dawn swan by chelsea johnson (a court of thorns and roses ebook free txt) 📕

me and smiled he hugged me and I stiffened
“Benjamin she doesn’t like being touched” henry snapped I glared at him as Bennie let go
“Err I know that this is probably the worst time but my name is Jayden” he smiled I looked at him confused
“You know the one you are supposed to marry?” he said I sat up and looked at him then at henry he nodded
“Hello Jayden my name is Dawn” I smiled he held his hand out to me so I covered my hand with the sleeve of my hoodie and shook his hand
“Dawn I’m sorry about this but I need to touch your hand for a moment” he said I stepped back from him and shook my head fearfully Bennie grabbed my hand and calmed me instantly “I won’t hurt you” he said taking a step forward I stepped back again horror written over my face he raised his hand to touch my face and I held my hands in front of my face protectively
“What happened to you?” charlotte whispered Jayden grabbed my hand and I punched him in the face
“Crap” I mumbled when I saw him on the floor “I’m so sorry it’s a reaction” I said looking at him he looked beyond pissed so I stepped back instinctively then I realised that I had hit him so I took a step forward to him I deserved to be hit
“JAYDEN” Bennie shouted making me jump “Don’t touch her” he growled I bent down to Bennie level and smiled at him
“Bennie can you leave us alone for a minuet I know that Jayden has a few questions for me” I said I looked at everyone else who was leaving the room Bennie nodded then left I sat down on the sofa “Go on I know you have loads of questions” I said looking at him
“Ok…… why don’t you like to be touched? Why as soon as you saw I was pissed did you take a step forward instead of back? What happened to you to make you like this?” he whispered the last one I sighed
“It’s about time my past court up with me” I whispered I took a shaky breath and then continued to tell him my story “well when me, and my mamma moved into California I was told I wasn’t allowed to date anyone or get too close to anyone of course I already expected them she told me every time we moved but she never told me why, anyway I agreed and 2 days later this boy call Eric got a little too close to me and I told him I wasn’t allowed to date him and he flipped he hit me so hard I was in hospital for 2 weeks in a semi coma but it wasn’t the fact that he hit me it was the fact that he knew I didn’t like to be touched but he would always touch me first I thought he was trying to be funny, but he never let me go when he felt me stiffen, so when I woke up and saw him by my bed I screamed as loud as I could, doctors nurses, my mamma and police officers came bursting in the door my mamma ran to my side along with all the docs and nurses and the police arrested Eric apparently he has been under police watch for beating his last girlfriend within an inch of her life for wanting to leave him, so we moved again but I couldn’t shake it I still felt like he was watching my every move and I still do” I whispered I kept my eyes on the floor the whole time “The reason I can’t be touched is because I had a horrific life growing up, my step dad….. Harper…. He Err…. He like to play with little girls so I can’t be touched anymore I flinch, stiffen or punch them, he got arrested 6 months after moving in with us” I whispered “so that answers all of your questions” I said looking up at him he looked, angry, hurt, and in pain
“You went through all that and only found out today that you have to marry me” he whispered his voice came out horse so I knew he was holding back tears
“Yes and do you know what, I am glad I told you but I swear to god if you lay a hand on me you will end up in the hospital” I said trying to lightened the mood he smiled and then I turned to the door
“You do know that your family was listening the whole time” I asked he, he nodded and I giggled the door flew open and Bennie ran and jumped on me
“BENJAMIN” they all shouted at once he looked at them confused “she doesn’t like to be touch you just heard why” charlotte scolded him
“Bennie is the exception” I whispered they all looked confused “he calms me down yes I stiffen at first because it’s natural but he instantly calms me” I smiled at Bennie he beamed at me
“Err you start school in the morning with me and my brothers” Jayden said smiling
“Ok what’s your name’s?” I asked the boys they both looked sad
“Samuel” said the smaller boy out of the two but he towered over me though he had brown shaggy hair and blue eyes
“Daniel” the tallest boy said he had blond hair and blue eyes
“Err, where’s my room?” I asked everyone looked down “I’m sharing with you aren’t I?” I asked Jay he nodded and I smiled “show me then I want to find my bag” I whined I saw my bags in the hallway and grabbed my small one and pulled out a packet of cookies and grinned I ate all of them while sitting cross legged on the floor I heard footsteps behind me and shot up guarding my cookies for dear life I saw henry walking towards me I grabbed my bag and ran I heard people chuckling and henry was just about to reach me when the doorbell rang we both froze we walked back into the living room and I saw a blond bimbo get on my man I dropped my bag and set my cookies carefully on the floor then I walked over to her
“Excuse me?” I said politely she turned and glared at me
“What do you want mutt” she growled I raise my eyebrows at her
“Excuse me but a mutt is a dog I am in fact a person” I stated I heard Bennie laughing behind me as well as Sam and Danny laughing right in front of me
“Whatever” she mumbled I smirked at her
“Now I suggest you get your grubby hands off of him or I will throw water over you” I said she turned and stood up she stepped towards me and I stepped back
“DON’T TOUCH ME” I said fiercely I don’t think I could handle it if she touched me not after I just told Jay about my past
“OOOOO you scared of physical contact” she sneered she raised her hand and touched my arm I flinched and stepped back but she cornered me tears fell from my eyes and she laughed and raised her hand and slapped me I whimpered I couldn’t defend myself I was scared and frightened knowing I couldn’t protect myself it was like living with harper all over again
“LEAVE HER ALONE” Jayden growled at her she turned to face me
“Touch him and I will make your life hell” she whispered she turned around and I fell to the floor and tears spilled over the flash backs started coming about Harper and when he used to slap me I felt someone touch my shoulder I flinched and opened my eyes I saw everyone looking at me with sad eyes I stood up and brushed myself off
“Please don’t pity me, I don’t need it” I said I looked at Jayden and instantly I needed to get away from him
“I’m sorry” he whispered
“Next time you wanna cheat please don’t do it near me” I whispered and then I looked at henry and he looked heart broken
“Where are the showers and a room to sleep in?” I asked him
“You are staying in my room” Jayden said walking towards me I flinched and stepped back
“You can sleep in my room I have a double bed if you don’t mind sharing?” Danny offered I nodded, he lead me upstairs and into his room I had a shower then I borrowed one of his shirts and slipped that over my black lacy underwear and walked downstairs.
I walked into the kitchen and saw like 10 boys all staring at me I looked down at myself and blushed instantly
“Sorry Danny I couldn’t find my clothes” I whispered he chuckled and pulled out a chair at the table I took a seat next to him and Bennie and the other boys started asking me questions
“Who are you? Are you his mate? Are you like us?” I held my hand out signalling for them to be quiet
“Hello my name is dawn and I’m marring Jayden I think?” I whispered the last part
“Of course you are still marring me” he said looking offended I saw red
“SORRY” I snapped at him “I didn’t know if I still was seen as you where swapping spit with another girl right in front of me” I growled I stood up and so did he, he grabbed my arm and my fist connected with his face everyone was shocked
“I’m sorry” he whispered
“No you’re not you are a player it’s what you do” I stated “And for the last time DON’T TOUCH ME” I shouted Danny and Bennie were instantly by my side
“Jayden” they snapped
“You know damn well you shouldn’t of touched her, yes she is your mate but that doesn’t give you the right to touch her, you know about her past and how much it hurts her didn’t the first punch give you any idea” henry said with authority
“What happened to you?” a boy with brown hair, brown eyes and a square face
“I didn’t have much of a life growing up and yes it has affected me” I whispered turned round to face charlotte “I apologise I have rewind dinner forgive me” I said then sat down Jayden sat down next to me in Danny’s seat
“I’m sorry I really am” he whispered he went to touch me and I flinched “I’m sorry I forgot” he said you could hear the guilt in his voice
“Why do you want to touch me? Let alone marry me I’m damaged goods I will always be” I said he looked broken
“Because you are my mate and I love you” he stated everyone gasped and a tear fell from my eye I closed my eyes and grabbed hold of Bennie’s hand and he squeezed my hand tight I opened my eyes and I shakily raised my hand and touched his face Sam, Danny, henry, charlotte, and the pack watched in amazement as I stroked his face nobody realised how much pain it coursed me to touch him I pushed the bad memories back and focused on him, I saw him close his eyes so I took as much strength in me and kissed his lips softly I pulled back and I let a shaky breath out
“I’m sorry I can’t do more than that” I whispered
“You done amazing dawn” henry