mistakes and lies by pumpkin1997 (best ebook reader for laptop txt) 📕

her the pen and paper.

bellasPOV
i couldnt talk to them but i could write.i started with emmett and rosalie first.then seperate ones for alice,edward and jasper.when i was finished i handed them to carlisle.
"could you give these to them."he nodded and walked out of the room.

emmettsPOV
carlisle handed me a letter and i opened it quickly

dear emmett and rosalie,
i think you understand why im upset but not why i jumped.i jumped because i thought it would sort everyhting out.it would take me away from here and you could move on with your lives.i wanted to die.a part of me still does but im not sure anymore.i want to know how much you knew about alice and jasper.please
bella


edwardsPOV
dear edward,
jasper told me that you knew nothing about what was going on.is this true?i jumped off the ciff because i couldnt take it anymore and wanted to die.i think i still do.
bella

alicesPOV
dear alice,
how could you lie to me?i asked you that night and you lied.im angrier at you because jasper didnt lie,he just didnt say anyhting.do you want to know why i jumped of the cliff?i couldnt take what was happening and wanted to die.why alice?
bella

jaspersPOV
dear jasper,
why did you have to save me?ive been dragged back into my life of hate,sadness and lies.why didnt you tell me about you and alice?
bella


bellasPOV
i must have fallen aslepp because when i opened my eyes there were 5 letters on the table.the first one was from emmett and rosalie
bells,
we only knew about jasper and alice a few hours before you did.we caught the kissing and they begged us not to tell you.dont shut yourself off again please
rose and emmett

dear bella,
i truly had no idea about jasper and alice.i always knew that they were close but nothing like this.
edward


dear bella,
i couldnt tell you bella.you and jasper are so close and i didnt want to hurt youre feelings.im the newest to our little 'group' and i thought that you would hate me for loving jasper.im sorry.
alice


dearest isabella,
i didnt tell you about me and alice because i thought it would hurt your feelings and break up our friendship.i see now that our friendship is broken anyway.

i will never let you die bella.especially because of something that is my doing.watching you jump into the water was the hardest thing that ive ever done.and lying to you is the most selfish thing ill ever do.please believe me when i say that im sorry.
jasper


carlislesPOV
i looked over and bella was crying
"carlisle can yyou get emm,rose and edward please."

emmettsPOV
carlisle called me,ed and rose into bellas room.we stood around her,none of us makking eye contact.
"i owe you all an opology.i wrongly accused you and im sorry."what the hell!why is she apologising to us?i pulled her in for a hug.rose and edward joined in to.


bellasPOV
they left and alice came in.before i could open my mouth alice said"bella im sorry ive been such an idiot.i understand that you dont want to be my friend anymore so ill just go,"she started walking away.i grabbed her wrist and spun her around.
"never go alice.ever,"

next it was jasper.neither of us said anything.wevdidnt need to.he sat next to me on the bed.i held his hand and cried into his chest.i loved jasper,he was like my brother and protector.
"bella i have to tell you something."
i looked up at his face
"bella im going to be a soldier,"
"thats nice so how many years?"
"um bella not years months."i felt the anger swell up inside me and i pushed jasper off the bed.he landed on the floor.
"well thats great jasper!get me to forgive you then run off to fight in a war!"i shouted at him.all of the others stood in the doorway.
"i hate you jasper whitlock.get out of this room,get out of this country,get out of my life!be a soldier,fight and make sure you die!"jasper walked out of the room.


jaspersPOV
i wiped a tear from my eye.we'd done it again,ever since we were children me and bella had been upsetting each other but never like this.she'd never told me to go and die before.never.even in our worst fights.


bellasPOV
over the next two months my life got back to normal except we were missing one person jazz.he never sat with us anymore and always shooed alice away.
"can we all go to the carnival on saturday.it sounds like fun,"said emmett.everyone agreed and then he turned to me
"i dont know em,"
"please bella,for me,"
"ok emmett for you i'll go."

alice had dressed me up in a black one shoulder top and some kinda fancy jeans.we had arranged to meet there so alice pulled me into her car.she drove as always too fast to the carnival and the others were standing in a sort of circle by the entrance.i walked over to them but turned around again when i saw jasper with them.edward caught my wrist and twirled me round.
"stay,you dont even have to talk to him.stick with me."he grinned and i squeezed his hand in a silent message saying that i would stay.all of the rides were awesome.
"one final ride.the ferris wheel.bella go take a seat i'll just pay,"edward said.i climbed in and sat down.then i saw jasper sitting opposite me.emmett salmmed the cage door down and motioned for the man to start the ride.we were wt the top when it suddenly stopped moving.
"let us down emmett!"
"nope.not until you two work out your issues."
"what a set up,"jasper mumbled
"to right,"
after a few minutes i spoke"why jasper?why now?i always thought you were joking when you said you want to be a soldier.
"i would never lie about that bella.i thought you knew me better than the others,guess i was wrong!"he hit the cage.
"jasper calm down,"
"why should i bella?you went and jumped off the bridge!"id never seen jasper this angry before.
"jazz,"
"maybe when i break this cage i should jump out of it.were very high up i dont think id survive the fall!"i put my head in my hands and started crying.jasper pulled my hands off my face.
"bella you know i didnt mean any of that dont you?"
"no jasper you meant everything that you said and you are right."he sat down next to me.
"do you want me to answer your questions now?"i nodded."ive always wanted to be a soldier and i figured that i would be about 20 when i joined.but with everything thats been going on i want to get out of forks.this place holds to many bad memories for me now.thats why i got so angry.for the past few months ive been holding my emotions in but i didnt think that i would actually be able to break the matal."i looked over and surely enough there was no longer a metal door.
"so when are you going?"
"a month.th 29th october."
"two days after your birthday


jaspersPOV
"whats got you so worried bella?"
"ill hardly ever get to see you anymore."i laughed but it was cut short by the cage rocking.i slipped out of the cage and lost my gripping.

alicesPOV
bella screamed and jasper fell out of the cage.my jasper was falling.my love.

edwardsPOV
god jasper

emmettsPOV
holy shit.jasper man

bellasPOV
i screamed as jasper fell.i reached my hand out even though i knew that it was too late.
"get me down now!"when i was almost at the bottom i jumped and ran over to jasper.he was completely unconcious.i ran over and knelt beside him.
"jazz,"i looked up at the others.emmett was hugging rose,edward was frozen with shock and alice was sobbing.i walked over and brought her into a hug.i could feel my own tears running down my cheeks
"hes not dead alice,he has a heartbeat."

the ambulance arrived 5 minutes later.
"only two can come with us,"the paramedic announced
"yo two go.me,rose and emmett will follow behing in my car."i nodded climbing into the ambulance.
neither of us spoke during the journey.WHAT IF JASPER NEVER WOKE UP?THIS IS ALL MY FAULT.IF ONLY I HADNT MADE HIM SO ANGRY.
we got out of the ambulance and we were told to wait while jasper went into theatre.i sat down and pulled alice onto the seat next to me.
"talk to me alice please,"she shook her head.the others came into the waiting room then.

two hours later we were still there.alice had fallen asleep in edwards lap and rosalie was crying silently.i pulled my legs up onto the chair and rested my chin on my knees.carlisle came out of jaspers room.
"bella he said he wants you,"i got up and walked into his room.he looked the weakest ive even seen him.he opened his eyes.
"jazz im sorry,"i sobbed.jasper sat up and pulled me onto the bed with him.he took my face in his hands
"dont say that bella.this is not your fault."


jaspersPOV
"but it is.if i hadnt made you angry then you wouldnt of fallen."
"bells,you do understand that much worse things will happen to me when i fight in a war?"she nodded into my chest.i stroked her hair.pain shot up my arm but i tried to ignore it.bella noticed
"im scared,"
"about what?"
"losing you.jasper weve been friends since we were five.i dont know what i would do without you,"
"nothing will happen."
"ok then.so what shall i call you now?"
"im major jasper whitlock,"i couldnt help but smile


edwardsPOV
"dad,how bad are his injuries?"
"two broken ribs and a fractured wrist."
"will he still be able to go to the army?"
"if they pronounce him 'fit' thats not my judgement,"


jaspersPOV
3 weeks and four days had past since the accident.i was out of hospital and would be going to join the army in two days.
"come on jazz,"bella called from her living room.i laughed and walked in.i was met by a chorus of
"happy birthday!"i sat down between alice and bella.my two favourite girls.then it was time for presents.edward gave me a swiss army knife.my na,e engerved on it.rose and emmett gave me a shirt saying NO IM NOT JASPER,IM MAJOR JASPER WHITLOCK!everyone laughed as they read it.alice,being alice,gave me a army uniform and bella gave me a key.we all ran outside and sitting on the pavement was a motorcycle along with two helmets.i walked over to it and stroked the black paintwork before throwing a helmet to bella.she giggled and put it on.i pulled mine on and sat on the bike.bella got on behind me and wrapped her arms round my waist


edwardsPOV
jasper and bella had just sped off on the motorcycle.
"this opens up some other present ideas for next year,"emmett said a grin spread across his face.
"i agree.matching leathers,"alice added.we all groaned
"alice can you not think about clothes for once?"i questioned
"yes i think about shoes and bags."alice answered smugly.


jaspersPOV
2 days later and i was about to board the train which would take me to texas.emmett and edward shook my hand.rosalie hugged me lightly.i kissed alice and turned to bella.a single tear rolled down her cheek.
"goodbye jasper,"
"bells this is not goodbye."i promised.she flung her arms round my neck.
"bella can you do me a favour?"she nodded"look after alice.i wont be home for six months and try not to let her buy to many things."
"i will,"i stepped away from my friends and began walking to the train.