dawn swan by chelsea johnson (a court of thorns and roses ebook free txt) 📕

said I let go of Bennie’s hand and turned to face him
“He gave me the strength to do it” I whispered
“So the only way you can touch people is when Benjamin is holding your hand?” the boy that spoke to me earlier asked
“For now” I whispered “I know you want to know what happened to me and as I can’t tell you without myself hurting when I go to bed I will allow henry to tell you” I whispered they all nodded and I smiled
“Well should we eat or what?” henry said I smiled at him and turned and saw Jayden looking at me he looked hurt
“What’s wrong?” I asked him the whole table turned to look at us
“I felt your pain” he said looking at me “When you kissed me, I felt how much it hurt to touch me let only kiss me why? Why did you do it? If it hurt so much why not leave it?” he was in pain I looked at him
“Because you told me you love me, the thing is I was once told that when you are shown love with someone you care about then you have to get hurt to make them happy” I whispered “the thing is Jay I DO care about you, you don’t realise how much it hurt me when I saw you kissing that blond bimbo, I trusted you with one of my most horrific memory and secret that I have and the next thing I know your making out with someone else, yes Jayden I was forced to marry you but I thought if we could trust each other then I would finally be able to touch you without being in pain but you ripped out my already broken heart before I could heal” I whispered I stood up and turned to leave everyone had tears in their eyes “So I’m sorry if it was my fault because I wouldn’t let you touch me, I thought if I explain why it was hard for me to love…. to trust….. Then you would understand but obviously I was wrong I shouldn’t of told you so soon” and with that I walked in to the living room and sat down I felt my heart beat slow and I was calm
“Bennie” I whispered he smiled and came and sat on my lap and we fell asleep like that
chapter two - jayden's point of view

Jayden’s point of view
“I felt your pain” I said looking at her I knew how much it hurt her just to touch me why on earth did she kiss me “When you kissed me, I felt how much it hurt to touch me let only kiss me why? Why did you do it? If it hurt so much why not leave it?” I was in pain she looked at me
“Because you told me you love me, the thing is I was once told that when you are shown with someone you care about then you have to hurt to make them happy” she whispered I felt my heart ache “the thing is Jay I DO care about you, you don’t realise how much it hurt me when I saw you kissing that blond bimbo, I trusted you with one of my most horrific memory and secret that I have and the next thing I know your making out with someone else, yes Jayden I was forced to marry you but I thought if we could trust each other then I would finally be able to touch you without being in pain but you ripped out my already broken heart before I could heal” she whispered I was too stunned to even speak she stood up and turned to leave everyone had tears in their eyes but my eyes were only on her “So I’m sorry if it was my fault because I wouldn’t let you touch me, I thought if I explain why it was hard for me to love…… to trust….. Then you would understand but obviously I was wrong I shouldn’t of told you so soon” and with that she walked in to the living room everyone was looking at me tears ran down my face I went to get up but Benjamin stopped me
“She needs time” he said and walked into the living room I fell in to my chair and my head fell into my waiting hands how could I hurt her, she has been through so much and yet she trusted me and told me her secrets how could I have been so stupid I thought
‘you just hurt our mate she hates us’ my wolf whimpered I stood up angrily and the chair fell on to the floor with a slam I started pacing trying to find an idea to make it up to her
“It’s your own fault” Daniel said and walked out I couldn’t blame him I wouldn’t want to be near me I looked at my dad and my mum, my dad was comforting my mum who was sobbing
“I’m sorry” I whispered to them my mum looked at me and I saw her pain as well as her anger
“It isn’t us who you need to apologise to is it” she screamed at me “You have broken that girl YOUR mate” she sobbed I couldn’t take it anymore I walked stair to the living room I heard everyone coming after me but I didn’t care I needed to talk to her, I walked into the living room and saw her asleep with Benjamin holding on to her tightly I kneeled next to their chair and put my hand on her leg her eyes shot open but as soon as she saw me she relaxed I realised this was Bennie’s doing even in is sleep he helps her and I can’t thank him enough for doing it
“I’m sorry, I didn’t mean to hurt you” I whispered she went to speak but I held up my hand “the only reason I didn’t stop Shannon from kissing me was because I was thinking about you only when you interrupted us did I realised who it was it was too late” I said she touched my face and I leaned into her hand
“I forgive you” she whispered
“But...?” I whispered she smiled
“Forgiving is easy trusting is hard you may have my forgiveness but not my trust you have to earn it” she whispered I nodded
“I understand” I said she smiled and pulled my face down to hers I kissed her softly and only a quick one I didn’t want to hurt her I pulled away and I saw Bennie looking mad
“DON’T KISS IN FRONT OF ME” he screamed I laughed and she smiled and kissed Bennie’s head a growl came out of my mouth and dawn looked shocked
“Did you just growl?” she asked me I nodded looking down “do it again and I won’t talk to you until you apologise to whoever you growled at” she stated my jaw dropped
“But you kissed him” I said she rolled her eyes
“He is family” I nodded I turned round and saw the pack smiling at us I blushed and looked down what the hell I never blush I thought all the boys laughed and I rolled my eyes and turned to dawn
“Where are you sleeping?” I asked her she frowned
“With Danny tonight” she said I looked down hurt “sorry but I need time” she whispered
“I understand” I said she smiled and touched my cheek Bennie let go of her and I ripped my face away from her horrified I didn’t want to hurt her
“Bennie don’t” I said he looked at dawn and frowned
“I was trying to help I can feel what she was feeling” he said I looked at him
“I wanted to touch you without Bennie but I didn’t want to be hurt or let you feel me hurt” she whispered I nodded
“Later let’s go eat dinner before it gets cold I said she stood up and pulled Bennie to the table we all sat down and ate my wolf relaxed but was still pissed that I hurt her

chapter 3 - dawns point of view

We were all sitting at the table joking about and eating
“So are you guy’s going to tell me your names or what?” I asked them they all grinned
“Oh my god I didn’t introduce you guys I’m sorry” henry said looking at me “well this is the moonlight pack obviously there is Daniel my eldest son – 22, Jayden and Samuel my twins children – 19 and Benjamin my second youngest – 10 but he is the youngest boy I also have a daughter her name is Arabella my youngest child – 5 then there is the other members Zack, Shawn, Matt, Steven and Abbey they are all 19 or 20 this year Harry, Jake and Michael are all 17 or going on 18, William is our youngest he is 16 and Stephan is 22” I nodded
“So I’m with Harry, Jake and Michael?” I asked
“No you will be an alpha” Jay whispered I shivered
“When you complete the bond that is” Jake said Shawn slapped him round the head
“So what are you?” I asked them
“Wolves” Harry said smiling I grinned
“So does that mean I’ll get awesome piggy back rides?” I asked they all chuckled
“But you can’t be touched” Zack said totally confused
“I can’t do skin to skin” I clarified “that’s why when I shake someone’s hand I have my clothes covering my hand” I said they all looked dumbfounded I smiled I looked at the clock and my eyes went wide we have been talking for ages it was now 10 pm
“Well I’m going to sleep” I said I grabbed Bennie’s hand and kissed Jayden on the lips and then dragged him to bed too.
THE NEXT DAY
I woke up with a hand wrapped around my stomach and their legs wrapped around mine I panicked and screamed as loud as I could the person shot out of bed and I picked up