Beloved or Betrayed *(incomplete) by shay prinkey (top ten books to read txt) 📕

I want to show them my new car." She waved her hand for me to go. I showered and washed my hair. It felt like the longest shower of my life. All I wanted to do was go show Shawn and Keely my car. I straightened my hair then slipped on a pair of black shorts with a yellow shirt. I searched for a pair of black flip flops only finding a pair of black Nike’s. My room was probably the most organized room any sixteen year old girl had. I couldn’t stand anything to be out of place it literally drove me insane. I grabbed my phone and purse then headed down the stairs to leave. I yelled to my mom" I’ll be back later love ya." she yelled back "curfew 11:00 don’t forget love ya too!" 
 

 

chapter two

When i got to Shawn's aunts house he was gone with his grandma. I left and went to Keely's. We had the best evening ever. We shopped off of the allowance we had been saving since we were little girls. Every so often we would take a hundred dollars out and get one of our moms to take us shopping. It felt so great to be able to go shopping without our parents involved. I was actually looking forward to getting a job so i could shop more often. Kelly bought some cute winter boots and sweaters While i got a few pairs of jeans and some Vans. I also got my hair colored black with the gift card i had gotten from my aunt Racheal on my dads side. After shopping all day i finally got up enough courage to call Shawn. "hey" i said shyly. "hey baby what you up to? i thought you were still mad at me." he said groggily. "no i have no reason to be mad. i kinda thought you were avoiding me." I mumbled. "Lana  i came down for you. i could care less if i see anyone else. i only come for you." my heart skipped a beat. Those were the moments i lived for. The smallest things meant the world to me while the big things meant nothing. "where are you?" i ask quietly. "at my aunts. you wanting to meet at the park?" he ask. "nope I'm coming to get you." i said enthusiastically "is your mom really going to let you borrow or new car? i thought you said she wasn't having it." he said. i let out bellowing laugh "oh she's not! she wouldn't dare let me just take her car out. so her and my dad bought me one today." I could hear the shock in his voice "quit playing they didn't buy you a car." i giggled a little "ill prove it. ill be there in about three minutes be ready." I hung up while grabbing my keys. "gotta go Keely im going to meet Shawn." i squealed. She waved bye while still putting her new clothes away. I ran out of the house to the car as quickly as i could. it had been days since we'd seen each other. i just wanted to smell that oh so familiar smell of him. Shawn's aunt didn't live but maybe a block over from Keely's house. I got there in no time flat and of course Shawn was sitting outside on the steps. He looked once when i pulled up to the sidewalk then took a double look to make sure it was me. i rolled down the tented window and waved for him to come on. "who's car did you steal?" he ask jokingly. "nobody's. this is my new baby." i said showing him the registration. He smiled wide. " i like it. now you can come see me." i smiled shyly. " i don't know about that. My dad would go bat shit crazy if i left Georgia in this car. especially to come see you." he rolled his eyes. " just once before it gets cold." i sighed "okay maybe. but probably not what about this coming up summer?" He pondered on it for a second "okay sounds good. What we doing tonight?" There wasn't much to do but i didn't want him to think i didn't want to spend time with him. "lets ride. i just want to ride!" He shrugged "okay. you know i really love your smile." My cheeks started to heat up a little. "thanks i just love you!" i replied. As he leaned in to kiss me i could feel the butterflies in my stomach. At times just a touch from him would make every muscle in my body jump in the best way possible. He hadn't even touched his lips to mine when i felt the spark of love ignite the connection between us. Everything felt so right so perfect so in bliss. It was moments like these that made me love him with everything i had. Through all the fights and all the petty nonsense a simple kiss or touch would make all of that fade away. As his soft luscious lips connected with mine my heart began to beat rapidly. He bit my bottom lip so his tongue could enter my mouth. our tongues tussled emotionally for what felt like forever yet not long enough. Everything in me wanted more. More of his touch more of his love. Even though id had all it felt new every time. My hand softly caressed his face for the ending moment before we parted. "i love you so much." i whispered. "i love you too." My evening had officially been made. It had been a full nine weeks since we shared any affection with each other. I began to drive cruising through town. Being in his presence was enough for me. We rode listening to our favorite songs for hours. We stopped to get gas when i realized it was 10:23. "oh shit." i sighed under my breath. "what's wrong?" he ask. "i have to get home. mom is going to be pissed if i break curfew again." i said. He laughed a little. "okay let me drive i can get us there faster ill just walk home." he said. I grimaced "you can drive but your not walking home ill drop you off." he sighed. "your not going to have time for all that Lana just let me take you home. ill be fine really. Its only about a ten minute walk if i take short cuts." i rolled my eyes "okay i guess. but you have to call me on your way home." He smiled getting in the drivers seat. We began to drive back to my moms. "so what are you doing tomorrow?" i ask him. "my aunt is going to take me shopping to get some school clothes before i go back. you know im leaving early this time." My eyes shot open wide. I had barely saw him this visit. "okay when?" Im leaving early Sunday morning. My body tensed up. That was the day after tomorrow. "what the hell Shawn you didn't bother to tell me that when you got here. why are you leaving so early?" i yelled. he shook his head. " mom wants me to stop spending my entire breaks here. she says i need to spend some time at home too." i fought the tears. "and let me guess next you wont be able to come down at all?" i whispered. " well you have a car now so if that happens ill get a job and send you money so you can come up. we will be together Alana i love you." i turned toward my window so he couldn't see me silently cry. "ok. i love you too." i choked. The rest of the ride i couldn't bring myself to say anything i felt as though we were being ripped apart. i began to question our commitment to each other. Was my commitment stronger than his. Did his mom propose this to him and he just went with it. i was so lost i didn't understand. Was he falling out of love with me. He had been very distant lately. We pulled into the driveway at my moms house. "i love you Alana i know your upset and im sorry." he mumbled. I shook my head and wiped my eyes. " i love you too but this is bullshit. what's the deal are you just not in love with me. i mean, what? i saw you twice this week and your going home early AND your not spending your last day here with me. i mean just tell me Shawn if your ready for us to come to a end let me know don't string me along." i cried. He hugged me tight letting me cry into his chest. "its nothing like that Alana. I just have to go along with the bull shit my family has going on right now. i promise ill make this up to you when i come down for spring break." i pushed him off of me. "SPRING BREAK!" i yelled. he put his hands on his head. "shit." he mumbled. "my keys!" i said motioning for my keys. he leaned his head back handing me the keys. "yea you fucked up this time. im so over this shit! What happens if i find another boyfriend while your gone. one that's here one that actually cares if I'm crying one that calls more than once a fucking week." i yelled. "Lana you really need to chill on all that unless you mean it." he said throwing his hands up. i rolled my eyes. "ill call you tomorrow. i need some time to cool off."i said waving bye. My feelings were more hurt that he didn't bother to tell me any of that until it was to late. When i walked in the house my mom was watching TV in the living room. I tried to sneak by because i had no idea what time it was. I was almost to the stairs when i heard my mom say "hello monei." i sighed turning on my toes to go over to the couch. "hi mom." i said monotone. "so I'm going to approach you like one of your friends and not your mother." she said standing up. I felt extremely confused. "ok about?" i ask. "well i think you and Shawn should take a break. not trying to be in your business but you two are fighting a lot these days and maybe it would be good if you both focused on yourselves for a while." I laughed. "ill think on it mom. but honestly we will work through it. its really no big deal." she sighed. "okay hunny. just keep this in mind not every love is worth hanging on to." she ended before walking away. i plopped down on the couch. The next morning i woke up on the couch with no pillow and a blanket. i groggily got up and went to my bed. i slept till about noon. I had nothing but nightmares. All of them were about Deshawn and i. I pulled my phone out to call Keely.