February 20th , 2016 by Athene Minerva (read after txt) 📕

embarressed but one year later , she and another girl did worse things. I’ll talk about the other girl later .

 

P: You told me that your psychotherpist diagnosed you with social anxiety . Tell me more about it . Were you born with it ?

 

No , I wasn’t born with it , I developed it over the years . It all started when I was I was 11 years old. I was weirdly quiet . Then , when I was 12 , I raised my hand and … I said the wrong answer and the class started whispering about me .

 

(D sighs)

 

D: I’m done . I won’t talk or write .

 

(D stares at the white blanket which covers her lower body .She sits and stares at it and doesn’t make any sound. She doesn’t move at all.)

(P worried)

 

P: What’s wrong , sweetheart ? Was this too much for you ?

 

(D remains silent)

 

P: I think it’s better if you take a shower and relax for today . Let me call the nurse.

 

(P leaves the room and a nurse enters)

 

N: The Dr told me about what you’re going through. You’re really brave , my kid .

 

(N touches D’s shoulder and smiles)

 

N: C’mon , let me make you ready for your shower . I brought som lavender candles . I promise you to make you feel relaxed today .

 

(N smiles at D)

(N puts one hand around D’s waist and the other one behind D’s neck .)

 

N: C’mon sweetie , let’s go .

 

(D makes her body heavier so she won’t be carried)

 

N: Girl, you ain’t thst heavy . Stop making yourself heavier than you are .

 

(A few tears roll down D’s cheeks as she whispers)

 

D: Now you’re saying that I’m fat ?!

N: Girl … The only thing I said was that you make yourself heavier than you are . You ain’t fat !! You look DAMN fine with your petite curves !

 

(N pushed D’s hair aside from her eyes)

 

N: Whoever told you that you’re fat is just jealous . You KNOW who you are and you ain’t fat ! Lord knows , maybe THEY are fat and can’t handle the fact that you are better than them .

 

(D gives N a sign with her hands to come closer)

(D whispers in N’s ear)

 

D: They said it f a few times in a row. One said that I’ve gained weight and the other said that I’m fat.

N: Who said that ?

D: My aunt and my uncle …

 

(N holds D’s face with both of her hands)

 

N: Poor kid .

 

(A tear escapes N’s eye)

 

N: This pain is written all over your face …

 

(N sighs and hugs D tightly)

 

N: I won’t leave you .

 

(After 2-3 minutes N decides to leave D alone , who cried herself to sllep on the nurse’s shoulder)

(N lays D down on the bed and covers her with the blanket)

(N whispers while standing at the door)

 

N: The angels are watching over you . May they and the great power oft he Lord protet you , my kid. You’re safe here , I promise .

 

THE NEXT DAY –

 

(N with a bright smile)

 

N: Good morning, sunshine . How did you sleep last night ?

 

(D with a huge smile , giggling)

 

N: Seems like you’ve slept very well as I see.

 

(D nods grinning)

(N takes a seat on D’s bed near her legs)

 

N: Tell me EVERYTHINGGG !

D: Well.. It was a dream , but it felt sooo real …

N: Now you GOTTA tell me !!

D: I was at a park , I guess and then I met this handsome guy …

N: Do you know him ?

D: No , but I feel like I know him from somewere … He seems so familiar to me … I don’t know why…

N: Did he talk to you ?

 

(D in a high pitch voice)

 

D: Yeeeessss …

N: Dr G recommended you to take a walk to get some ernergy .

 

(D grinning)

 

D: Kayyyy.

 

(D changed her clothes and takes a walk in the nearby park .)

(She makes eye contact with a good-looking guy)

(She is thinking)

 

D: He’s looking at me !!! I’m dying to talk to him !

 

(The mysterious guy approaches D and smiles)

 

C: Hey !

 

(D is thinking)

 

D: WOOW !!! HIS VOIIIICEE !!! AND THOOOSE HAZELLLL EYEZZZ !!!

 

C: I saw you looking at me from over there so I thought I might as well come and say hi .

 

(D is breathless and tries to smile)

(C laughs at her facial expression and asks)

 

C: I’m sorry … Do you speak English ?

 

(D still tries to smile but fails again and makes a weird facial expression)

(C laughs again)

 

C: Do you always make those funny faces when a guy talks to you ?

D: Ehm … I usually don’t talk to boys…

C: So you don’t even talk to them when they come up to you ?

D: Yeeees ?

C: Well , I don’t wanna scare you or anything …. But I’m a dude … Well , at least that’s what my mom and everyone I know tells me … And you’re talking to me !

 

(Both start laughing)

 

D: Well , congratulations to you ! You’re the first boy I talk to !

 

(C and D start walking together and suddenly everyone around them disappears . It’s only them and the trees with their brown-gold leaves.)

 

C: Wanna take a seat ?

 

(D nods)

 

C: So … What are you up to ? What are you doing here all alone ?

 

(C smiles at D)

(D sighs and her bright smile vanishes)

 

D: Ehm …

 

(D gives C a sign with her head to look at the hospital)

(C looks at the building and has a pain-filled look in his eyes)

 

C:May I know what’s wrong ?

D:I’ve been bullied since my earliest childhood and I’ve suffered the loss of my dad by the age of 10 .. Now I’m 18 and here … I’ll stay a while there …

C: I’m very , very , very sorry for your loss. I’m sorry for asking …

D: Don’t be … I would have told you anyway…

(D smiles her usual soft smile)

 

D: You kinda look like my father …

 

(C and D remain silent for a moment)

 

D: I kinda wanna get to know you better … Just because you look like my dad doesn’t mean that I don’t wanna … Have something to do with you, you know … You kinda give me hope …

 

C: That’s great to hear so !

 

(C smiles at D)

 

C: How long have you been there ?

 

(C looks at the hospital)

 

D: I was brought two days ago , I guss …

 

(D sets the scarf up to cover her scar)

(C holds D’s hand and looks her deep in the eyes)

 

C: You’ll be fine , I promise .

D: How can you promise me that ?

C: Because I’ll make sure that you’ll be alright and I’ll stick with you from now on .

D: You don’t have to do that . You don’t have to feel sorry for me .

C: I feel sorry for you but I gave you this promise because I care about you . I wanna get to know you better . You told me the summery of your story and you’re still here, which means that you are strong !

D: Do you have a story too ? If I may ask…

C: Yes , I do .

N: Dr G is looing for you . It’s time to continue what you’ve started yesterday …

D: I gotta go …

C: Tomorrow same time , same place ?

D: Yes …

 

(D and C smile at each other and shake hands)

 

C: It was a pleasure meeting you .

D:The pleasure is all mine .

N: Was this the handsome guy you told me about earlier ?

 

(D grinning)

 

D:Yesssss.

 

(N leads D to her room where Dr G is waiting for her)

 

P: The walk seems to do wonders , you’re smiling ! That’s good !

D: Yappp …

 

(D looks on the ground and smiles)

 

P: Ready to go to my office where we can continue what we’ve started yesterday ?

D: Yes !

 

(P and D go tot he office)

 

P: We talked about this Egyptian girl… And you wanted to talk about this other girl too..

D: Yes , she’s from Serbia and is obese… She got bullied by everyone and I sticked with her and defended her and almost punshed a boy for her but she …She wouldn’t have done the same for me … When she started going to anther school , I got more depressed than ever because she , the Egyptian girl and the girl with no religion were my only friends and by the Seniour year , I was alone and terrified to make any new friends … Well , I’ve had a few friends but this friendships wouldn’t last long … Once , I’ve uploaded my WhatsApp status into this : Sometimes I think about cutting myself .

She asked me why I would think of doing that and I didn’t wanna answer so she got annoyed and started a fight with me … We haven’t talked to each other eversine …

P:She’s not a good friend and you haven’t lost anything . She has lost you . If she’s stupid enough to argue with you instead of helping you like you did when she needed someone , then let her be that dumb !

D:We’d fight a few times in a months and our fights would last 21 /2 weeks .

P: That’s rough . What would you argue about ?

D:The smallest things …

P: That’s just HER way of crying for help . You gotta underdtand that too.

D: I do but this doesn’t justify her behaviours .

P: May I know what she did ?

D: She and this Egyptian girl embarressed me on the streat . They laughed at me and they have VEEERY loud. They punshed me too . Daily .

P:I’m sorry.

D:It’s ok.

 

(D sighs)

 

D:The Egyptian girl would take all of her school books and hit me with them on my head. She would slap me on my face . Once she even thrwe my mobile on my forehead. She would sit on my lap even though she is 1m80 or so .. She is quite heavy and there was one time she hit me so hard , I almost died.She also choked me .I survived.

P:What did the teachers do ?

D:Nothing .

 

(A few hours later)

 

P:You’re really brave! You’re stronger than yesterday .

D:Really ?

P:Could this mysterious young man have something to do with your courage ?

D:Kinda …

 

(N leads D to her room)

(D changes her clothes, lays awake in bed and reads a book)

(Someone knocks on the door)

 

N:Someone wants to speak to you. Shall I let him in ?

D: Of course.

C:I couldn’t wait until tomorrow.

D:It’s ok .

C: How you doing now ? Have you finished your session with Dr G for today ?

D:Yes. She said that I was braver than yesterday.

C:That’s good. I’m proud of you , keep going !

D: Thanks .. You were the one who ecouraged me in the first place .

 

(C takes a seat on the chair near the bed)

(The boy suddenly disappears and the mysterious woman in balck takes a seat on the chair.)

 

D:Who are you ?

T:Your worst enemy .

D:LEAVE ME ALONE !!!!!

 

(T disappears out of the blue)

(N enters the room)

 

 

N:Who are you talking to , my kid ?

D:I’m talking to this woman in black . A few minutes ago you came and told me that there was a young man who wanted to talkt o me .. Then he sat on this chair and then he disappeared and this woan came and disappeared too …

N:I have noooo idea about what you’re talking about . I just enetred this room because I heard you yelling. Nobody came and asked for either …