muscles into the frame of few hours.)

Sclwible and Eable, let's double it once and for all. Don''t try to get in home after ... before even giving a feedback of your day.


1. Yesterday


- Yeah I was bad in talking to strangers... and I done something out of 5... I made it up to 6-7.

2. Today

- Today is the day from which I should be proud,  not because I am typing right now or that I got a little piece of hair on my dessert.

As for DESSERT, - It was one of those days  which are horrific.


I could put down that yesterday I even did got my Challange from "The Art Of Charm", but today I have it. 'Til Yesterday... I was one of the most anxious people. But today I got my new "Challange"... I just need to collect my guts and to do it.


But what I am proud of today is that I got a chance to speak to few strangers. 


This which I am doing it's something out of my comfyzone. Probably with the same Movement, I am going to break the ice from some creepy young guy. I am going to become more sociable.


3. Take Action

- If I am here, it means that I am not as good in talking as you think*


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....

But life should be a place of goals


Day 4 - In My Case was with goal

Out of 5


Day 5 - In My Case was with goal

Out of 7

I completed my first challange, then my second. I should really celebrate this whole shIT... and talking to 17 - Strangers about different topics, areas... I should be one of my biggest progress which I have achieved in my life.

4. Talking To Strangers

- Some people could ignore you and even be treating neutral. But others will be with a smile and even celery open. Talking to new people to crowds it's a skill which you should have.

In the end of your day... you don't care about the topics, but you care about the way one conversation has went.

 Were people laughing?

Were the strangers open into talking with "You"?

You don't give about the shit which you were throwing at them. Probably topics which are shirty and in the same time probably there will be one exceltion  a guy who will be staring at you... - Right into the eyes! BUT NOT REALLY INTO TALKING - IT'S SO  CREEPY!

(P.S. - The Feeling now is like a brainstorm... so much topics are coming in my head and by writing about one of them... I lose the others = Sacrafice.)

Today my day was not really into the mood to talk and meet new people.  But you know that humans are build on being nice with strangers and friendlier and when they become friends with them we start seeing their true self - HoW FUCKED  UP IS THAT?

5. Circles

- It'S  very important how do you attack somebody which means the way you talk to a stranger.


 Is it something with options.

Like

Mike: There are few parks around this here area.

Mike:
1. 1 Km
2. 2 Km
3. 3 Km
4. 7 Km


Mike: Which is the best choice "Mr.".

Mr. Stranger: l "3", It's much cleaner and more sociable area.

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Probably this here conversation could be a better one by being more creative or to try something else. You shouldn't follow scenario, try to be Original.

But when is about circles... I had met strangers which were treating me very well, much better than my friends, but I have friends with which I had a lot of fun but still some of them sometimes are just "Assholes" - Prefix.

(Note: This above is a social Circle.)

6. Nothing

- The topic is like nothing... PEOPLE SAID that's going to be rainy. But nothing has really happened... the weather is fine!


- In Life You should be prepared for the time when you should get out of you comfyzone and make some new friends. Because you know that one day - Your Friends are going to go somewhere on Holiday or Somewhere else by themself wot with their parents and "You". You are going to be left alone; but still you have friends... BUT THEY JUST AREN'T HERE IN THIS COUNTRY or Area. I REMEMBER ONE OF THOSE DAYS AND HAS BEEN VERY DEPRESSING FEELING.


BUT IF YOU WANT TO KEEP A FRIENDSHIP WITH SPECIFIC PEOPLE ONCE AND FOR AWHILE YOU SHOULD SPEND