Aziz Annem by Yusra Hussain (grave mercy TXT) 📕

Annem,

I don't think that I shall ever be independent, I will be always counting on you for every little thing. For a girl like me, I should be managing myself, making decisions on my own but I don't think I can. You have always guided me and I still need you to guide me in every decision of mine. I feel that I can never do anything I want to on my own and I really don't want to. I know that whatever decision you'll make for me will be the best for me.

Secrets, from you? Never. I don't think I've kept anything secret from you nor I ever will. There is always some kind of restlessness in my heart even if I try to. I may hide something from you for a day or two but not more than that. Telling you each and everything is something I am used to, its something which I have been doing since I was small and I will still do.

You know, at school, with class fellows I had always been looking for a best friend, a friend whom I can share everything with, whom I can trust and rely on, who will never make me go wrong and one whom I can count on in time of adversity. I realised that I was looking for a diamond everywhere when Allah has already granted me one. You, Annem, are that very friend of mine. I can never have a friend better than you.

You have always been there for me. May Allah grant you a lovely, longer life Aameen.

I don't think I can ever repay you for all that you have done for me, for the smiles you brought on my face, for bringing up confidence in me. What I am today, due to Allah's Mercy Who made you, I am because of you. You provided a shoulder to cry upon, told me that, "Don't worry, I am always there for you", has made me believe in myself.

I remember myself almost falling apart at many instances, in many times. You prevented me from doing so. I was a meek, feeble girl, finding myself unable to speak up for myself. You brought in me that very capability. Its because of you annem, that I am now able to express myself, to interact with many, to question and to answer and to face challenges in life and succeeding in them.

The trust you have in me, is a gift that I shall treasure. You, yourself, are an even bigger gift. A beautiful gift of God, a reflection of His Mercy, an epitome of love and affection. Your trust is something I shall never ever break. You gave out your heart to me, to bring a smile on my face. May the Almighty always give you reasons to smile and protect from distress.

I don't know whether I can be a present for you but I definitely acknowledge that you are a gift of God for me, a beautiful gift, more delicate than a flower and more precious than any jewel on this planet and beyond. I hope that I too, turnout to be a present for you, who makes who proud to be possessed by you, one whom when you talk of your eyes reflect your joy and your heart filled with pleasure. I hope that I can become, if not whole, a little bit of your smile and happiness.

This is just a small reflection of what I feel for you, things which I could not put in words, emotions that I've always had for you, with a hope that you like it, although you deserve way much more.

May Allah give you the best from His blessings and give you a long life and make me the one who always makes you happy Aameen.

And I hope to be a part of your prayers forever, just like I've always been.

 Love you so much dearest Annem.

Dear readers,

I really hope that you read the first chapter before reading this note. 

"Aziz Annem" is actually a Turkish/Azeri word for "Dear Mom". The reason I chose this title for writing a book on my mom was to make it really unique and special. I thought of giving the title as "Beloved Mom" but I found this term much sweeter and beautiful in its own way.

This book is about the feelings I have for my mom, things which I have never shared with her, and I have tried to share them with her through this book. I hope that she likes it when she sees it.

This time, I would love to know your comments on this, and your feelings after reading this book.

Thanks

Yusra Hussain

Publication Date: 05-16-2013

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Dedication:
A gift for my mom