Broken by Vic Johnson (accelerated reader books txt) 📕

‘So what happened?’ I asked Jack. We were sat at our usual lunch table. I had not heard from him all weekend and when I asked him why he said he had spent all weekend with Beth talking about their future.

‘Nothing. She still has a boyfriend’

‘So what did you discuss’ I didn’t understand ‘is she breaking up with him?’

‘Ok I’m going to tell you something but you can’t tell anyone. Even Brooke’

‘Ok’

‘We didn’t spend a lot of time talking, if you get what I mean’

‘Wow that’s low even for you’

‘What?’ he said shocked

‘You knew she had a boyfriend and you had sex with her anyway’

‘We didn’t have sex. I swear we only had sex that one time. Well twice but one night. We just made out a lot’ he sighed. ‘I feel terrible’

‘You should’ I got up ‘He doesn’t deserve that’

He got up too ‘I know and were not going to do anything again till she has broken up with him’

‘When will that be?’

‘On Saturday. He is away at some scholastic thing this week and she doesn’t want to do it over the phone’ he stood in front of me ‘are we ok?’

‘Yeah were cool mate’ I said shaking his hand.’ I just feel bad for the guy. He is a really nice guy’

We started walking again.

‘I’m not a jerk Charlie. When she leaves him on Saturday I’m not going to start kissing her in the corridors on Monday. I wouldn’t do that. Plus Beth and I can’t figure anything out till she has spoken to Freddie.’

‘Ok as long are you’re not a douche about it’

‘I swear’ he said and walked off to his locker.

‘Can you believe those two’ Brookes voice came from behind me. I turned around to face her and kissed her cheek. ‘Look at them’ I did. They were at their lockers laughing.

‘Did Beth tell you?’

‘Yeah. I don’t approve’

‘Me neither but it was always going to happen’

‘She shouldn’t have started dating Freddie it’s not fair’

‘I know baby. Are you still coming to mine tonight?’

‘Yeah course I am. I’ll see you at seven’ she kissed my cheek then walked off. As I watched her leave I thought about what I wanted to happen tonight. We had been taking things slow so we got it right but it had been two and a half month now and I wanted her so much. My mum was working till late so I was hoping tonight was the night.

When Brooke knocked on the door I suddenly felt very nervous. After saying hello I led her up to my room. I was hoping she wouldn’t say anything as we normally hang out in the TV room.

When we got to my room she sat on my bed and turned on the TV.

‘Did you have a good day?’ she asked looking at me.

‘It was ok’ I reply sitting on the bed. ‘I’m disappointed in Jack’

‘Me too and Beth. They have handled this horribly. It was her mum, she knew all along that Jack couldn’t phone and didn’t tell Beth. I think now Beth knows this she knows what she did to Jack by going out with Freddie was wrong. But its Freddie who is going to get hurt.’

‘Wow her mum is horrible’

‘Yeah she is’

‘I don’t want to talk about them anyway’ I pulled her legs down so she was lying on the bed and lay on top of her. We started kissing and it was good. I love kissing Brooke. I put my hand up her shirt and she pushes it back down. I do it again but again she pushes it away.

‘Charlie stop’ she says pushing me away.

‘What?’

‘Were not having sex’ she says standing up and putting her coat on.

‘Don’t just leave without talking to me about this. Us not communicating is why we lost a whole year together’

‘Fine’ she sat on the end of the bed away from me.

‘Why don’t you want to have sex?’ I asked. Better to get straight to the point.

‘It’s not that I don’t want to I just don’t want us to rush anything and ruin it’

‘But if we have sex – make love – it will bring us closer, more intimate’ I say which I do believe.

‘I love you’ my mouth falls open. I don’t know what to say. I stare at her for what feels like forever.

‘Wow, thanks’ is all I can manage and as soon as it leaves my mouth I wish it hadn’t.

‘Thanks? Really? That’s why we are not having sex’ she gets up to leave.

‘Don’t go please I’m sorry. I don’t get why ok? You’re not a virgin’

She looked really mad ‘I wanted you to be my first. I fantasised about that moment for years then you fucked me off and instead of it been with you all nice and safe in here it was in the back room of some club with a guy whose name I can’t remember because I was off my face forgetting you’ she took a deep breath. ‘I don’t blame you for that; we should have talked stuff out a lot earlier. But I have never made love. It has always been just sex and I wanted it to be different for us. I wanted you to be the first person I made love to. I have been in love with you for years but I am not going to have ‘sex’ with someone who doesn’t love me. Not anymore’

‘I love you’ I say before I can stop myself. I don’t even know if it’s true but I have never wanted her as much.

‘You are such a cock’ she stormed out of my room and was downstairs and out the door before I knew what was happening. I stood at the door and watched her drive off. I had literally no idea where that had gone wrong. I just wanted to make love to my girlfriend.

‘Then he said ‘I love you’ so I called him a cock and left’ I was pacing my room. Maddy and Beth were sat on my bed watching me.

‘Your well within your right to say no to him’ Maddy said ‘but I don’t know why you would’

‘Because I don’t want to mess this up. I wanna make sure he wants me as much as I want him’

‘Beth come on help me out here, you’ve had sex with Freddie right?’

‘No’ Beth says looking surprised ‘Brooke if you don’t want to sleep with Charlie then don’t’

‘Why haven’t you slept with Freddie, he is hot’ Maddie asks.

‘I don’t even know him really’

‘Didn’t stop you sleeping with Jack’ Beth’s eyes opened really wide and I look at her begging her to forgive me with just a look

‘What? My Jack?’ Maddie screamed.

‘Calm down’ Beth said

‘You’re the girl that he loves? Who broke his heart? The reason he won’t take me back?’

‘I’m sorry ok? I didn’t know we would become friends. That’s why I didn’t tell you’ Beth said

‘And you knew?’ Maddie said looking at me.

‘You were in Florida and when you got back it was over so what was the point in hurting you’

‘I am no longer friends with either of you’ she shouted and stormed.

‘Wow, thanks for that’ Beth said.

‘I’m sorry I didn’t even think.’ I sighed ‘can we get back to my problems now?’

‘Yeah sorry. Look if Charlie doesn’t respect you enough to honour your wishes then he is not worth it. I know he is the love of your life but you want to wait and he should respect that. I wish Jackson and I had waited.’

‘You do?’

‘Yeah I’m like you. I haven’t slept with anyone I have been in love with. My first time I was 15 and wasted in the back of the 25 year olds car. I didn’t even remember most of it the next day. I was a mess back then. My dad had just died and I drank anything and took anything that was handed to me. I wish I had waited’

‘Do you wish Jack was your first?’

‘No. I had a boyfriend back home called Preston’ she had never talked about her life at home before not really. I didn’t even know her dad had died. She only told me Jessica was her mum just before school started. ‘Preston loved me, like really loved me. I was dating him when I slept with the other guy. I don’t know if Preston knew or not but I know he deserved better. I tried to break up with him a few times but he wouldn’t let me. I wish I had loved him. I just didn’t feel I would ever love anyone again after my dad.’

‘You never told me about your dad’

‘I only told Jackson. I didn’t want sympathy or people knowing about my past’

‘I’m glad you told me’ I felt closer to her.

‘I’m sorry me and Jackson have caused a problem for you and Maddie’

‘Don’t worry she will come round. What are you and Jack going to do?’ I was genuinely concerned this was going to blow up in her face.

‘Nothing until I have spoken to Freddie. I know you think I’m been harsh but we haven’t been right since I wouldn’t go to the dance’ she sighed. ‘After that Jackson and I will talk. We will take it slow’

‘You have to be careful with Jack. He has changed a lot since he met you and nobody is as surprised as me that he kept his promise about no other girls but I saw how he treated Maddison and I don’t want that to be you’

‘I completely trust him’

‘Ok. So do I then. I will rip off his balls if he hurts you though’

‘You will have to get in line.’ We both laugh.

‘What you going to do about Charlie?’

‘I think I’m going to go talk to him’

‘I think you should’

I got to Charlie’s house and went straight in. I knew his Mum was at work and they always kept a spare key in the plant pot. I had rehearsed my speech all the way over and I was ready to sort it out. It was late now but I wasn’t leaving till it was sorted.

I opened the bedroom door and walked in. When I looked at his bed I nearly fainted. I had to hold on to the door frame. He was asleep and so was Maddie.

Neither had clothes on. I felt my heart break right there. I took off the necklace that he bought me on our first official date and put it on his bedside table and left.

I didn’t know where to go or what to do. I couldn’t go to Beth’s it was too late and Paige would