No looking back by Destiny (black female authors TXT) 📕

This is the story of my life...with Mike and with the pain that he has caused me. I never would of known any better so I am going to tell you what you should know.

It started like any other day.Except it was the start of my senior year and I was going to graduate. I texted my friend Beth to meet me at my house so we could go together. As I started toward my first class I recognized a face that I had never seen before. Once in the class I took my seat and stared at the board.
He walked in..,I had never seen him before. He took his seat next to me and that was when it all began....

He looked at me in the way a man and woman would look at each other when they were in love. "Hey, I'm Mike." he said "I transfered here from north Carolina". "Hey i'm Candy" "Cute" he said and looked back at the board. As the week went on we started to talk a lot more and got to know each other really well. As it turned out he had all of the same classes as me.
One day he invited me to hang out with him and his friends after school and I said sure. After school ended we went to the woods and he pulled something out of his pocket. Then he and his friends started to smoke it. "Hey you want some?" he asked me as he handed it to me,"umm.." I had to think about it because we learned about meth in school and it was bad for you.
"Relax it won't hurt you...try it" He urged and so I did. I started choking on the smoke and he laughed and said I wasn't supposed to swallow it. We smoked some more and then he took me home. We started making out right before we got to my house and things got a little serious. "Stop..." I said as he started to unbutton his pants. "You should take me home it's way past my curfew"
"sure" he said and he was cool with the fact that I didn't go all the way with him. As the months went on we got more serious and we had been dating for about 3 months. We had been doing meth for about 3 months as well. I couldn't stop using even if I tried. "Hey Candy" he asked me one day after school. We were hanging out as his house when he asked me THE question. "yes?" I said and he asked if we could have sex. I agreed because we had been together for so long. It hurt and I cried. When he was driving me home we smoked some more and then I went in the house feeling stupid for agreeing.
We didn't talk for about 3 days and I found out that he had been cheating on me with some other girl. Also to top it all off I was addicted to him and meth. about a week later I felt really sick so I stayed home. I soon found out that I wasn't sick I was PREGNENT and he was the daddy.

I want to scream and cry. I don't want to be pregnant, I want to be normal and have a life. I can't do that now I am having a baby. I told my mom and she started to cry, she said that she was dissappointed in me. She thought that I should get abortion cause I wasn't mature enough to have a child, but I couldn't do that to the child. I have to tell Mike but i'm afraid of what he will say, so i'm going to put off telling him until I have to. What I need to do is go to the doctor and find out if i'm really pregnant or not. I have my mom drive me cause I don't want to, i'm scared. As we enter the doctors office they tell me to pee in a cup. I do then go back to the room and await my fate. When the doctor comes back he tells me that i'm pregnant and to start prepping for the baby. I don't want to have a baby I want to have a life but that obvisily isn't going to happen. I had the urge to smoke some of the meth that Mike left for me the day that we had sex. So when we got home I went to my room, cracked a window, and lit it up. It felt amazing and the high was one of the best things that could ever happen to me at the moment. Then there was a knock at my door and it was Mike. "Hi" I said "Hey" he said "How are you feeling?" he asked me, and right then and there I wanted to tell him that I was pregnant but I didn't. He came over because he wanted sex and all I wanted was to be left alone to suffer. We ended up having sex and I wanted so badly to tell him that I was pregnant I thought that he would leave me if I told him so I think I will put it off until I have to tell him, or he figures it out. Once Mike was gone I cried and I fell asleep. I don't want to do this! I have to tell him and I hope that he will take it the right way and not freak out.

Publication Date: 05-20-2011

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