Disciple of Vengeance by CC Rasmussen (phonics readers .txt) 📕

JANIS WAS DEAD.

That should have disturbed him, but as a veteran of the Shimmer he accepted its flood of impressions. The character of its formless expanse. Everyone who dreamed recognized it, but for those who had spent their lives entering by choice, as he had, the Shimmer was a kind of home. He knew it as the eternal chaos between universes. A realm of abstraction where Lethi god-beings dwelled, wizards explored, and the infinite dead and yet-to-be-born swirled in a sea of potentiality. Some speculated that the Shimmer was real, and it was growth in realms like Urias that was the dream. Most of them were wizards who had lost their minds. Janis had once thought as they did, but he’d chosen a different path. He saw the Shimmer as Death, and that was how it embraced him now.

His body oozed blood as it descended into an abyss. It was like watching a doll. The pain he endured was deeper, in the essence of who he was.

All the triumphs and losses accrued over 22 years of life were leaking away as his body spasmed. His mind was fracturing, evaporating into the countless potential Janis’s that had never been or would never be. How had this happened? He grasped at memories that slipped away like fish. Clutched one that blossomed within him like a flare. Flames, blood on his hands; screams, shouting; could make out a face…

Renea.

His sister. Her violet eyes glistening as she regarded him from a stone rampart. Someone had arms around her, thin face leering at him. Who?

Finally, you are where you deserve to be…

A presence coalesced, reading his dissolving mind like a tome. Janis struggled for a name, and as he did, an image formed of a pale face with coal-black eyes. The man with Renea. His name wouldn’t come.

It’s because you are dead, son of Aphora…

No, Janis thought. Not yet.

“As the body goes, so goes the mind.” Fourth Apothegm.

Janis reached into the Shimmer with everything he had. “Help me, Lethi,” he screamed into the storm of abstractions. “Give me life and I will give you substance.”

The presence laughed into Janis’s soul. His name rose like a sickness. Orinax. Betrayer, murderer, kidnapper. He’d fled with Renea. When? Why?

You were narrow-minded, arrogant, and petty. Your sister has far more potential. Soon, all Urias will witness it, and all the bloated kings and nobles of this world will fall before us But you will not because you will be no more. His essence dissipated. Janis groped for it. One last chance to stay tethered to reality. Surrender. Death is all the World Tree has for you. He disappeared, and only the swirling, maddening darkness remained. Janis called out again, but even the god-beings and lesser Lethi had abandoned him.

Rage swept through his fading essence. Hate for Orinax, but most of all for himself. Who was he that he could have failed so utterly? He couldn’t remember.

The being that was Janis flickered like a sputtering flame. He would be no more and lose Renea forever. Why was that important? No, the question was, “how could it not be?” She was his family, and his enemy had taken her. Yet there was such release in letting the pieces of himself drift away. Soon, it would all be over. He could accept it. Perhaps it would be as the ancient priests had said, and he would be reborn in some happier universe with better fortune.

He felt something nearby, like a ripple in a bottomless ocean. Another presence. Was it in Urias or the Shimmer?

Hail, broken one…

It spoke in a whisper, caught by his fading mind over a distance so great he couldn’t conceive of it. Its mind was alien. The more he looked, the less he understood. It felt like staring off the edge of a cliff with no bottom.

There is a way you can yet survive…

“How?” Janis intimated.

Agree to make me manifest through you, and I will give you lives.

“Never,” Janis thought. It wanted to own him. To make him a mage. A mere vessel for alien powers.

A partnership… a symbiosis… we will sustain… grow…

In Urias, his body sank to the bottom of the abyss. In time, it would decay and scatter, the same as his soul. Could he accept being a sorcerer? Living in partnership with a Lethi of the Shimmer given life?

Bring me into existence, and I will give you the power to crush your enemies…

He saw it as it’s said the prophets and shamans first glimpsed piercing the Veil between reality and the Shimmer. He was godlike, using his mind and control over the Veil to rupture hundreds, thousands of his enemies. Could it be true? Should he believe it?

All can be yours… but you must accept…

The rage swelled in Janis’s heart. What difference did it make what he had to sacrifice if the choice was between death and vengeance? Being something at all was better than being an abstraction. If it meant he could save Renea…

Revenge…

On the wizard who’d killed him, the gods and people who’d left him for dead, reborn in a universe only redeemable through destruction.

Choose now or perish…

The last of Janis’s memories slithered out into the ocean of thoughts and endless potentialities as his lungs swelled to burst.

He chose vengeance.

*****

HE WOKE COUGHING, lungs on fire, his body a wet rag. He was on the edge of a foul lake. One of the smaller ones that caravans often stopped at to feed their daks and other cattle. He tried to stand, cringed from the pain, and forced himself to keep going. Vomited up more of the foul liquid, collapsing back to the wet mud. Sucked in air. One, two, three… caught his breath and took in what was to have been his grave. “Lake” was a generous word for it. The water was sludge. He remembered… it bubbled up from underground. That’s what he’d been sinking in. What he’d died in. The thought sent a shiver through his body. His insides felt putrid, his chest like it had been scraped with scythes. He breathed in again, each sweet caress of the wounds reminding him that yes, he was alive.

Alive, but not whole.

Who was he? “Son of Aphora” the presence had called him. He searched his memory like a child groping through an old house, only to find it empty. Room after room was bare except for one. Filled with scorching heat, Renea’s eyes on him from the rampart, a dark figure looming behind her.

Orinax.

It was hard to stand up again, but he did anyway. The Wastes of Southern Saurius baked around him under the thick heat of the tri-suns, the earth flayed like a leper’s skin. The Waste. He pictured endless dunes, ruins; unbearable heat, danger lurking in every scrap of shade. Yes, he remembered. It was hell, and yet he was happy to be alive in it.

The lake was at the bottom of a crater. There were many in the Waste. Depressions created eons ago, when ancient Set had battled rebels and god-beings on Urias’s surface. This was a larger one from the looks of it, its lip starting its ascent a hundred paces away from him. That meant he was far outside the city. J’Soon. Minarets and palaces, bazaars and slums. Somehow he remembered all that, but nothing about himself. He looked around. The heat of the suns scalded his orange skin. How had he gotten here?

As if in answer, a pungent stench seeped into him. He looked down. He was standing atop a heap of bloated bodies, some mutilated, so only their sigils and armor gave them away. Servants, women, merchants, soldiers. Who were they? Who had done this? He strained his brain, trying to remember. A man in a golden robe among a crowd, leering; soldiers killing soldiers in a magnificent banquet hall; sigils ripped to shreds as a palace burned. None of it made sense. He stepped on what had once been a girl of indiscriminate age, his foot sinking in through her body like stepping on a bowl of porridge. He had to get out of here. To find out what happened, who he was. As he approached the distant lip, he clutched his stomach, squishing the organs underneath him with each step.

How was he going to survive? Who would recognize him?

The wizard would, and so would Renea. Yes, that’s what he had to do. Free her. All he had to do was to find and kill Orinax. He smirked. The sound thudded against the thick air, as inconsequential as his chances. He stumbled over the bodies as he trudged across the soggy graveyard for what seemed like the rest of history. His body was a tired, cut-up muscle, half-spasming as he forced it forward.

“Hey! A live one!” someone yelled from above.

He looked up. A silhouette loomed on the edge of the lip above him. The man’s form was bulky with heavy armor. Two banners attached to his back waved in the wind underneath the orange sky as he sat atop his horse. Janis stopped his slow march and squinted up at him.

A dozen others crowded beside him. Some rode horses. Others, the lesser mercenaries, held long scimitars and wore patchy leather armor as they leered at him from their masters’ sides.

“It is our lucky day, brothers,” one of them boomed. Third from the middle, atop a horse. The leader. “This one’s bounty will pay for these days of tired hunting. A bonus to the first man to go down there and collect.”

No one moved. An arrow struck the head of a corpse at Janis’s feet. “Walk to us, Janis of House Aphora, and we’ll make your end quick.”

Janis… that was his name. Memories bubbled up, hazy and incomplete.

“No,” he said. His voice gravel in his ears.

“If we have to go down there to kill you, we’ll make it last a week.”

“You couldn’t last any longer than you would in bed, bottom feeder.”

The boss reeled back on his horse and yelled in rage. Arrows streaked past Janis’s face, plunging into bodies below him. The leader stood still as the others on horseback raced down the hill. A thrill shuddered through him. He’d died already